Class of May 2016 Support Thread Part 3
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Join Date: Apr 2016
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I realized that if I don't deal with my anxiety soon, I'll never be able to stay sober. I don't know why it's gotten so out of control. I found some guided meditations and tried them last night. It was a little successful but I also came up with a list of some of the things worrying me to see if I can deal with them or try to let them go. Some of them are pretty tough to handle.
1. My daughter is detoxing from a benzo addiction. I'm much too far away from her right now.
2. I gave a friend the job of doing my taxes last year and they didn't follow through. Then I got sick and couldn't finish them. I finally did them and I ended up owing money which almost never happens. Now I probably have penalties and interest and I don't have that much money.
3. I have to go to the dentist after not seeing one for years. I'm terrified.
4. I need to sell my house and it needs more work. I've already spent lots of money on it. Also having trouble cleaning because I have inflammation in both shoulders and it hurts when I lift my arms. Also none of the houses in my area have been selling and values have gone down.
5. I'm obese and out of shape and trying not to eat too much.
6. My health suffers because no. 5 and getting older.
1. My daughter is detoxing from a benzo addiction. I'm much too far away from her right now.
2. I gave a friend the job of doing my taxes last year and they didn't follow through. Then I got sick and couldn't finish them. I finally did them and I ended up owing money which almost never happens. Now I probably have penalties and interest and I don't have that much money.
3. I have to go to the dentist after not seeing one for years. I'm terrified.
4. I need to sell my house and it needs more work. I've already spent lots of money on it. Also having trouble cleaning because I have inflammation in both shoulders and it hurts when I lift my arms. Also none of the houses in my area have been selling and values have gone down.
5. I'm obese and out of shape and trying not to eat too much.
6. My health suffers because no. 5 and getting older.
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Join Date: May 2016
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Originally Posted by joandmelandhan 
Good morning everyone. Here I m again in another day 1. I am sick and tired of the whole sorry mess. I have been up and down over the last week and enough is enough. So her I am. 1 day at a time. Desperate to get past the awful initial phase again (and my danger day 6 which has defeated me a few times now). I don't know what to do differently if I am being totally honest. Just want to stop lying to myself and being weak. I also don't want to lose you guys so I am asking if you will accept me back and I will be 100% truthful. In utter anxiety hell. Sweated and nightmares all night. I know the score and am beating myself up that I am back here again. I can't go on like this. I am in an awful trap (alcoholism - yes I know it's true) and somehow need the strength to slowly beat is day by day. Really dreading a day at work feeling this way but I know it has to be done. Sorry for the post it's very "me me me" but I'm just getting it off my chest.
I really do value everyone here and am so pleased for those doing well.
Oh dear the tears have come.....this really is difficult but I want sobriety sooooo much. HOW DO I DO IT????
I really do value everyone here and am so pleased for those doing well.
Oh dear the tears have come.....this really is difficult but I want sobriety sooooo much. HOW DO I DO IT????
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Join Date: Jan 2016
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Originally Posted by Lonelywombat67
I realized that if I don't deal with my anxiety soon, I'll never be able to stay sober. I don't know why it's gotten so out of control. I found some guided meditations and tried them last night. It was a little successful but I also came up with a list of some of the things worrying me to see if I can deal with them or try to let them go. Some of them are pretty tough to handle. 1. My daughter is detoxing from a benzo addiction. I'm much too far away from her right now. 2. I gave a friend the job of doing my taxes last year and they didn't follow through. Then I got sick and couldn't finish them. I finally did them and I ended up owing money which almost never happens. Now I probably have penalties and interest and I don't have that much money. 3. I have to go to the dentist after not seeing one for years. I'm terrified. 4. I need to sell my house and it needs more work. I've already spent lots of money on it. Also having trouble cleaning because I have inflammation in both shoulders and it hurts when I lift my arms. Also none of the houses in my area have been selling and values have gone down. 5. I'm obese and out of shape and trying not to eat too much. 6. My health suffers because no. 5 and getting older.
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Aaaghhhhh, been feeling so positive (even though only on Day 3!!) but the wine witch is whispering evil suggestions in to my ear.
She's telling me that if I have a bottle of wine after we get home from my son's rehearsal tonight it will be out of my system to drive him there tomorrow.
Thankfully my AF-angel is whispering that I am enjoying being clear(er) headed and I will need to work tomorrow.
Can't wait for this battle to stop being 50/50 and be more AF-angel sided!
She's telling me that if I have a bottle of wine after we get home from my son's rehearsal tonight it will be out of my system to drive him there tomorrow.
Thankfully my AF-angel is whispering that I am enjoying being clear(er) headed and I will need to work tomorrow.
Can't wait for this battle to stop being 50/50 and be more AF-angel sided!
