Class of August 2017 Part Two
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Join Date: Mar 2017
Location: Kampala, Uganda
Posts: 327
Originally Posted by KiKi0615 
Hang in there Lava! I totally understand! My triggers are ANY negative feelings. I just want to numb out! Let's hang in there and try to find new strategies! We can do this!
I need to feel the way I felt when I first quit in March 2017. I was so sure... So determined. So focused. My husband wasn't even home (he was away for a month) and I was so hyped up (even with loads of alcohol - left over from a party we'd had) and strong. Now, I'm just... blah!
But I don't want any catastrophe to occur because, well, first and foremost, who wants a catastrophe? And, also, I don't respond well to high stress situations; I usually just shut down and say '**** it!'
So, it's back to AA for me now, Dee's recovery plans, urge surfing, and anything else I can get my hands on.
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Join Date: Mar 2017
Location: Kampala, Uganda
Posts: 327
Originally Posted by KiKi0615
Morning everyone. Day 2. Feeling a little better than yesterday. I have therapy today so that's good! I plan to discuss everything that happened on Saturday with him so we can work on a better plan other than alcohol.
Congrats on everyone's milestones! Keep it up! I'll check back in later! :-)
Congrats on everyone's milestones! Keep it up! I'll check back in later! :-)
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Join Date: Jul 2017
Location: Scotland
Posts: 626
Hey everyone. Almost bedtime here so just checking in to say today has been a great day. Nothing earth shattering happened, I did go to see my grandson before work so the day started joyfully (wee star, that's just how he makes me feel!) But even leaving there and going to work I just felt so good. Upbeat, happy, on the ball with work, good chats with friends.
I know we are at the start of the journey and some days have been really tough for me, but having a day like today makes it all worth it and completely reinforced for me why I am doing this. I want more days like today. I am GREEDY for more days like this. Sorry for rambling, sleepytime for me!
Goodnight all, sleep well.
I know we are at the start of the journey and some days have been really tough for me, but having a day like today makes it all worth it and completely reinforced for me why I am doing this. I want more days like today. I am GREEDY for more days like this. Sorry for rambling, sleepytime for me!
Goodnight all, sleep well.
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Join Date: Jul 2010
Location: UK
Posts: 782
Checking in at the end of Day 21. Three whole weeks -yay!
Still in hospital so you might say I'm cheating but sober time is sober time. Now to make a plan for when I get out...
Well done everyone on your progress. Keep up the good work. Forwards.
Still in hospital so you might say I'm cheating but sober time is sober time. Now to make a plan for when I get out...
Well done everyone on your progress. Keep up the good work. Forwards.
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Join Date: Aug 2008
Location: SoCal
Posts: 4,491
My AV started up about 2 hours ago with feelings of sadness (that 3pm down moment) and then started suggesting that wine would soothe the pain but although I had several moments of really really wishing I wasn't having these feelings, I made it through without drinking or ice cream. Very glad that the moments have passed but I hate how it just seems to start up without much warning sometimes.
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Join Date: Apr 2014
Location: Madison, WI
Posts: 181
Way to go, Forwards! And lyddie, for hanging tough.
I think I'm good for tonight and I'll call this day 9. I signed up for some work after-hours , which kept me out of trouble. Can't do it every night, but tying oneself to the mast seems to work in a pinch.
I think I'm good for tonight and I'll call this day 9. I signed up for some work after-hours , which kept me out of trouble. Can't do it every night, but tying oneself to the mast seems to work in a pinch.
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Join Date: Jun 2015
Location: USA
Posts: 2,332
Hi everyone,
Day 10
Today was a pretty good day. We watched the eclipse over lunch which was kind of fun. I am just so tired when I get home though. My house looks like a tornado went through it, and that causes me extra stress. I am going to try to do just a little each night to hopefully get it looking a little better.
No real thoughts of drinking today. I have realized I do need to be careful to make sure I eat and drink regularly because if I get too hungry or thirsty, that is definitely a trigger. I have water by me all day but a lot of times the day goes by and I don't drink it. I am trying to watch that more.
Have a good day/night everyone
Day 10
Today was a pretty good day. We watched the eclipse over lunch which was kind of fun. I am just so tired when I get home though. My house looks like a tornado went through it, and that causes me extra stress. I am going to try to do just a little each night to hopefully get it looking a little better.
No real thoughts of drinking today. I have realized I do need to be careful to make sure I eat and drink regularly because if I get too hungry or thirsty, that is definitely a trigger. I have water by me all day but a lot of times the day goes by and I don't drink it. I am trying to watch that more.
