Class of April 2018 Part 4
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Late morning check in and thank you all for the wonderful support because I know I’m going to need it. First day of my journey begins with step one..I have a bunch of alcohol around my house from the party and down the drain it goes. I was thinking about well I can take it to my dads and he can use it at Christmas, or take it to one of my friends..It’s so money money too just pour, NO DONNY STOP!! It is strong enough to clean your drain so pour it like the poison it is!! I am even a little excited by it because kind of symbolic in a way. Waste it like it has been wasting me for way too long.
Suze, awesome post and so thankful I have yours and everyone’s insights into this. I feel that we are all so blessed to have this place to come and share success and failure, with people who truly care about one another. Also the duck pancake does sound good!! I Have a Chinese and Thai restaurant very close, and between the two 90% of the time I go Thai. LOVE their curry!! I have so much leftover food also and not dumping any of that. My son is going to be tired and probably me as well of leftovers by the end of the week but no cooking for me so👍🏼👍🏼
Daisymum, I hope all is well in paradise and I hope you and hubby have a wonderful time!! Keep us posted, but also put all the electronics away and enjoy each other💜
More catching up to do later, been slacking but it is now tile for my pouring party so stay well April peeps and much love to all of you!!
Suze, awesome post and so thankful I have yours and everyone’s insights into this. I feel that we are all so blessed to have this place to come and share success and failure, with people who truly care about one another. Also the duck pancake does sound good!! I Have a Chinese and Thai restaurant very close, and between the two 90% of the time I go Thai. LOVE their curry!! I have so much leftover food also and not dumping any of that. My son is going to be tired and probably me as well of leftovers by the end of the week but no cooking for me so👍🏼👍🏼
Daisymum, I hope all is well in paradise and I hope you and hubby have a wonderful time!! Keep us posted, but also put all the electronics away and enjoy each other💜
More catching up to do later, been slacking but it is now tile for my pouring party so stay well April peeps and much love to all of you!!
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Originally Posted by Donnyb 
Hi guys and our dear girls of course!!
Late posting as everyone just left and it is now 12:59 am. Great party and everyone had fun and we finished off with s’mores on my fire pit. I have to stay honest because this is where I have to no matter what and will not lie to any of you. I drank with my friends to a very minimum, and I just spelled minimum with out spell check so if that means anything 🙄 I am stopping tomorrow. Kgirl my date will be 5/28/18. I have had enough and just want to stop. I had 4-5 beers throughout the course of the day,and I feel like I am letting myself down every time I take a sip. I’m tired of being fake and tired of listening to my excuses. I am tired of coming on here and telling people I care about stopping and then that I failed AGAIN. Done with it. I don’t want any, Donny keep trying and you’ll get it on your 100th try , no I won’t I am stopping today. I see your lives and how much better you feel and I want that and am going to get it.
Nichole, I honestly just glanced back so not totally caught up but you are going to the mountains?? I will read more in the morning but maybe it’s time for us to climb back down that mountain we have been climbing and are exhausted from and actually enjoy the beautiful view God has given us, instead of throwing back alcohol and when the sun sets not even being coherent enough to enjoy it. There is so much beauty in being sober Nichole, I have felt it and shamed that I gave it up, but God also gives us a new sunset and a new day every morning. It’s time for us to hold on and enjoy the ride together. Tomorrow is day one💜💜💜
Suze I also glanced back and saw something about duck pancake something and can’t click back because I will lose post bbbuuuuttt, I love you and I also have those Canadian people just north of me that make buckwheat pancakes with Canadian maple syrup...just sayin🤫. Enjoy your days off!! 💜💜
Daisymum!!! Off on your getaway!! I hope your husband finally comes around and sees how hard you are trying, and what a kind hearted woman he has walking through life with him. I know there are two sides to every story but I also know he has a wonderful wife that encourages and gives kind words everyday to people that need it. We all love you and enjoy you trip my dear Daisymum!!💜💜
Goodnight all and I know I missed some of you but just quick check in!! Love hoops? Vipe your back!! Rowland 😊💜Strawberry as always💜💜💜💜 Kgirl, everyone 💜💜
Late posting as everyone just left and it is now 12:59 am. Great party and everyone had fun and we finished off with s’mores on my fire pit. I have to stay honest because this is where I have to no matter what and will not lie to any of you. I drank with my friends to a very minimum, and I just spelled minimum with out spell check so if that means anything 🙄 I am stopping tomorrow. Kgirl my date will be 5/28/18. I have had enough and just want to stop. I had 4-5 beers throughout the course of the day,and I feel like I am letting myself down every time I take a sip. I’m tired of being fake and tired of listening to my excuses. I am tired of coming on here and telling people I care about stopping and then that I failed AGAIN. Done with it. I don’t want any, Donny keep trying and you’ll get it on your 100th try , no I won’t I am stopping today. I see your lives and how much better you feel and I want that and am going to get it.
