Originally Posted by kenton

Jo jo I love you too..... but one little thing..... down here in London town it's still Thursday!!! You got me all flummoxed then.... I had to ask three people at work what day it is. .... and I don't need any more reasons to look crazy. It's Thursday lovely one. I have given you the gift of time xxxx

Originally Posted by wiscsober

Great posts.
Checking in @ 0755

Originally Posted by Sunflower79

Good morning ☀️
I’m committing to 24 more sober hours
Day 136

Originally Posted by SaturatedSeize

Morning all! 24 hours for me please! Stay safe, happy, and healthy!

Originally Posted by Sweetpeacan

Thank you Jo. I want to be normal. I am in full on pity mode. So many people in this world far worse off than me. But today it's all about me.
My husband has gone to work today hoping that I'll be sober when he gets home I don't feel physically well enough to go out so here I am stuck with the worst company I could have me me me.

I am so sick of myself. Build my life up. It's good and I kick it to smithereens again. My Mum is getting home again. My Aunty is very close to death. Oh Yeah, bottle of Wine that'll do. Complaining whingey witch that I am. King Alcohol does it for me again. I've had several ropey phone calls thatI can't remember properly, fairly important ones and the only thing I can remember with any clarity is being asked if I was sure I was ok.

I hate this, and yeah I will get back on track. The lows keep getting lower
I really don't/can't /won't get the message. This crap kills but only when it's taken your dignity and self worth with it. Lower than low today.

Sorry, SP

Originally Posted by venuscat

Yes you did get the message. Of course you did.....gosh honey......think about the stuff we learn in the rooms, and here......this is a disease not a personality defect.....you have a lot to deal with.....your mum, your aunty.....I drank through that stuff.....God knows how I was of any use at all. I was sober when my dad was sick and dying.....and boy do I know how hard it was....but I am proud of myself.....

That poison is a liar love, and it has your head in a muddle, mostly because your AV is thrilled and on the mission that jo described.....oooo, if she gets upset enough she will find a way to go down the street and get more.....oooooo.......but jo is right, we can tell it thanks for sharing, and just (swear word) off and leave us alone.

In a day or so, you will feel better.....how about calling someone from AA. Now. Talk love....no on is going to do anything but help you.

♥

Originally Posted by joandmelandhan

Sweetpeacan honey you can pitch your tent right here every minute of every day if that helps you to work through whatever it is you have going on. Seriously. I mean it.
Look back at my diatribe of pity yesterday. Oh yes I was a big ball of anxious frightened poor-me fear. Apparently I've learned that my neighbour is a turdburger hahahahaha!!!!!!!!!!

Seriously though it's never too late to change the course of your day.
You aren't destined to go full steam ahead into a full-on relapse.
Please dig deep and fight it today. Just today and tomorrow we will focus on tomorrow.


We are here day and night for you SP

Originally Posted by goodbyeevan

Really don't feel like doing this anymore. Tired of feeling excluded from the drinking community and sober community. Been waiting for this f*** it moment to hit and it's here. I'm overwhelmed with working two jobs, one of which requires me to work from home on my own time in the evening. I have no time for fun or hiking and won't for the next 2 months. I know I need to dig deep and find the gratitude I know is in my heart. 24 more hours please.

Originally Posted by Sweetpeacan

Thank you all. I am so scared that King Alcohol is on the winners streak again. The call was with my Mums social worker helping transition back home with lots of draconian things in place to keep her safe & I think she caught me out with my vagueness on how I'll cope. Hubby said I need to
Just stay safe today. And I promise of course but who knows. My sober muscles are weak, I can't stop crying, woe is me. The gifts a bottle of rosé give are endless. I will perch on here for a while. I wish my old Mum was here. She used to make everything better and that's never going to happen again ever and I so miss the ego building, caring lady she was. She was always my one woman fan club. It hurts so much. My aunt is hours/days from death & I haven't seen her to say goodbye. Sorry I know it's the hangover and self pity but I feel so alone. SP x

Originally Posted by Gabe1980

hey Jo - it wasn't a diatribe of pity at all! That sounded like a really horrible situation yesterday and I think most of us would have really struggled with it. I'm a nervous wreck with any type of confrontation and it stays with me for ages, so I feel your pain, I really do.

Great to have you back SP. I've had many day 1s but the important thing is to keep slogging away at it and I'm sure it will stick for you and for all us newbies starting over xxx

Now I'm back at work I'm struggling to keep up with everyone and keep posting. I'm always so tired after work I can't do anything much, so I think I need to get up a bit earlier and check in properly with everyone in the morning. I suck at this work life balance thing. I just wish I had more energy xxx