Originally Posted by RedBerryJuniper

24 for Red and much love to you all.

Xx

Originally Posted by Babs1234

another 24 please
jsm ---again, so glad you are here. Thinking of you.
Have a great rest of the day Everyone !
Hugs !
Babs

Originally Posted by RedBerryJuniper

OK, I think I feel ready to venture out more and meet new people, and try a new (maybe an old!) activity. . I am glad that I stayed home in the beginning until I felt stronger physically and emotionally . So, slowly, I am going to venture out to ‘safe’ places.

So..here’s what I was thinking: Coffee shops, more popular hiking spots, hanging out at an art gallery, or maybe join a club that does volunteer work. The kind that is least likely to include alcohol in any of their work. Most of the meetup groups are alcohol-centric—arrrgggh. Even painting classes now push wine. Why in the heck do you have to pound wine while you’re painting?? It was never like that before. Why??? Ah well, I am not alone, though sometimes it feels that way. As time goes on this will get way easier. I don’t want to join a bunch of things all at once, maybe just one new, fun thing this week. Doesn’t have to be a big commitment to build fifty houses for disaster victims or anything like that. Just one thing.

I wish you could all come over! Then we could venture out together and have a blast. I do have a few sober friends, but they don’t live here. I will find people. So glad I have my online tribe who totally gets where I am coming from. Please pm or post if you did this and tell me how you did it. I am turning some sort of corner in my recovery which is fantastic. I am so elated—it seems to have just happened over the weekend.

Love to all, and sweetest October dreams

Originally Posted by FaithfulAndFree

24 more

Originally Posted by DaneK

24 more for this sober alcoholic.

Originally Posted by BarbieKen

Hey everybody,
Just checking in for my next 24, with gratitude to my HP, AA, and my family here on SR!
. Bobbi

Originally Posted by Vinificent

9:57 EDT and another 24 for me!

Originally Posted by RedBerryJuniper

OK, I think I feel ready to venture out more and meet new people, and try a new (maybe an old!) activity. . I am glad that I stayed home in the beginning until I felt stronger physically and emotionally . So, slowly, I am going to venture out to ‘safe’ places.

So..here’s what I was thinking: Coffee shops, more popular hiking spots, hanging out at an art gallery, or maybe join a club that does volunteer work. The kind that is least likely to include alcohol in any of their work. Most of the meetup groups are alcohol-centric—arrrgggh. Even painting classes now push wine. Why in the heck do you have to pound wine while you’re painting?? It was never like that before. Why??? Ah well, I am not alone, though sometimes it feels that way. As time goes on this will get way easier. I don’t want to join a bunch of things all at once, maybe just one new, fun thing this week. Doesn’t have to be a big commitment to build fifty houses for disaster victims or anything like that. Just one thing.

I wish you could all come over! Then we could venture out together and have a blast. I do have a few sober friends, but they don’t live here. I will find people. So glad I have my online tribe who totally gets where I am coming from. Please pm or post if you did this and tell me how you did it. I am turning some sort of corner in my recovery which is fantastic. I am so elated—it seems to have just happened over the weekend.

Love to all, and sweetest October dreams

Originally Posted by jsm273

Well, here comes a long post. I need to get this out somehow because it’s eating me up inside. It’s a contributing factor in the last relapse.

I have brother who’s just toxic. I haven’t had any contact with him for a year now. My problems with alcohol pale in comparison with his. He drank and smoked his way into a pacemaker. He didn’t slow his drinking down until he threatened with being fired. He didn’t stop until a doctor told him he’d die if he didn’t stop drinking. He even continued drinking after the pacemaker was put in. He still doesn’t think he’s an alcoholic.

He thinks his siblings are required to take care of him because he got all the bad DNA when he was born. When my mother was still alive, there were times he would lie and con her into giving him money so, he could pay his bills and, continue drinking

A couple of weeks back he called my 66 year old sister and, suggested that she comes to his house once a week and clean, do laundry and go grocery shopping for him. This is on top of everything else that is done for him by his siblings. He makes excellent money and can pay to get these things done for him easily. My sister lives an hour away from him and, is under a lot of stress to begin with.

My sister called after this request was made and told me about it. She was quite angry. About a day later she had a TIA. Two days later she had a full blown stroke. I can’t help but wonder if his request wasn’t a factor in the stroke.

Now it’s come to light that he’s read one book on spirituality. He’s now been born again and, has turned his life over to God. He thinks God can cure everything.

My other sister has severe mental health disabilities. She’s on medication to control her behavior. She always will be. The medicine is a completely nonnegotiable point. She’s stopped taking it in the past and, it’s always turns into a disaster.

Now my brother is trying to convince her to turn her life over to god and, become a spiritual person. Because if she does, God will heal her and, she’ll be able to stop taking her medication. I’m a believer but, Gods not going to cure my sister.

He’s done other equally bizarre things too. I won’t go into those.

Needless to say my anger is through the roof right now. It’s not going away. I laid in bed last night and, thought about this and everything else that’s screwed up in my life and, just started crying. I finally took some PM cold medication to help me sleep.

I'm hoping and praying that this the bottom. I don’t know if I can take much more. All I know is I’m not going to drink today.

Originally Posted by venuscat

rightio then, off to make us a cuppa and do the lists. ♥