Nichole, I honestly just glanced back so not totally caught up but you are going to the mountains?? I will read more in the morning but maybe it’s time for us to climb back down that mountain we have been climbing and are exhausted from and actually enjoy the beautiful view God has given us, instead of throwing back alcohol and when the sun sets not even being coherent enough to enjoy it. There is so much beauty in being sober Nichole, I have felt it and shamed that I gave it up, but God also gives us a new sunset and a new day every morning. It’s time for us to hold on and enjoy the ride together. Tomorrow is day one💜💜💜
Suze I also glanced back and saw something about duck pancake something and can’t click back because I will lose post bbbuuuuttt, I love you and I also have those Canadian people just north of me that make buckwheat pancakes with Canadian maple syrup...just sayin🤫. Enjoy your days off!! 💜💜
Daisymum!!! Off on your getaway!! I hope your husband finally comes around and sees how hard you are trying, and what a kind hearted woman he has walking through life with him. I know there are two sides to every story but I also know he has a wonderful wife that encourages and gives kind words everyday to people that need it. We all love you and enjoy you trip my dear Daisymum!!💜💜
Goodnight all and I know I missed some of you but just quick check in!! Love hoops? Vipe your back!! Rowland 😊💜Strawberry as always💜💜💜💜 Kgirl, everyone 💜💜
but you are in a process and you are doing the best you can. Relapses happen, learn from them, you are fighting a battle and you took a blow. All you need is to pick yourself up again and keep on trying.
Thanks for your mind words re myself and my husband. Things between us are much better now, not perfect but greatly improved. We're getting there. 🙏
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I did it. I dumped everything down the drain. I started to just pour, then as I opened each can or bottle and as it began to pour I started saying how it harmed me, or things it made me do, how it made me hate myself and the next thing I know I was standing at my kitchen sink crying, and I don’t cry.That was one much needed first step..💜
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Bravo re Donny estsi bravo ! Dumping was the right thing to do !!!
I need to find a new way of dealing with my relationship with my husband . Alcohol numbed the pain. Exersise must replace this . When I feel sad or upset I must hit the weights !
I need to find a new way of dealing with my relationship with my husband . Alcohol numbed the pain. Exersise must replace this . When I feel sad or upset I must hit the weights !
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Originally Posted by Donnyb
I did it. I dumped everything down the drain. I started to just pour, then as I opened each can or bottle and as it began to pour I started saying how it harmed me, or things it made me do, how it made me hate myself and the next thing I know I was standing at my kitchen sink crying, and I don’t cry.That was one much needed first step..💜
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Hi again my April's
I hope you've all had a good day. I'm sorry about my sporadic posting but I'm using my kindle and it's almost as bad as using my mobile. I'm just sat in bed on our room and the other half is fast asleep, in fact he's snoring like a pneumatic drill and if it doesn't stop I may have to suffocate him with a pillow. Just saying. The poorly person on the plane this morning possibly had a heart attack and was taken
I hope you've all had a good day. I'm sorry about my sporadic posting but I'm using my kindle and it's almost as bad as using my mobile. I'm just sat in bed on our room and the other half is fast asleep, in fact he's snoring like a pneumatic drill and if it doesn't stop I may have to suffocate him with a pillow. Just saying. The poorly person on the plane this morning possibly had a heart attack and was taken
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Hi again my April's
I hope you've all had a good day. I'm sorry about my sporadic posting but I'm using my kindle and it's almost as bad as using my mobile. I'm just sat in bed in our room and the other half is fast asleep, in fact he's snoring like a pneumatic drill and if it doesn't stop I may have to suffocate him with a pillow. Just saying. The poorly person on the plane this morning possibly had a heart attack and was taken to a hospital, luckily there was a trainee doctor on the flight. We finally got to our hotel about 2.30 this afternoon, we had lunch, unpacked and eat in the sun for a while. This evening we had dinner, went for a long walk and then came back to the hotel to watch the entertainment which was a singing duet followed by a magician, both were surprising good. My husband and my mum had a couple of drinks but I stick to tonic water and coffee. It's been such a long day and I'm very tired but I wanted to post. I want to stay strong this week and although I'm feeling strong right now I don't want to slip when I get home so I'm staying accountable.