Have a good day/night everyone
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Join Date: Jul 2017
Posts: 194
Tomorrow is 2 weeks and 1 week with no nicotine. Ive been thinking about alcohol all day. I know Im tired after a long weekend at work and feeling really freaking alone right now. Im not going to drink, but I let myself have the thought so I could walk myself through the real ending place of where it would take me.....hangover, misery, sadness, defeat. Ive been really able to tell the AV off for 2 weeks, but this new place Im in is kinda scary...I feel strong and proud, but really lonely. I know Im learning to Feel again and this may be what is the root of my problem today. I cried while writing this, lol, and I kinda feel better! Thanks for listening...
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Join Date: Aug 2014
Posts: 625
Day 9
Day 9!! Today was a good day. Thinking more clearly allows you to focus on other issues in your life and not how bad you feel because you are hungover. It isn't easy feeling so much and thinking so much about stuff. Grateful for feeling good and not being hungover.
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Join Date: Nov 2015
Location: USA
Posts: 5,250
Originally Posted by Lava256
Thanks, Kiki.
I need to feel the way I felt when I first quit in March 2017. I was so sure... So determined. So focused. My husband wasn't even home (he was away for a month) and I was so hyped up (even with loads of alcohol - left over from a party we'd had) and strong. Now, I'm just... blah!
But I don't want any catastrophe to occur because, well, first and foremost, who wants a catastrophe? And, also, I don't respond well to high stress situations; I usually just shut down and say '**** it!'
So, it's back to AA for me now, Dee's recovery plans, urge surfing, and anything else I can get my hands on.
I need to feel the way I felt when I first quit in March 2017. I was so sure... So determined. So focused. My husband wasn't even home (he was away for a month) and I was so hyped up (even with loads of alcohol - left over from a party we'd had) and strong. Now, I'm just... blah!
But I don't want any catastrophe to occur because, well, first and foremost, who wants a catastrophe? And, also, I don't respond well to high stress situations; I usually just shut down and say '**** it!'
So, it's back to AA for me now, Dee's recovery plans, urge surfing, and anything else I can get my hands on.
I get it Lava....I have had times when I am so SURE I have hit my bottom and other times when I'm like "Geeze...maybe I am destined to die from this!?!" I've decided to literally take it one sober hour at a time. We can do this!
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Join Date: Nov 2015
Location: USA
Posts: 5,250
Originally Posted by Wrandi1
Tomorrow is 2 weeks and 1 week with no nicotine. Ive been thinking about alcohol all day. I know Im tired after a long weekend at work and feeling really freaking alone right now. Im not going to drink, but I let myself have the thought so I could walk myself through the real ending place of where it would take me.....hangover, misery, sadness, defeat. Ive been really able to tell the AV off for 2 weeks, but this new place Im in is kinda scary...I feel strong and proud, but really lonely. I know Im learning to Feel again and this may be what is the root of my problem today. I cried while writing this, lol, and I kinda feel better! Thanks for listening...
(((Wrandi))) Hang in there! I know how you feel. You are not alone! We are here with you! I'm saying prayers for you right now! Things will get better each day we stay sober... Big hugs!!!
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Join Date: Nov 2015
Location: USA
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Originally Posted by Lava256
Please tell us how therapy works out for you. I've avoided it for a long time but I can't deny any longer that I really need it. I intend to schedule my first appointment next week, before we go on vacation... Just curious to how it's been working for you.
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Join Date: Jul 2017
Posts: 194
Originally Posted by lyddie
My AV started up about 2 hours ago with feelings of sadness (that 3pm down moment) and then started suggesting that wine would soothe the pain but although I had several moments of really really wishing I wasn't having these feelings, I made it through without drinking or ice cream. Very glad that the moments have passed but I hate how it just seems to start up without much warning sometimes.
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Join Date: Jul 2009
Location: The Great Lakes State
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(((Wrandi )))
Long, tiring day - but got good news. My son says he's quitting drinking and smoking. I gave him tons of encouragement and support. I hope it sticks.
Plus I picked up a 3/4 acre recreational lot for $150 at tax sale this afternoon. It includes membership in an association - three lakes, indoor pool, tennis courts, gated community. The association fees aren't bad, either.
So I celebrated tonight with a nice, cold bottle........of fizzy water!
Hope those of you about to start your day stay safe and strong, and those of us ending it sleep well.
Long, tiring day - but got good news. My son says he's quitting drinking and smoking. I gave him tons of encouragement and support. I hope it sticks.
Plus I picked up a 3/4 acre recreational lot for $150 at tax sale this afternoon. It includes membership in an association - three lakes, indoor pool, tennis courts, gated community. The association fees aren't bad, either.
So I celebrated tonight with a nice, cold bottle........of fizzy water!
Hope those of you about to start your day stay safe and strong, and those of us ending it sleep well.
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