Class of January 2019 Part 2
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Join Date: Oct 2018
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Welcome Andy!
Like many of you I'm also suffering from intense irritability. Every little thing is driving me crazy and I know I'm being irrational but I can't help it. Trying to keep a lid on it as much as possible. I know it's just a phase I'm going through that will pass.
Still exercising every day which is a good outlet and it's great being in a routine, My sweet tooth has went insane! I went out and bought a load of healthy sweet treats to enjoy and I'm working them into my calories on a daily basis. Is anyone else dealing with the intense sugar cravings still? It's not something that's bothering me
The only thing I'm worried about at the moment is when January is over. At the moment I've told everyone I'm quitting alcohol because I'm doing dry/sober January which a lot of people are doing after Christmas. I'm just worried about when January is over. I definitely am not going back to drinking but I just need a plan. My partner is doing it too and is already dropping in the odd hints about how much alcohol is a miss and she can't wait to have a glass of wine etc.
Started reading the naked mind. A few chapters in so far so I'm gonna read more tonight. Day 16 down
Like many of you I'm also suffering from intense irritability. Every little thing is driving me crazy and I know I'm being irrational but I can't help it. Trying to keep a lid on it as much as possible. I know it's just a phase I'm going through that will pass.
Still exercising every day which is a good outlet and it's great being in a routine, My sweet tooth has went insane! I went out and bought a load of healthy sweet treats to enjoy and I'm working them into my calories on a daily basis. Is anyone else dealing with the intense sugar cravings still? It's not something that's bothering me
The only thing I'm worried about at the moment is when January is over. At the moment I've told everyone I'm quitting alcohol because I'm doing dry/sober January which a lot of people are doing after Christmas. I'm just worried about when January is over. I definitely am not going back to drinking but I just need a plan. My partner is doing it too and is already dropping in the odd hints about how much alcohol is a miss and she can't wait to have a glass of wine etc.
Started reading the naked mind. A few chapters in so far so I'm gonna read more tonight. Day 16 down
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Join Date: Jun 2014
Location: Midwest US
Posts: 157
Wow! I just stood at my kitchen sink for about 20 minutes debating myself on whether I should pour myself a drink (only one very strong one left in the bottle) which I reasoned would give me a nice buzz but wouldn’t give me any negative effects. I literally dumped out my water (left my ice in the cup) and went to pour the vodka but at the last second I poured it in the sink instead of my glass. That was a close one! I cannot believe how seriously crazy I felt standing there going back and forth with myself. So ridiculous! But the challenge is done. Nothing left in the house. Day 16 will be done soon.
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Join Date: Oct 2018
Posts: 591
I used to be a night owl, now I have no energy. I can manage to stay awake for only a few hours a day then I’m depleted. I do feel great after I drag myself to the gym and do a workout but then I eat dinner and have to rest. I’m on antidepressants but I am hibernating like a bear. At least the nightmares have calmed down but the vivid dreams continue.
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Join Date: Jul 2010
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Hi all,
Some people reading this might remember me but it's been a long time. It's really hard for me to write this but I returned to drinking a couple of years ago after living sober for over four years. Maybe at some point I will feel like explaining in detail what happened, but not right now... what it comes down to is that I fell into the age old trap of wanting to believe I was cured and could drink normally.
After spending a good deal of time messing up my life, I am back. I have a partner I care deeply about who I think I would lose if I did not quit drinking again, because I keep starting stupid irrational fights with him when I am drunk
But beyond that, I want to get healthy and have a clear mind again. I am scared about what I might have been doing to my liver and I have missed being able to sleep well and having the focus that comes with sobriety.
I'm scared that I will fail at this again but it's too risky not to try. My partner has been completely supportive and has been handling this like a champ. He was not in my life yet the last time I was sober, and I've only recently confided in him about all of that, but he's totally handled everything I've thrown at him and is proud of me for trying again. Which is helping.
This is way more than I meant to write for my first post back... but I'm glad to be back here again.
So here I am, class of January 2019, day 5.
SBTS
Some people reading this might remember me but it's been a long time. It's really hard for me to write this but I returned to drinking a couple of years ago after living sober for over four years. Maybe at some point I will feel like explaining in detail what happened, but not right now... what it comes down to is that I fell into the age old trap of wanting to believe I was cured and could drink normally.
After spending a good deal of time messing up my life, I am back. I have a partner I care deeply about who I think I would lose if I did not quit drinking again, because I keep starting stupid irrational fights with him when I am drunk
But beyond that, I want to get healthy and have a clear mind again. I am scared about what I might have been doing to my liver and I have missed being able to sleep well and having the focus that comes with sobriety.I'm scared that I will fail at this again but it's too risky not to try. My partner has been completely supportive and has been handling this like a champ. He was not in my life yet the last time I was sober, and I've only recently confided in him about all of that, but he's totally handled everything I've thrown at him and is proud of me for trying again. Which is helping.