Re my earlier post about the chap sat next to me on the plane, who smelt like a whiskey distillery, has anyone else noticed that since you've stopped drinking you are acutely aware of the smell of alcohol on others?I can smell it from 50 paces and it knocks me sick.
Anyway with that I'm turning the light off and going to sleep. Nite nite. Xxxx
I hope you've all had a good day. I'm sorry about my sporadic posting but I'm using my kindle and it's almost as bad as using my mobile. I'm just sat in bed in our room and the other half is fast asleep, in fact he's snoring like a pneumatic drill and if it doesn't stop I may have to suffocate him with a pillow. Just saying. The poorly person on the plane this morning possibly had a heart attack and was taken to a hospital, luckily there was a trainee doctor on the flight. We finally got to our hotel about 2.30 this afternoon, we had lunch, unpacked and eat in the sun for a while. This evening we had dinner, went for a long walk and then came back to the hotel to watch the entertainment which was a singing duet followed by a magician, both were surprising good. My husband and my mum had a couple of drinks but I stick to tonic water and coffee. It's been such a long day and I'm very tired but I wanted to post. I want to stay strong this week and although I'm feeling strong right now I don't want to slip when I get home so I'm staying accountable.
Re my earlier post about the chap sat next to me on the plane, who smelt like a whiskey distillery, has anyone else noticed that since you've stopped drinking you are acutely aware of the smell of alcohol on others?I can smell it from 50 paces and it knocks me sick.
Anyway with that I'm turning the light off and going to sleep. Nite nite. Xxxx
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Originally Posted by snitch
Daisybelle...things to be grateful for..
1. It is not you.or your husband that has had the medical emergency.
2. It is not you drinking whiskey and oozing alcoholic fumes.
3. It is not you getting excited by the drama.
You'll soon be on the beach or by the pool and can reeeelax . X x
1. It is not you.or your husband that has had the medical emergency.
2. It is not you drinking whiskey and oozing alcoholic fumes.
3. It is not you getting excited by the drama.
You'll soon be on the beach or by the pool and can reeeelax . X x
and I do intend to use my comments on my gratitude post. X
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Lovehoops so good to hear from you am so pleased you are doing well!
Daisy...no i didn't realise you were taking mum 🤣 you did good with water and coffee 👍 hope you get a good nights sleep.
Strawberry sorry to make you crave. Least its not alcohol lol!
Hi Dee!
Donnny you did good today 🤗
Viper I hope you are taking it easy?
I have had a nice day. Am at my parents and we've been in the garden all day. My brother, sis in law and my sister were drinking. I went to the shops to get some san pellegrino limoncello but they didn't have any so got lucozade instead!! I tend to stay clear from sugary drinks but hey anything is better than alcohol and I'd rather be drinking something I enjoy. I do drink alot of water too so that's good. Anyway I did glance at their glasses a couple times but I won't allow myself to think how nice a glass of wine would be because, er well, it wouldn't!!! I didn't miss drinking today at all. I had a great time playing with the kids and this evening chatting to my mum and dad over a cup of tea I was just so grateful that I am not doing that anymore.
It is so nice to be in bed sober and to know I will be waking with a clear head tomorrow and to look forward to the day rather than painfully dragging myself through it. Ugh!!!
Daisy...no i didn't realise you were taking mum 🤣 you did good with water and coffee 👍 hope you get a good nights sleep.
Strawberry sorry to make you crave. Least its not alcohol lol!
Hi Dee!
Donnny you did good today 🤗
Viper I hope you are taking it easy?
I have had a nice day. Am at my parents and we've been in the garden all day. My brother, sis in law and my sister were drinking. I went to the shops to get some san pellegrino limoncello but they didn't have any so got lucozade instead!! I tend to stay clear from sugary drinks but hey anything is better than alcohol and I'd rather be drinking something I enjoy. I do drink alot of water too so that's good. Anyway I did glance at their glasses a couple times but I won't allow myself to think how nice a glass of wine would be because, er well, it wouldn't!!! I didn't miss drinking today at all. I had a great time playing with the kids and this evening chatting to my mum and dad over a cup of tea I was just so grateful that I am not doing that anymore.
It is so nice to be in bed sober and to know I will be waking with a clear head tomorrow and to look forward to the day rather than painfully dragging myself through it. Ugh!!!
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Good evening everyone, or should I say night as I am now in bed and I’m sure most of our UK group have been there for awhile. I had a really good day today, and spent most of it relaxing. My dad gets lonely so got him out to the local casino and he won which made him extra happy and of course i lost🙄 but a nice afternoon anyway and glad to see him happy.
