beerbgone

Imrri alcohol does not make anything better!

Dee74

what happened Kayak?

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Renew12

Food is good..

I hope your blood work comes back healthy for your upcoming surgery. Congrats on day 6. Glad your here. ]

Will do.

Gardengirl80

Just checking in at the end of day six. Feeling pretty good and I'm physically tired so I should sleep well tonight. I crossed paths with some people that know me as a drunk, but I was cheerful and said hello-even though I was terrified. Major social anxiety right now. They were friendly back and it left me feeling good. Wow! A random social interaction.
I remember someone at a meeting told me, after I finished having my pity party about how everyone hates me, the lady said you can't control people place or things. So even though I've made a complete arse of myself in front of pretty much everyone in this tiny town, I can be sober and move forward towards a new life- and ease my worrying about what people think of me by reminding myself I can't control people place or things. I can only control the choices I make and the attitude I choose to have.

beerbgone

That sounds good to me Gardengirl.

Renew12

You can make it past day 16. It's hard, esp in early recovery. We all understand. Many of us have been thru this recovery several times, if not more. Please ride it out, post here, surf the urg, eat, do anything, sit on your hands, go to a meeting. But, like beerbegone said its poison for us!.. It always will be. Just get through today, this min or hour. Stick close to SR. I could have drank the other day, but I used my tools & reached out here. The Marchers helped me. We can help you too. You can do this. Your worth sobriety~recovery! It's Okay to struggle, be uncomfortable, feel all emotions. It really will get better!... Keep reaching out. Stay connected.

azure808

Dunno - internet frustrates me . AA didn't work for me . I think I need to do it alone hard as that sounds. The sharing thing , it leaves me feeling strange. West of Scotland . We are a strange lot, and alcohol abuse is rife. We are famous for it . I'll hold off til tomorrow

Renew12

Great job Purplrks & Raw. Food is important for us. Hunger isn't good for us. It can be a trigger. Starting healthy eating habits is awesome.

Big Congrats to Casey on three weeks of sobriety. for being here. Hope your shift go's well tonight & that you treat yourself to special treat.

Renew12

Congrats on your 23 days of sobriety Very cool that you have a supportive work in environment. You can count any way you want. Don't think there's a wrong way. You aren't alone. But, that sneaky beast likes to play tricks sometimes, it wants us to isolate. Don't let it have it's way. Glad you & everybody is here!!!... I need all of you!...

samantha14

Dinner went well tonight - we ate, laughed and played some board games, all without me sneaking off to have a drink. I was present in the moment and I will remember the evening tomorrow - two things to be grateful for

I am not sure if I will go to the meeting tomorrow. I guess I will decide when I wake up. Do people really do this successfully without AA? I guess that's the question I am really hoping to find the answer to.

I hope you are all having a sober Saturday.

Renew12

I think it's hard for us to remember that were all fighting this & may be at different phases in recovery. If you keep getting negative vibes, try hitting another meeting. There are different atmospheres in the rooms. Hope you get some rest. Good job on not drinking just for today.

horsestaple, Always room for one more. Congrats on day 9. I hope your 2nd wk is better, mine was some. Progress not perfection.

Big congrats on day 34. You don't sound ungrateful to me. Enjoy your movie with the fam!..

Renew12

Great idea. I'm going there soon myself, after I cook something.

Renew12

Hope you change your mind. We will miss you!

Glad you checked in. If it's only lack of booze that's causing your heart to race, it should be over in a few days. Probably most of us (including me) have had to deal with our aftermaths with family/friends. Staying sober is a living amends to them & ourselves. Glad you made it to the dog park.. Yes, stay connected it helps. Addiction would like us to isolate, but don't listen. Besides we all care for each other here.

I'm sorry!.. But as Casey says its better than day zero. You can move forward from here. You can do it!

horsestaple

Thanks Renew12. Yup, second week is going much better. I'm still suffering with some insomnia but the shakiness and sweating has gone as well as the awful upset stomach.

TBH I don't find the insomnia too hard to deal with as I wake up more refreshed on 4 hours sober sleep than 8 hours mostly passed out drunk! I just have to remember that's the case when I get frustrated that I can't sleep. It helps that I've taken three weeks off work so it really doesn't matter if I sleep or not

LillianGish

Mr. Kayak,
(Extending my hand) here now, get up, dust yourself off and let's do this!

I'd like to join this class please.

I have an addiction and am ready to address it.

Hope everyone is having a sober weekend! I am watching basketball here in the US...talk about a trigger to drink. So I am coming here instead.

Renew12

Internet frustrates me too at times. Most of us need some type of support to remain sober. I feel strange at times sharing too! I don't trust people. Prob, why I like animals so much. Were strange over here too. LOL I think I don't mind be strange a bit. My Grand daddy was a Scotch. Miss him. Glad your holding off on leaving for tom. You are wanted here!.. Oh & I'm female, so maybe I'm sharing too much. Addiction is lonely.

Glad you had fun tonight. I think part of recovery doesn't always need to be serious. We need to have sober fun. My drinking sure wasn't fun anymore.

I'm not going to comment in depths on AA stuff for now. Except some are successful with out it. Some need it to be successful. I wouldn't close the doors on it until you've tried diff meetings. I think this may help you find your answer. Maybe a woman's meeting like Dee suggested. The doors will always be open. No matter what
you decide.

Thirteenth

Congratulations to all who graduated with honors! You

Thirteenth

Oh, good gravy! Another failed reply to which I shall add the full reply:

Congratulations to all who graduated with honors! You’re awesome. I cannot count myself among you.

I want to quit, but I’m just not ready. I believe with help from this site and class I can get there and finally be rational. However, I worry that my presence is detrimental as I have not stopped drinking and haven’t really tried. I’d like to stick with you all despite my failings.

Renew12

That's great to here horsestaple. Hope it helps others that read here & our class of course. Smart move & happy your able to get the time off. If I could get four solid hrs most nights that would help. I know it's coming. I bought OTC & took it once, cause I was about to slip, I think.

LillianGish. Glad you've decided to join us. This group is full of love, support, tools, & laughter. You can learn new skills to overcome your triggers here at SR. This place is so helpful!... Glad you made the choice to come here.

Off to cook. Hubs is a good & patient man, most the time. He had a huge brunch. He knows I need to stay connected. I'm far enough a long in this addiction, that I could die. It's harder some days then others. But as one of our Marcher's says. Oh had a brain freeze. .

Anyway, have a good night Marcher's. Even if it's not great, as long as were sober, or getting ready to be sober that's worth something good. Sorry for all the posts. I'm all caught up. If or when I fall behind again. I think my marathon will be shorter. xo

Renew12

Keep coming back.