Hooped

got it...Dee...I LOVE YOU....AND ...iM NOT GAY

Br00ksie

Super Bowl is next Sunday.

I just got in from my home group meeting and fellowship.

So I'm really attracted to a guy in the group and because of it I don't know how to act around him. We fellowshipped for about two months and then I found out he was married!


(he doesn't wear a ring and never talked about his wife)

So I feel super awkward because 1. I am attracted to a married man and that is icky 2. Now that I know he is married (and have met his WIFE) I am still attracted to him, which is double icky!

I never have been and never will be a home wrecker, I am just being honest about my awful lustful feelings. Every time we sit down to eat I hope he sits near me. But he didn't today (there were no seats near me) and I was glad.

I need an outlet!!!

Dee74

no worries Hooped I just really want to see a good 2014 for you, you know?

I think it's pretty common Brooksie...crushes are not that much different to highs really.
Glad you have your sensible hat on tho

Hooped

SO WHAT SHOULD be my first journey on this new sober excursion

Dee74

I think you know as well as any of us what good things are to do Hooped.

not buying any more booze would probably be my first item on the list?
thinking about getting more help would probably be item#2.

D

Hooped

maybe I will just raid my junkie daughters pill bag for her meds to keep me from going into conurptions

Hooped

and yes....thats the way we talk up here in Canada

Hooped

Brooksie...I feel your loss

Dee74

Sooner or later you're either gonna have to stop, or die Hooped.
We'll be here when you wanna stop, but for now, I'm gonna go and help some other folks.
D

Hooped

call your chips and move on I would say

Hooped

that wasnt directed at you Dee

Hooped

so...why am i such a mental case/

Dee74

I know - I'm not mad - I was a mental case too - drinking bottles of whisky and cases of beer will do that.

I just dunno what else to say right now, man....
Take it easy, OK?.

D

Hooped

its not even light out....im already well on my way way to oblivion

Hooped

30 beers and 26 of wiskey can not be a good line up

workoholic

Hooped, you have to get out of the drinking somehow. Are you able to stop or taper down somehow?
Can your wife or daughter help you somehow?

Hooped

i cant seem to do it man...ill try though

Hooped

this is not the life i want to lead

Dee74

it really comes down to how much you're prepared to change Hooped.

Change is scary I know - sometimes the familiar seems more bearable than the unknown...but you've been sober before.
I think it's worth it - life's a lot more meaningful for me now, not to mention happier.

I think it was Neil Young who said 'be great... or be gone'?

you got greatness in you Hooped - you got stories to share, and an enormous heart.

Choose to be great, dammit - not gone.

D

Renarde

I say this with love, Hooped, if I didn't I wouldn't even take the time to write this because it's past my bedtime.

If this isn't the life you want then put the fricken drink down! You're in a revolving door until you stop drinking. Do it this instant.

Stop feeling sorry for yourself. We all have marriages that may be messed up, serious health problems, dysfunctional family members, be living in a place isolated and alone. I've got a list ten miles long of all of the unfair **** that was inflicted upon me as an innocent child and young person, I was abused by a trusted figure, I lost a baby in a bloody, traumatic mess, I lost my savings and my home and had to move way out into the freaking frontier and rebuild my life with no one, and after all of that and more then I was a victim of violent crime. Everyone here has had horrible things happen to them. What we are all discovering is that we can't use those things as fuel to kill ourselves for another minute! Stop using your wife, your loneliness and boredom and your remote location as an excuse to destroy yourself! Those aren't good enough reasons. Only you can make yourself drink. Only your mind and your wallet and your hand and your mouth. Draw on that strength you know you have in you to put the drink down today!

I'm all for pacing and progress not perfection and being kind and gentle and loving to ourselves, but let's not "gentle" ourselves into the grave! Enough patience for **** ups! Let's be serious here! We have it in us to get it together and get the help we need and be who we are meant to be!

Put the drinks and pills down Hooped. Then take a breath and actually take a productive step and seek out some real treatment so you don't spend the rest of your life torturing yourself! You're worth so much more!