I did see a lot of intoxicated people and today it felt good to not be one of them. I thought a lot today about this morning when I poured out the alcohol. I never expected to become emotional over something so simple, but I became overwhelmed as I looked back at my relationship with alcohol and the more I poured the more I realized how much damage I have done to myself, my life, and relationships because of it. I am a closet alcoholic, who thinks as I hide away and not bothering anyone, no damage done. But it also causes me to shut people out at times, and prioritize it over people in my life. I want to be home at 5:00 starting to shut the world out , and not be out in it. Anyway, it was a good first day. I also know #1 priority is to find a meeting and get too it. I’m sure this is never easy to go to your first meeting, and I’m honestly dreading it, but also know it’s something I have to do. I love all of you but just come on here although totally helps me, is not all I need.
Daisymum, sounds like you had a lovely day, well except for the snoring😛 and hope you have a beautiful day tomorrow.
Suze, sounds like you also had a lovely day, and I have to say I picture you in this beautiful English countryside garden and birds flying around With your family sipping wine reminds me of a movie!! It makes me smile! You are like an imaginary Snow White out there with squirrels smiling and birds landing on your shoulder chirping!! Ok maybe that’s pushing it🙄 but it’s a lovely picture nevertheless!!
Strawberry, hope the day was good and I’m sorry that you struggle with dealing with your husband sometimes. I used to be one and I know we never make it easy on you! I can’t even imagine as busy as you are to have time to exercise, but hope you do and that you feel better😊
Lovehoops, Kgirl, Rowland, D, Vipe, Erratic, I’m sleepy so I know I missed a few but 💜To all of you.
Nichole, hope all is well and going to read farther back now as I fall asleep. Still have to catch up!!
Good evening everyone, or should I say night as I am now in bed and I’m sure most of our UK group have been there for awhile. I had a really good day today, and spent most of it relaxing. My dad gets lonely so got him out to the local casino and he won which made him extra happy and of course i lost🙄 but a nice afternoon anyway and glad to see him happy.
I did see a lot of intoxicated people and today it felt good to not be one of them. I thought a lot today about this morning when I poured out the alcohol. I never expected to become emotional over something so simple, but I became overwhelmed as I looked back at my relationship with alcohol and the more I poured the more I realized how much damage I have done to myself, my life, and relationships because of it. I am a closet alcoholic, who thinks as I hide away and not bothering anyone, no damage done. But it also causes me to shut people out at times, and prioritize it over people in my life. I want to be home at 5:00 starting to shut the world out , and not be out in it. Anyway, it was a good first day. I also know #1 priority is to find a meeting and get too it. I’m sure this is never easy to go to your first meeting, and I’m honestly dreading it, but also know it’s something I have to do. I love all of you but just come on here although totally helps me, is not all I need.
Daisymum, sounds like you had a lovely day, well except for the snoring😛 and hope you have a beautiful day tomorrow.
Suze, sounds like you also had a lovely day, and I have to say I picture you in this beautiful English countryside garden and birds flying around With your family sipping wine reminds me of a movie!! It makes me smile! You are like an imaginary Snow White out there with squirrels smiling and birds landing on your shoulder chirping!! Ok maybe that’s pushing it🙄 but it’s a lovely picture nevertheless!!
Strawberry, hope the day was good and I’m sorry that you struggle with dealing with your husband sometimes. I used to be one and I know we never make it easy on you! I can’t even imagine as busy as you are to have time to exercise, but hope you do and that you feel better😊
Lovehoops, Kgirl, Rowland, D, Vipe, Erratic, I’m sleepy so I know I missed a few but 💜To all of you.
Nichole, hope all is well and going to read farther back now as I fall asleep. Still have to catch up!!
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Greetings to all!
Catching up on all your posts.
Daisybelle, I hope you have an amazing trip - I love that island. I was drunk on the plane in both directions myself - that was about 15 years ago before my addiction turned wretched, but unbeknownst to me -- I was well on my way back then. Sounds like you have a good plan in place and happy to hear you're not having the cravings
. Enjoy your fun in the sun!
Glad you're with us DonnyB! I love your story about pouring the alcohol down the sink (where it belongs!). It's a powerful moment when you really think about the devastation this liquid causes in our lives. Good on you!! You're taking some meaningful steps in the right direction.
Snitch, Viper, Kgirl, Dee, Suze, Rowlands, Strawberry & to anyone I missed - hope you all have a lovely Monday!
