Class of July 2013 Part 37
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Beautiful post, Dee. One of your most poignant.
Snooz. This is all garbage coming from your addiction. Mine wanted me dead too....and wanted me to feel about as low as I could about myself so I could keep on drinking while I considered my options.
No text message from a child can destroy you. Only you let that happen.
We here are exactly the same as you. We got up and said we aren't taking that anymore. And you've done that before too. Get up. Build on tomorrow's sobriety, then get up the next day, and do the same thing. That's all you need to focus on in the early days. Praying detox and rehab comes through. You have much more joy to give.xx
Snooz. This is all garbage coming from your addiction. Mine wanted me dead too....and wanted me to feel about as low as I could about myself so I could keep on drinking while I considered my options.
No text message from a child can destroy you. Only you let that happen.
We here are exactly the same as you. We got up and said we aren't taking that anymore. And you've done that before too. Get up. Build on tomorrow's sobriety, then get up the next day, and do the same thing. That's all you need to focus on in the early days. Praying detox and rehab comes through. You have much more joy to give.xx
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Snoozy, you see how so many here care for you and love you.
I can't imagine being estranged from a child, never having been a mother. It must hurt like hell. It frightens me when you say you are "writing letters". Please fight for life, you are so young and have much to contribute.
Endgame has a link on Newcomers' I think, about family estrangement, well worth a read.
I loved the story of the feather in the church. Grab on to that thought, feathers are beautiful, but fragile.
Ladybug, good to hear from you.
Bob, thank you kindly for sharing about your parents. I hope they are in fine fettle.
I'm not really too stressed about the heart thing. If I feel myself becoming anxious, I stop, do some deep breathing and stretching, that helps. It is what it is, and I always like SW's line, "don't stumble over something behind you", thanks Wolfie. I'm doing ok. I am fortunate in that at the moment there are few stressors in my life.
I can't imagine being estranged from a child, never having been a mother. It must hurt like hell. It frightens me when you say you are "writing letters". Please fight for life, you are so young and have much to contribute.
Endgame has a link on Newcomers' I think, about family estrangement, well worth a read.
I loved the story of the feather in the church. Grab on to that thought, feathers are beautiful, but fragile.
Ladybug, good to hear from you.
Bob, thank you kindly for sharing about your parents. I hope they are in fine fettle.
I'm not really too stressed about the heart thing. If I feel myself becoming anxious, I stop, do some deep breathing and stretching, that helps. It is what it is, and I always like SW's line, "don't stumble over something behind you", thanks Wolfie. I'm doing ok. I am fortunate in that at the moment there are few stressors in my life.
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I just checked in and read these beautiful powerful messages that have given me such strength .
How can people we have never met can make such an impact on our lives .
Is there any way I can save these messages .
Thank you lovely ones, you have always made me feel like I make a difference xxx
How can people we have never met can make such an impact on our lives .
Is there any way I can save these messages .
Thank you lovely ones, you have always made me feel like I make a difference xxx
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Originally Posted by Dee74 
If I've learned anything Wendy it's that my past does not dictate my future.
I was a drunk for 20 years - coming up on 10 years sober now.
I'm noone special...I just declared and decided which team I was for,
You've been sad for a long time.
I think along with the drinking you'll have to address that sadness too - but I feel absolutely sure you have the courage and the strength to do that.
Your addictions trying to tell you you're weak, you're screwed whatever happens, and that trying to change is futile. Don't believe that nonsense.
It's absolute bunkum.
My addiction told me the same things,. I proved it wrong. It became a point of honour for me.
I know you can do this
Cool rocking 90 year olds have to come from somewhere Wendy - I reckon you're a shoo-in
This is a beginning, not the end
D
I was a drunk for 20 years - coming up on 10 years sober now.
I'm noone special...I just declared and decided which team I was for,
You've been sad for a long time.
I think along with the drinking you'll have to address that sadness too - but I feel absolutely sure you have the courage and the strength to do that.
Your addictions trying to tell you you're weak, you're screwed whatever happens, and that trying to change is futile. Don't believe that nonsense.
It's absolute bunkum.
My addiction told me the same things,. I proved it wrong. It became a point of honour for me.
I know you can do this
Cool rocking 90 year olds have to come from somewhere Wendy - I reckon you're a shoo-in
This is a beginning, not the end
D
This is why you are herevDee
, This is why you do what you do .
I have NEVER felt such peace from a message . Bless you .
I am NOT weak. When I sat in that chapel Christmas morn I felt chills.
I am just so grateful to each and every one of you for not thinking , " oh for Gods sakes snoozy , get it together " I want sobriety more than anything in my life , I love it when I'm sober , I love me when I'm sober.
Reading Bobs Scrooge poem is me. It's so poignant , I saved it and keep reading it. Thanks Bobby ! You've always been in the snoozums corner.
I'm truly blessed & you ALL make a difference to my life.
How do I save the messages , they make me feel strong xxx
I love you all
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Originally Posted by resolute50
From Scrooge the Musical
I'll begin again
I will build my life
I will live to know
I fulfilled my life
I'll begin today
Throw away the past
And the future I build
Will be something that will last
I will take the time
That I have left to live
And I'll give it all
That I have left to give
I will live my days
For my fellow men
And I'll live in praise
Of that moment when
I was able to begin again
I'll begin again
I will change my fate
I will show the world
That it is not too late
I will never stop
While I still have time
'Till I stand at the top
Of the mountain I must climb
I will start anew
I will make amends
And I will make quite certain
That the story ends
On a note of hope
On a strong amen
And I'll thank the world
And remember when
I was able to begin again
I'll begin again!