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Heading off to work soon, on my first Monday without a hangover. As a Home Health Aide, I was never putting clients in any danger (I hope) being hung over...but it'll be a treat shaving my first client this morning without my hands shaking (not convulsively or anything, just noticeably.)
Holy crap, I just remembered: I blew OFF work last Monday because of the magnitude of my hangover! In fact, that epic hangover was what restarted this whole quest for sobriety! Jeezus, the things we so easily forget...
Happy Sober Monday, y'all!
Arp
Holy crap, I just remembered: I blew OFF work last Monday because of the magnitude of my hangover! In fact, that epic hangover was what restarted this whole quest for sobriety! Jeezus, the things we so easily forget...
Happy Sober Monday, y'all!
Arp
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Originally Posted by Trees39
Why do we forget? Why aren't we constantly repulsed by the thought of drinking?
Why does it fade so quickly but if we drink it's worse then last time?
Guess that's why a plan is so important...
Why does it fade so quickly but if we drink it's worse then last time?
Guess that's why a plan is so important...
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Hi! Today is day 1 for me. I've been trying to overcome this for some time. I have joined many classes along the way. I am here now because I am back at day 1. I'm so disgusted with myself. Why do I keep falling for the same trick...thinking that I can moderate. I don't want to feel like this anymore.
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Hi all. It's so helpful reading everyone's posts. Whether they're doing well or not it shows we are in it together. Just finished work. Got dentist and then picking my sister up as she is staying at mine tonight. I will defo not drink in front of her so I'm safe tonight. Slightly cheating but who cares. Got my stationery bits for my plan/journal which I plan to start. Take care all 😊
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Hi all day 4 for me. I feel pretty good and rested. Driving is over and Ive got nothing to do for the next week though. Just visiting family.
I was offered a beer last night but just declined and had water.
Hope you all have a great day and stay sober!
I was offered a beer last night but just declined and had water.
Hope you all have a great day and stay sober!
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Join Date: Apr 2016
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Hi guys I've had no signal today been painting out in the woods it was very relaxing. I forgot lunch so my Mrs brought me some sandwiches and brought my youngest son as well it was a good day to be alive.
Hope everyone is ok. I'm on ice water tonight sick of spending money on fizzy none alcoholic drinks.
Hope everyone is ok. I'm on ice water tonight sick of spending money on fizzy none alcoholic drinks.
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Hi Everyone. Just wanted to check in here. Day 1. Heading to AA meeting in a few. Started seeing a counselor last Friday. I have a plan but don't stick to it. I am sticking to it today! One day at a time!
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Originally Posted by Fallow
Hi all day 4 for me. I feel pretty good and rested. Driving is over and Ive got nothing to do for the next week though. Just visiting family. I was offered a beer last night but just declined and had water. Hope you all have a great day and stay sober!
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Join Date: Apr 2016
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I just watched the bear film lonely wombat backcountry. Very good film thanks for the recommendation. Anyone else who has any recommendations I'm always looking for good films to watch. No chick flicks please .
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Hi everyone. Today has been okay really. I'm managing to keep the anxiety at a manageable level and know I've more to come in the next few days but I'll take it one day at a time. Day 1 done thank goodness. Take care all 😊
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Originally Posted by Sunflowerlife
Day 1.
I am part of the January group but made the choice to drink this weekend after four months of sobriety (my longest stretch ever.)
I am caught somewhere in between hating myself and really trying to just accept it and move on.
Life is so complicated but in the end it's all about choices and these choices don't have to be labeled "right or wrong" but it's best to choose things that benefit our bodies and minds (and our highest self)- drinking isn't one of those things and it never could be. I refuse to let booze win this time. I am stronger than that. I just need to work on having a plan for the next time my AV has me convinced that I can drink.
I am part of the January group but made the choice to drink this weekend after four months of sobriety (my longest stretch ever.)
I am caught somewhere in between hating myself and really trying to just accept it and move on.
Life is so complicated but in the end it's all about choices and these choices don't have to be labeled "right or wrong" but it's best to choose things that benefit our bodies and minds (and our highest self)- drinking isn't one of those things and it never could be. I refuse to let booze win this time. I am stronger than that. I just need to work on having a plan for the next time my AV has me convinced that I can drink.
I know you can do this. You are such an important part of our January group. Hope the work week has gotten off to a good start.
❤️ Delilah
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Hello everyone! Hello JL. Nice to see u here as well fellow februrarian...
Checking in on Day 4. Was up with the dreaded "tickle cough" which made me cough just as I was about to sleep every time. It's always the last stage of my colds so hoping tonight is ok. Hope everyone has a fabulous sober day. You all deserve it. (Hugs)
Checking in on Day 4. Was up with the dreaded "tickle cough" which made me cough just as I was about to sleep every time. It's always the last stage of my colds so hoping tonight is ok. Hope everyone has a fabulous sober day. You all deserve it. (Hugs)
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