BoozeFree

ThAbks everyone for the congrats.

Hope everyone has a nice weekend. I'm wimping today and still need to catch up on posts.

Gilmer

Are you wimping or womping?

DrakeCKC

Wimpy, wompy, wambly...... anyone remember that?

Saskia

Help, please, Undies! I am in the middle of the worst craving I've had in a very long time! My sister came by to visit today and although there were no big bumps, because of past history I get really stressed when I see her. So then I really, really want to escape into la-la land. I was ready to run right down to my car and go get some wine. Somehow I managed to stop myself and come to SR to read. I'm still on the edge but am holding fast so far. I so totally don't want to blow this. I'll probably post this in a couple of places since it's sometimes slow on the weekend.

Gilmer

I've been avoiding homework and mechanically scanning the site all afternoon, hoping somebody would post.

Now I'm glad I was around!

Drinking would put you in la-la land--but only for about an hour. Then your world would be in ruins. Plus you'd still be aggrieved by your sister in the morning.

Please don't drink! Thanks for coming here!

Saskia

Thanks, Gilmer! I'm so grateful that you are around!!! I'm deep breathing and working on pulling myself together. I think all that practice of thinking things through actually helped. It was still a near thing but a very tiny corner of my brain managed to keep a small bit of sanity going.

Gilmer

As a matter of fact, I don't! Refresh my memory, Drake!

DrakeCKC

Coming here is the right thing. When I craved, I stayed in contact with someone, I used SR a lot!

I also think of "a bad day sober is better than a good day drunk"

Saskia

Thanks, Drake!

nymets86

Saskia, stay here and vent all you want.

Just think what will happen if you do drink. Will it fix the situation with your sister? Will you be happy tomorrow morning that you drank tonight? If you drink tonight, will it just be one time, or fall back into old habits?

DrakeCKC

It is a rather obscure line from a skit from National Lampoon's "Mr Robert's Neighborhood". Also has the great line "Eggamuffin"


Of course an old recording on YouTube... about 1:15 in! (I think the video is faked, as this was only on record as I remember)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QJTb130GR0E

Gilmer

They certainly got a good Mr. Roberts! He really had the vocals down! :-D

Saskia

Thanks, Mets! No, that's a path I don't want to take. There are only bad things that way.

GroundhogDay

Hi everyone,

My class thread (November 2014) is getting quieter and quieter, so I thought it time to join this thread too. I'm more than 80 days sober now (last drink was December 30, 2014.)

Gilmer

Hi, GroundhogDay! Welcome to the "Undies!"

Saskia

Hi GHDay! Welcome to the Undies and congrats on 80 days sober :-)

gleefan

Saskia - I completely understand how a craving comes out of left field and takes over. I think it's a testament to your recovery that you found the strength to post first. I think when my recovery program became my habit, it replaced the toxic habit of craving alcohol when I'm under duress. That's why I can't speak highly enough of the benefit to me of a strong program of recovery to rely on when I'm on wobbly ground.

A month back as I was rounding the corner to a year sober I mentioned during the course of one of my regular recovery conversations that I could understand how a sober person with a spouse who drinks would end up eventually going back out. I am grateful that my friend said that was a red flag that I was veering pretty far off the beam. I was able to get back on before I even began to plan a car ride to the package store. You are an insightful and resourceful person who doesn't want to drink. I know you'll add the extra support you need to stay safe.

Mets - nice to see you here. I hope you're doing ok?

Groundhog Day - Welcome! Jump right in!

Stay close, Saskia! I'm sending sober vibes your way!!

Saskia

Thanks for your insightful comments, Glee! Although I feel I've been doing well, this has been a wake-up call for just how close I could come and I need to consider what to add. I don't want to take chances with my recovery. This was a good first in asking for help before doing anything. Now I know I need to work on my biggest trigger - toxic relationships and my normal tendency to run and hide instead of dealing with them.

trachemys

"If you build it, they will come."

nymets86

Glee, yup, doing well. Watching the college hoops games with my brother, his fiancé and some of their friends. They're all responsibly drinking a few beers. I went into the night determined not to drink and honestly, it's sort of a relief. I don't feel temped. It's those nights when I'm on the fence where I think the choice deep down has already been made and I'm going to drink.

Saskia, your night going OK?