I'll begin again
I will build my life
I will live to know
I fulfilled my life
I'll begin today
Throw away the past
And the future I build
Will be something that will last
I will take the time
That I have left to live
And I'll give it all
That I have left to give
I will live my days
For my fellow men
And I'll live in praise
Of that moment when
I was able to begin again
I'll begin again
I will change my fate
I will show the world
That it is not too late
I will never stop
While I still have time
'Till I stand at the top
Of the mountain I must climb
I will start anew
I will make amends
And I will make quite certain
That the story ends
On a note of hope
On a strong amen
And I'll thank the world
And remember when
I was able to begin again
I'll begin again!
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Dee, Wolfy, Gilmer , Leshar , Crois , Bob , Suze , Ladybug, Phoenix , Pete
People like you change people like me .
Bring on Thursday 2.30 I'm so ready for this.
Words and love are so powerful , I can tell how much you all want this for me
Thanks so much
I love you
Wendy xxxxx
People like you change people like me .
Bring on Thursday 2.30 I'm so ready for this.
Words and love are so powerful , I can tell how much you all want this for me
Thanks so much
I love you
Wendy xxxxx
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I love you, Snooz. I may be gruff, but it's because I really, really care.
You, Wendy, are "fearfully and wonderfully made;" every hair on your head is numbered by God. He will help you to live and thrive.
He made you just the way you are because you, exactly you, are what he wanted.
You, Wendy, are "fearfully and wonderfully made;" every hair on your head is numbered by God. He will help you to live and thrive.
He made you just the way you are because you, exactly you, are what he wanted.
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Originally Posted by SnoozyQ
Beautiful xx sniff xx
Make things right that were wrong and replace the love of money for love of his fellow men and women.
I thought of that song one day around this time of year. How that love of money could easily be replace by a love of overindulgence in alcohol.
How it was preoccupying our time instead of what we should have be working on. And how as long as there's time, things can be fixed. That ponderous chain that we forged in life can be broken.
And how the ghost of our past can help us remember where we were and how we all needed to change.
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Snoozums,
Three and a half years ago I spoke to the Lord. I realized this alcoholism was something bigger than me. Something I couldn't tackle myself.
I asked for strength to get through the withdrawals and to abstain from drinking. Then the wisdom to know and recognize when a possible stumble could happen. And how to not let everyday challenges in life not lead me back to the bottle. But, back to the one that created all things, the great I AM.
I am by no means trying to push my beliefs on others here. And if this is not allowed then feel free to remove it. But, for me this is what worked.
Also Wendy,do an evaluation. Are you perhaps pushing for a relationship with the kids too hard?
"Happiness is a butterfly, which when pursued, is always just beyond your grasp, but which, if you will sit down quietly, may alight upon you."
Nathaniel Hawthorne
Three and a half years ago I spoke to the Lord. I realized this alcoholism was something bigger than me. Something I couldn't tackle myself.
I asked for strength to get through the withdrawals and to abstain from drinking. Then the wisdom to know and recognize when a possible stumble could happen. And how to not let everyday challenges in life not lead me back to the bottle. But, back to the one that created all things, the great I AM.
I am by no means trying to push my beliefs on others here. And if this is not allowed then feel free to remove it. But, for me this is what worked.
Also Wendy,do an evaluation. Are you perhaps pushing for a relationship with the kids too hard?
"Happiness is a butterfly, which when pursued, is always just beyond your grasp, but which, if you will sit down quietly, may alight upon you."
Nathaniel Hawthorne
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I'm glad to read that note of determination in you today
D
This is pretty old software
you can go to thread tools and convert the page to a printable 'text only' version, or you can email the URL link for this page to yourself.
You could also just bookmark the page in your browser, or cut and paste the posts you want to keep elsewhere
I'm glad to read that note of determination in you today
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Thinking of you, Snoozy, and sending love too. You sound very determined. Is it Thursday that you go to detox?
I had the follow up CAT scan of my chest today and will review next month with the respiratory specialist. In view of this heart stuff, I'm hoping there is a connection, well, that wouldn't be great really, but I mean, I hope she doesn't still think that the earlier changes are due to Tiki. He's happy at home and I'm happy to have him. We will see.
I'm walking daily and I'm sad I lost a key chain and house key yesterday that belonged to Larry. It must have fallen out when I pulled something out of my pocket. I'm thinking I will either buy, or make a new key chain, in the shape of a heart, red of course! I've been looking at fitness trackers, but they seem to need a smart phone, most of them, and I have a basic phone for calling and texting.
Such a dizzying array of products! I expect lots of ppl got one for Christmas.
Do you any of you use fitbits or similar?
I had the follow up CAT scan of my chest today and will review next month with the respiratory specialist. In view of this heart stuff, I'm hoping there is a connection, well, that wouldn't be great really, but I mean, I hope she doesn't still think that the earlier changes are due to Tiki. He's happy at home and I'm happy to have him. We will see.
I'm walking daily and I'm sad I lost a key chain and house key yesterday that belonged to Larry. It must have fallen out when I pulled something out of my pocket. I'm thinking I will either buy, or make a new key chain, in the shape of a heart, red of course! I've been looking at fitness trackers, but they seem to need a smart phone, most of them, and I have a basic phone for calling and texting.
Such a dizzying array of products! I expect lots of ppl got one for Christmas.
Do you any of you use fitbits or similar?
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Sorry you lost the chain & key Leshar I hope the Cat scan shows good news x
My neice got me a watch thing but I havnt configured it yet once I do Il let you know Leshar but maybe someone here has experience ?
I think Sharon did a thread in cafe central about this too x
My neice got me a watch thing but I havnt configured it yet once I do Il let you know Leshar but maybe someone here has experience ?
I think Sharon did a thread in cafe central about this too x
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