Class of December 2016 Part 3
I think RayJay is still posting on the 24 hour thread. MeSoSober has not been on SR for about 5 days. Not sure about the others, they have not been seen for a while......
With milestones dates:
2 : CK
3 : Quitter and ChloeRose
4 : BringingBackB
13 : MeSoSober
15 : RayJay
21 : Pebbles
22 : RockyMTNrider
26: Capricallia
28 : Enfin
RockyMT last visit on SR was on Feb 15, I hope he's ok.
I saw RayJay yesterday on the 24 hrs thread.
Thanks for your good words everybody for my 3 months.
Your support was very important every day and I hope we'll continue!
Thanks CK, and to everyone else too. Huge shoutous to my fellow classmates Quitter and CR (Even if we're a couple of days early)! Tomorrow is 90 days for me, so 3 months it is! This equals my longest stint sober.
The difference is that this time I have no intention of going back. You couldn't pay me to take a drink. I feel like I can finally see alcohol for what it is, a huge confidence trick. Something that society conditions us to think we have to have to 'cope' with life. It took going through the worst period in my life to realise that, and to accept I don't need it. I don't even want it, because there are zero benefits for me in drinking it, just crushing embarrassment, shame and depression.
I just hope that this mindset never changes, which is why posting here everyday is so important for me. We are a small group, but I love that, as I feel I know you all much more personally, and would consider you all my friends.
Let's push on and smash this. Even when times are tough, it's never worth going back to what we have come from. Together we are stronger.
The difference is that this time I have no intention of going back. You couldn't pay me to take a drink. I feel like I can finally see alcohol for what it is, a huge confidence trick. Something that society conditions us to think we have to have to 'cope' with life. It took going through the worst period in my life to realise that, and to accept I don't need it. I don't even want it, because there are zero benefits for me in drinking it, just crushing embarrassment, shame and depression.
I just hope that this mindset never changes, which is why posting here everyday is so important for me. We are a small group, but I love that, as I feel I know you all much more personally, and would consider you all my friends.
Let's push on and smash this. Even when times are tough, it's never worth going back to what we have come from. Together we are stronger.
Don't count me out . . . because right when you think you've seen the last of me, I will rise up like the monster out of Loch Ness! Or something.
I am somewhere around 80 days. Still sober. Kind of a close call tonight though. Which means I haven't been coming here enough. Duh.
Thanks for not forgetting about me. I have to catch up with everyone tomorrow. I promise I will.
Hugs all around -- you guys are the best!
I am somewhere around 80 days. Still sober. Kind of a close call tonight though. Which means I haven't been coming here enough. Duh.
Thanks for not forgetting about me. I have to catch up with everyone tomorrow. I promise I will.
Hugs all around -- you guys are the best!
Hi everyone...sorry I haven't checked in...I've been either driving or at the hospital with newborn. New problems...MRI confirmed brain anomaly. I don't know what the future holds for this child. Time will tell. No one can predict......
Brought my daughter 2x to see baby. Not sure what's up with her. My instinct tells me she is still using. Awful attitude. I'm "stealing" her children. I love her but I don't like her. Can't deal with her on top of everything else. The 200 mile round trips are killing me. I also have appts with social services, insurance, etc. Learning med routines & cardiac care. I'm glad it's the weekend because my phone won't be ringing off the hook with more calls & paperwork.
Surely couldn't be doing all this & drinking. But driving through the city does bring back lots of memories of my early years. Of course I seem to remember only the the good times. Being at the hospital brings me to the present. I surely never dreamed this is how my life would turn out!
Husband is trying to be supportive about the grandchildren. (He has no children of his own). Never mentions the fact that I'm not drinking. I supposed we should talk about it but I'm either not home, on the phone, filling out paperwork or just plain busy. I was more of a binge drinker not a daily drinker. Maybe he's feeling left out. I don't know. Yes, I guess we should talk about it.
So I'm a bit tired. And scared & nervous of the unknown. I'm trying had not to "project" about EVERYTHING going on....it's hard.
Going back to bed to sleep while I can!
Carry on class!
Brought my daughter 2x to see baby. Not sure what's up with her. My instinct tells me she is still using. Awful attitude. I'm "stealing" her children. I love her but I don't like her. Can't deal with her on top of everything else. The 200 mile round trips are killing me. I also have appts with social services, insurance, etc. Learning med routines & cardiac care. I'm glad it's the weekend because my phone won't be ringing off the hook with more calls & paperwork.
Surely couldn't be doing all this & drinking. But driving through the city does bring back lots of memories of my early years. Of course I seem to remember only the the good times. Being at the hospital brings me to the present. I surely never dreamed this is how my life would turn out!
Husband is trying to be supportive about the grandchildren. (He has no children of his own). Never mentions the fact that I'm not drinking. I supposed we should talk about it but I'm either not home, on the phone, filling out paperwork or just plain busy. I was more of a binge drinker not a daily drinker. Maybe he's feeling left out. I don't know. Yes, I guess we should talk about it.
So I'm a bit tired. And scared & nervous of the unknown. I'm trying had not to "project" about EVERYTHING going on....it's hard.
Going back to bed to sleep while I can!
Carry on class!
Don't count me out . . . because right when you think you've seen the last of me, I will rise up like the monster out of Loch Ness! Or something.
I am somewhere around 80 days. Still sober. Kind of a close call tonight though. Which means I haven't been coming here enough. Duh.
Thanks for not forgetting about me. I have to catch up with everyone tomorrow. I promise I will.
Hugs all around -- you guys are the best!
I am somewhere around 80 days. Still sober. Kind of a close call tonight though. Which means I haven't been coming here enough. Duh.
Thanks for not forgetting about me. I have to catch up with everyone tomorrow. I promise I will.
Hugs all around -- you guys are the best!
Hope to see more of you
Pebbles. ... what a massive amount u are coping with so heroically, total respect. It can't be easy , and you are doing so well for this new life... it's admirable!!! And you are spot on that you couldn't do it without being sober, it would fry your brain is reakon! Sending you much love and strength to get through the difficult times. ... and keep talking to us! All to best for the weekend x
BBB Love the wisdom in your post .. it is a confidence trickk for sure, we are duped into believing from an early age that booze is how u have fun, get kudos, got kicks, get a partner, get high and everything is fun.... and conveniently forget the embarrassment, the vomit, the shame, the accidents and worse.....
Once the veil is lifted one can truly see.... but vigilance is key as it wants you back at all times, like the devil and temptation ... just say no! The cheesy 80s adds were right after all....
Proud of you and your achievements!!!
Once the veil is lifted one can truly see.... but vigilance is key as it wants you back at all times, like the devil and temptation ... just say no! The cheesy 80s adds were right after all....
Proud of you and your achievements!!!
Rocky last posted about 2 weeks ago but was very busy. Hopefully will be back.
3 months today! YIPPEE! The girls got me up about 4 am so have been reading this morning and reflecting on my sobriety journey. Very thankful to have come this far!
3 months today! YIPPEE! The girls got me up about 4 am so have been reading this morning and reflecting on my sobriety journey. Very thankful to have come this far!
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