This is way more than I meant to write for my first post back... but I'm glad to be back here again.
So here I am, class of January 2019, day 5.
SBTS
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Join Date: Jan 2019
Location: K.C.MO
Posts: 425
Originally Posted by JustTony 
It's brilliant when a day goes to plan like it has for me today. I set a lot of goals and I completed them and it has left me feeling positive.
Gym - 06:30 (Weights) = DONE
Meeting - 10:00 (Long Journey - Didn't have to go - but was good that I did) = DONE
Lunch - 12:30 (with important client) = DONE
Gym - 15:00 (45 minute run on treadmill) = DONE
Happy
Gym - 06:30 (Weights) = DONE
Meeting - 10:00 (Long Journey - Didn't have to go - but was good that I did) = DONE
Lunch - 12:30 (with important client) = DONE
Gym - 15:00 (45 minute run on treadmill) = DONE
Happy
Keep it up. I made it to the gym, I did weight, lower body & some core work. Love the high that I get from it. I guess that I should go more often. :-)
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Join Date: Jan 2019
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day 16
Hello friends, Day 16, still SOBER! Yay! Had a decent day at work, I am hearing the AV. They say things like, your friends don't like you anymore, you are worthless, you are not a good person......Knocking my self esteem down.....The voices kind of went away after the gym but I can still hear them whispering in the background. I don't like the voices. Kind of making me a little weepy. It is almost bedtime. Hope that I can get a good nights sleep. We will chat tomorrow.
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Join Date: Jan 2019
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Welcome Andy and welcome back STBS. JJ9: great you didn't give in to AV.
I'm grateful that I stayed sober today for day 16 but I was definitely more triggered than usual. I skipped meals and went to work. Being hungry after work is my biggest trigger; I can't keep skipping meals.
I still get slight rashes on my liver; so, that must say something about how much pressure I was putting on it. It's a reminder of the poison that I was consuming. I need a routine for sleeping and eating.
I'm grateful for everyone's posts. They keep me going. Thank you.
I'm grateful that I stayed sober today for day 16 but I was definitely more triggered than usual. I skipped meals and went to work. Being hungry after work is my biggest trigger; I can't keep skipping meals.
I still get slight rashes on my liver; so, that must say something about how much pressure I was putting on it. It's a reminder of the poison that I was consuming. I need a routine for sleeping and eating.
I'm grateful for everyone's posts. They keep me going. Thank you.
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Join Date: Jan 2019
Location: Northeast, US
Posts: 2
Hi everyone. I’m new. This is day one for me (again) . . . Sadly there have been multiple previous attempts at recovery. I hope to finally be successful. I’m turning 50 this year, and I’ve been abusing alcohol for 31 years. That number is staggering. Anyway . . . It is what it is. I look forward to learning from others along the way.
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Join Date: Jan 2019
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Welcome jrents! This is a great group of supportive people taking it one day at time just like you. I've been trying to get sober for the last ten years and have never been consistent or taken it seriously. But you and I are close in age. I can tell that it is taking a toll on my body in a serious way. We're here for you.
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welcome Andy, jrents, and soberbythesea. So pleased you're with us. SBTS, 4 years is amazing. I'm sorry you went back to the drink, bu I'm glad you're back on the right path.
I don't have a lot to say tonight. It was a good day with a much better mood than yesterday, so I'm thankful for that.
Noaddedsugar, I am eating so much better, but I do allow myself to have a sweet treat at the end of the day. It's just enough to have something to look forward to, but not too much to become a new addiction.
I'm nursing a bit of plantar faciitis, so I've had to cut back on running. That's a bit frustrating for me, since running is my outlet. I'll take it easy though and hope this heals quickly. I still enjoy walking and getting to the gym when I can (which isn't very often.)
Anyway, wrapping up day 17 and so please to be a non-drinker.
Goodnight, friends.
I don't have a lot to say tonight. It was a good day with a much better mood than yesterday, so I'm thankful for that.
Noaddedsugar, I am eating so much better, but I do allow myself to have a sweet treat at the end of the day. It's just enough to have something to look forward to, but not too much to become a new addiction.
I'm nursing a bit of plantar faciitis, so I've had to cut back on running. That's a bit frustrating for me, since running is my outlet. I'll take it easy though and hope this heals quickly. I still enjoy walking and getting to the gym when I can (which isn't very often.)
Anyway, wrapping up day 17 and so please to be a non-drinker.
Goodnight, friends.
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Join Date: Jan 2019
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Originally Posted by listae
Welcome jrents! This is a great group of supportive people taking it one day at time just like you. I've been trying to get sober for the last ten years and have never been consistent or taken it seriously. But you and I are close in age. I can tell that it is taking a toll on my body in a serious way. We're here for you.
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