I had a better day today.. Storm clouds are beginning to move and my mood was mostly sunny today. I sure appreciate feeling good after weeks of feeling so lousy. Hope it sticks around for a bit. Maybe the Vitamin D is kicking in. Whatever it is, I'm going to bed with a smile. G'night all! xo
Catching up on all your posts.
Daisybelle, I hope you have an amazing trip - I love that island. I was drunk on the plane in both directions myself - that was about 15 years ago before my addiction turned wretched, but unbeknownst to me -- I was well on my way back then. Sounds like you have a good plan in place and happy to hear you're not having the cravings
. Enjoy your fun in the sun!Glad you're with us DonnyB! I love your story about pouring the alcohol down the sink (where it belongs!). It's a powerful moment when you really think about the devastation this liquid causes in our lives. Good on you!! You're taking some meaningful steps in the right direction.
Snitch, Viper, Kgirl, Dee, Suze, Rowlands, Strawberry & to anyone I missed - hope you all have a lovely Monday!
I had a better day today.. Storm clouds are beginning to move and my mood was mostly sunny today. I sure appreciate feeling good after weeks of feeling so lousy. Hope it sticks around for a bit. Maybe the Vitamin D is kicking in. Whatever it is, I'm going to bed with a smile. G'night all! xo
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Good morning my Aprils
I hope you're all having a good Monday. I'm sat on a sun lounger at the side of the pool will a glass of lemon water. It's a bit cloudy at the minute, but very warm.10.30 and the bars just opened. It's interesting to watch the queue of Brits getting their morning quota of beer. I never was a beer drinker so that doesn't bother me.
Anyway I hope you all have a better day than yesterday but whatever you do, don't drink.
Love to you all.
Each morning we are born again.What we do today is what matters most. Xx
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Good morning my Aprils
I hope you're all having a good Monday. I'm sat on a sun lounger at the side of the pool will a glass of lemon water. It's a bit cloudy at the minute, but very warm.10.30 and the bars just opened. It's interesting to watch the queue of Brits getting their morning quota of beer. I never was a beer drinker so that doesn't bother me.
Anyway I hope you all have a better day than yesterday but whatever you do, don't drink.
Love to you all.
Each morning we are born again.What we do today is what matters most. Xx
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Originally Posted by lovehoops
Good work Donny!!!
Have a great memorial day to those in USA...
Hope the sun comes out.
Have a great memorial day to those in USA...
Hope the sun comes out.
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Hi all just a quick check in 44 days sober here. Enjoying a long holiday weekend sober. I have gotten a lot of R&R in! Amazing how rested you feel when not filling your body with poison. I used to totally be all in for long terrible binges on long weekends...because you have all that time to "recover" and "rest". Just another lie from the alcoholic voice.
I'll admit there were some moments of boredom and restlessness this weekend but I just went with it. I have had cravings and thoughts of drinking over the weekend as well. I followed my plan each time and checked in here, ate something and got busy distracting myself with a chore or reading. If I'm honest this hasn't been an easy weekend, I have had some uncomfortable moments but at the end of the day I am content and grateful. I am truly enjoying sobriety and wish we didn't have to face these demons but I guess it's necessary and part of the process.
Hope everyone is doing well.
I'll admit there were some moments of boredom and restlessness this weekend but I just went with it. I have had cravings and thoughts of drinking over the weekend as well. I followed my plan each time and checked in here, ate something and got busy distracting myself with a chore or reading. If I'm honest this hasn't been an easy weekend, I have had some uncomfortable moments but at the end of the day I am content and grateful. I am truly enjoying sobriety and wish we didn't have to face these demons but I guess it's necessary and part of the process.
Hope everyone is doing well.
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Originally Posted by Donnyb
I did it. I dumped everything down the drain. I started to just pour, then as I opened each can or bottle and as it began to pour I started saying how it harmed me, or things it made me do, how it made me hate myself and the next thing I know I was standing at my kitchen sink crying, and I don’t cry.That was one much needed first step..💜
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Wish you hadn't mentioned crispy duck pancakes Strawberry, my mouth is watering now.
I'm sorry you have difficulties in your marriage, I didn't know but what I do know is that drinking won't make them disappear, it eventually makes everything worse. The best and healthiest way to deal with troubles in my eyes is to be present and through rational communication. I'm not exactly the best person to give relationship advice though with all the mess ups I've caused in mine. Xx
I'm sorry you have difficulties in your marriage, I didn't know but what I do know is that drinking won't make them disappear, it eventually makes everything worse. The best and healthiest way to deal with troubles in my eyes is to be present and through rational communication. I'm not exactly the best person to give relationship advice though with all the mess ups I've caused in mine. Xx
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