Angie247

Thank you, Glee and Dee. We had a little drama from one of the people let go today. We had security and police around for a while. One of the girls let go and her boyfriend decided to make a threatening phone call to the boss. That's so incredibly insane and they're in a lot of trouble now. She could have just started to look for a job, or take a day to herself to regroup because I know it's devastating. You just don't do stuff like that. You don't threaten and harass people. Ugh.

Angie247

My mom and brother are with Alex and me. Happiness is a word that can describe it but I just feel so much more. Alex wants a chocolate Legend of Zelda cake so we will make that happen. Just got in an hour ago. My mom, brother and Alex are sleeping and I really need to be but I'm just so happy.

Angie247

I was invited to a baby shower this weekend. It's for my sweet friend from work who took care of Elvis when we were gone for those two weeks in December. My mom and I are going to it while the boys (Alex and my brother) have some time playing games and probably TV. We won't be gone too long but my mom was really excited to go and it'll give my baby some time with his uncle.

Angie247

My brother is the sweetest guy. I wish I knew my other brother as well but things are the way they are. I think an hour and a half total won't be too much because I don't want to spend too much time away. Or If my brother is still jet lagged then Alex can come with us.

Dee74

Whatever you decide - have a great weekend Ange

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gleefan

Maybe that word you're searching for is fulfilled? For me that's what happens when I do things I authentically enjoy.

It took me a while to go from just being sober to seeing what I authentically enjoyed. I was persistent. I read a lot of books on the topic of codependency. I actively participated in AA meetings. I worked on the 12 steps .

As I did that my life started to transform into one that suited me. It doesn't matter who's around or where I am, I'm fulfilled. You can find that sort of peace too.

Soberpotamus

Happy for y'all, Angie.

Enjoy your time together!

Angie247

Wanting a drink.

Dee74

There's no answer in a bottle Angie - ever.
Whats going on?

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Angie247

I'm okay now, Dee. . Thank you so much.

Angie247

Going to bed feeling a lot better. Actually feeling positive instead of just blah. I'm forgiving myself for wanting a drink and letting it go instead of obsessing over it the next day. Gotta add more to the plan though. Thank you so much Soberpotamus and Dee. Goodnight.

Angie247

Very little sleep last night but there's a potluck at work today!! :-)

gleefan

Nice job letting go of your fleeting thoughts about drinking.

What do you want to add to your plan?

Angie247

Glee, I'm not really sure about what I'm adding to the plan but I do need to work on it more.

We had a baby shower at work and I drank three small cups of wild cherry Pepsi. Way too much, I didn't sleep well last night and I just feel bad now. It's better than having a drink but I need to stop and take better care of myself.

gleefan

Start small, come up with one recovery related activity to do. Maybe my list of activities will get you thinking about ones that will work for you? I don't do everything on the list every day but I have been doing at least one item every day for 2 1/2 years.


-- write a simple gratitude list

-- read the daily item in the 24 hour a day book. Hazelton has a good daily email that they send directly to my inbox too.

-- respond to someone else's post on SR once a day

-- talk to another person in recovery every day

-- work on the 12 steps

-- read a book on a recovery topic and do the activities at the end of each chapter

-- go to an AA meeting once a week.

-- make plans with sober friends

-- approach my problem like I'd help a friend approach theirs.

Dee74

Those are *great* suggestions Glee - thank you

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Angie247

That's really great advice, Glee. Thank you so much. I really appreciate you taking time out for me and helping me.

gleefan

I'm happy to offer my experiences, Ang.

Upward2Enlightenment

How are you doing Angie?

P.S. This is my new username. You can still call me Up

Angie247

Hi everyone. I'm doing well, getting more sleep than ever which makes me less grumpy and more productive at work and at home.

I just got finished with Elizabeth Vargas's audiobook, and I could relate so much to what she wrote about. The almost crippling anxiety she had even without drinking, her relapses, an unhappy marriage, ending up in the hospital and the guilt, shame and remorse she had for being a mother who is an alcoholic. I've read other books that people shared but this one especially hit home for me. One thing she wrote about is how it affected her loved ones, and I'm coming to terms with that too. My family just has a hard time talking about it. I think they don't want to hurt me but Elizabeth gave a really good example of how to work it out that I would love to try. She also spoke about how to talk to and not talk to an alcoholic who is really suffering with it. It was a very well written book and I want to listen to it again soon. My mom mentioned to me last week that she was wanting to read it too.

I'm enjoying work more, and the day seems to fly by but we are very busy too. Busy is good though. I'm excited about cooler temps coming up. We actually had a high of 77 a couple days ago but it will be 102 on Sunday so summer weather isn't completely over yet. Alex is going to be Link from the Legend of Zelda for Halloween. He's going to be SO cute but he always is my handsome little guy. I'm dressing up at work as a hippie. Haven't dressed up in about 10 years when I went to a Halloween party.

Hope everyone is doing well. I'm probably going to go to bed soon. 5:30am will be here soon enough..