Originally Posted by Kris47

Originally Posted by Sweetpeacan

Thank you all. I am so scared that King Alcohol is on the winners streak again. The call was with my Mums social worker helping transition back home with lots of draconian things in place to keep her safe & I think she caught me out with my vagueness on how I'll cope. Hubby said I need to
Just stay safe today. And I promise of course but who knows. My sober muscles are weak, I can't stop crying, woe is me. The gifts a bottle of rosé give are endless. I will perch on here for a while. I wish my old Mum was here. She used to make everything better and that's never going to happen again ever and I so miss the ego building, caring lady she was. She was always my one woman fan club. It hurts so much. My aunt is hours/days from death & I haven't seen her to say goodbye. Sorry I know it's the hangover and self pity but I feel so alone. SP x

Originally Posted by goodbyeevan

Thank you Suze, Jo, Leigh and everyone. I did use my tools. Gave my mom a call and vented for a good half hour. Asked to have this weekend off or on the schedule to do summer camp preparation. I don't even mind if I'm not getting paid as long as I have time to get it all done. Talked to my bf and we discussed how much better our lives are now and how much worse they'd be if we were still drinking. Looked at pictures of my wrecked car, pictures of my bruised back and contemplated the choices that got me there. Went and got our favorite peanut butter cookie dough ice cream. I hope eventually I can take ice cream off the coping tools list but for now its staying! Thank you for the encouragement! I don't want to get off the sober bus. 24 more please.

Originally Posted by Neoo

I pushed and pushed asking her did she want to break things off with me partly ocd I think then she said yes we are done. After a few minutes she called my mother and explained to her I need to stop and that she done it to show me if I continue like that then it would be over. We sorted things out and she said sorry for what happened and she is going nowhere..Jeez such a stressful thing relationships may not be for me..

Originally Posted by Sweetpeacan

My Darling sweet Auntie passed away this afternoon. So very sad not just for myself,but for my family too. Especially her daughter who has now lost both of her parents. It makes me feel so small that whilst my Auntie struggled to stay alive I'm having the mother of all pity parties beyond ashamed. Going to a meeting tonight, I have to get real.
Thank you for all your kind messages.
Much Love, SP xx

Originally Posted by SoberLeigh

Oh, honey, why were you pushing her? Did I miss something? Did something happen?

Originally Posted by Neoo

I just kept asking her did she want to break up with me because I was thinking and worrying to much Leigh..We have sorted things out now and I just need to chill out and go with it..