Class of March 2013 Part 47
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Join Date: Jan 2013
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Thanks, you guys.
Ironically enough, I had a regularly scheduled appointment with a dermatologist today to check for melanoma of the skin! She found a couple of slightly odd things which she thought needed no more than just keeping an eye on; but because I do have a melanoma history, she plans to remove them in a few weeks.
By then I should have the results of the MRI--and if it does turn out to be malignant, I'll just cancel the dermatologist's appointment! No sense in rearranging the deck chairs on the Titanic!
Sorry for the gallows humor. It adds a little spice to the paralyzing limbo I feel in not knowing one way or the other.
I'm supposed to host community group tonight and I'm not really up to it. But if I cancel I'll feel obliged to offer some kind of explanation, and it's really way too premature and speculative to discuss.
I did get texts from both long distance sons telling me that they loved me. I got tears in my eyes, especially at the one from the isolated son who never sends or returns texts of any kind.
I think I'll quickly finish up my "rounds" on SR then go lie down on the couch with a blanket and watch Netflix.
Thank you guys for being a sounding board!
Ironically enough, I had a regularly scheduled appointment with a dermatologist today to check for melanoma of the skin! She found a couple of slightly odd things which she thought needed no more than just keeping an eye on; but because I do have a melanoma history, she plans to remove them in a few weeks.
By then I should have the results of the MRI--and if it does turn out to be malignant, I'll just cancel the dermatologist's appointment! No sense in rearranging the deck chairs on the Titanic!
Sorry for the gallows humor. It adds a little spice to the paralyzing limbo I feel in not knowing one way or the other.
I'm supposed to host community group tonight and I'm not really up to it. But if I cancel I'll feel obliged to offer some kind of explanation, and it's really way too premature and speculative to discuss.
I did get texts from both long distance sons telling me that they loved me. I got tears in my eyes, especially at the one from the isolated son who never sends or returns texts of any kind.
I think I'll quickly finish up my "rounds" on SR then go lie down on the couch with a blanket and watch Netflix.
Thank you guys for being a sounding board!
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Oh gosh Gilmer love, here I am whining about a lump that is benign, and you are going through this. 
Praying for you my darling. And I have faith that you are going to be alright. God wants you here with us.
I Have missed this thread very much, and all of you. You mean so much to me. Love to everyone. ♥
Praying for you my darling. And I have faith that you are going to be alright. God wants you here with us.
I Have missed this thread very much, and all of you. You mean so much to me. Love to everyone. ♥
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I know that it's most likely nothing--but there's still a sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach.
If this does turn out to be benign, I'm going to feel like the world's biggest moron after all this drama!
If this does turn out to be benign, I'm going to feel like the world's biggest moron after all this drama!
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Gilmer, you are not alone!
Twice, for different conditions (heart, then liver) I was told by docs that I had at most 5 years - if I was lucky. The first was in 1998 and the second one was in 2008; the problems have so far stayed gone.
That sinking feeling and thinking you'll "feel like a moron" are totally normal! I think it's human nature to react that way.
Twice, for different conditions (heart, then liver) I was told by docs that I had at most 5 years - if I was lucky. The first was in 1998 and the second one was in 2008; the problems have so far stayed gone.
That sinking feeling and thinking you'll "feel like a moron" are totally normal! I think it's human nature to react that way.
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Thank you, Dee and Sass.
I certainly am grateful that you're still around!
You've encouraged me greatly.
I was also really encouraged by the way Carlos in the Overs dealt with his recent chest pain scare. He refused to panic: he gathered the available data and reasoned with himself.
I'm striving to do the same thing--and externally it's working. Internally, though, the very possibility has been a real body blow.
I am going to strive to get homework done today, plus some pleasure reading.
I certainly am grateful that you're still around!
You've encouraged me greatly.
I was also really encouraged by the way Carlos in the Overs dealt with his recent chest pain scare. He refused to panic: he gathered the available data and reasoned with himself.
I'm striving to do the same thing--and externally it's working. Internally, though, the very possibility has been a real body blow.
I am going to strive to get homework done today, plus some pleasure reading.
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Duff I hope the worst has now passed andd hubby and house have come through unscathed. We are looking out at very wet windy weather here but no obvious signs of damage nearby.
Mr T and I have become very philosophical in our old age, 'it is what it is' has become our recent mantra and makes life so much easier to deal with. So it is wet and windy, at least it is still a darn sight warmer than Scotland right now. So we have to adjust our holiday plans, we are safe alive and well. We have the opportunity to do things we wouldn't have done if we could have just accessed the parks for the next few days, being stuck indoors today, I might do some writing on my latest book. I have been really struggling with getting started on it so this unexpected free time might be just what the muse ordered!
Hugs Gilmer, you are in my thoughts. Your gallows humour might be just what you need to get through the next week or so. I bow to Sass's superior knowledge in the normality of your emotions, not yet having been in a position to have to seriously consider my own mortality.
Mr T and I have become very philosophical in our old age, 'it is what it is' has become our recent mantra and makes life so much easier to deal with. So it is wet and windy, at least it is still a darn sight warmer than Scotland right now. So we have to adjust our holiday plans, we are safe alive and well. We have the opportunity to do things we wouldn't have done if we could have just accessed the parks for the next few days, being stuck indoors today, I might do some writing on my latest book. I have been really struggling with getting started on it so this unexpected free time might be just what the muse ordered!
Hugs Gilmer, you are in my thoughts. Your gallows humour might be just what you need to get through the next week or so. I bow to Sass's superior knowledge in the normality of your emotions, not yet having been in a position to have to seriously consider my own mortality.
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I've heard "It is what it is" a lot in the last year from a lot of people.
I don't like it.
It's a fatalistic view. We are not fatalistic people. If we were, we would still be drinking.
Sorry. Just touched a nerve for me, today.
I don't like it.
It's a fatalistic view. We are not fatalistic people. If we were, we would still be drinking.
Sorry. Just touched a nerve for me, today.
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I'm sorry, Trach.
Anyway, I just got a call from my eye doctor. He looked at the results of the the CT scan, and he says it looks like a hemangioma, which is benign.
He said it was definitely a good idea to have the MRI to be on the safe side, but it was probably nothing to worry about.
Furthermore, he said if my insurance company gives me a hard time, he would step in to help me out.
Anyway, I just got a call from my eye doctor. He looked at the results of the the CT scan, and he says it looks like a hemangioma, which is benign.
He said it was definitely a good idea to have the MRI to be on the safe side, but it was probably nothing to worry about.
Furthermore, he said if my insurance company gives me a hard time, he would step in to help me out.
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Duff ~ sending you so much love.
And also keen to know that you are safe after this horrendous weather.
♥
Gilmer ~ I cannot tell you how unbelievably relieved I feel.....I need you. We all do. ♥
And also keen to know that you are safe after this horrendous weather.
♥Gilmer ~ I cannot tell you how unbelievably relieved I feel.....I need you. We all do.
♥
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Originally Posted by trachemys 
I've heard "It is what it is" a lot in the last year from a lot of people.
I don't like it.
It's a fatalistic view. We are not fatalistic people. If we were, we would still be drinking.
Sorry. Just touched a nerve for me, today.
I don't like it.
It's a fatalistic view. We are not fatalistic people. If we were, we would still be drinking.
Sorry. Just touched a nerve for me, today.
I don't think it's really fatalistic.
It's about accepting things, but it's not about necessarily liking those things or dismissing dreams or a drive to be better IMO
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