mirage

Have an awesome trip, aussie! Hope the results are good ones! :ghug3

Dee74

best of luck C

PBC- I know it's natural to compare ourselves to others but it's futile really.

Everyone of us has our own journey...it may bear no relation to anyone else's but it's ours

As long as you keep moving forward, you're heading the right way - & as long as you never give up, I believe you can never lose

D

becoming

Frances- Yay for zero calorie cake and for putting those worries in their place! PBC is righ, you are strong, brave and smart = )

Aussie – Great to hear from you as well my friend! Best of luck at the doctors! I am very glad to hear that you will be taking the opportunity to spend some time in the city. You deserve a nice break = ) Please keep us posted. Talk to you soon.

mirage

Happy March Monday morning, Marchers!

I didn't sleep real well..got a new blanket and tried it last night and oddly, I couldn't get comfortable all night. Cuz of a BLANKET?! What am I, the princess in the Princess and the Pea fairy tale?? I think it was too heavy, I felt smothered. Imagine that..a blanket was smothering. Stupid blanket. Had awesome dreams, tho.

LoftyIdeals

Ahh...the magical dream blanket. I hear even those need to be broken in. I am a very finicky sleeper when it comes to blankets, sheets and pillows. Most nights, I go to sleep in pjs or sweats and a teeshirt, and I'm usually cold when I go to bed. Sometime in the middle of the night, I shed them all, burning up. And I wake up comfy in the am, in just my scivvies. TMI? Maybe...

I was on here last night to wish Aussie a great trip and good doctor appt, but my battery ran out, and I was too tired to do anything but go to bed. I mostly finished the painting in the office last night, and just put a couple hrs in this am. I've got about 20 min left, and then Ill be ready for door hardware, after it dries. Since we are painting the whole house this month, I'll wait and do touch up at the end of that.

So, after all the effort and expense of the past 2-3 weeks, I have a private, secured office, almost fully furnished and can get back to work as my full-time job. Glad of it.

Wife went to WW yesterday and started counting points. I'm proud of her. I felt bad for her, though, when she ran out of points at dinner, and would otherwise have had more to eat. I am glad I'm not doing WW; I don't think I could. I don't deal with guilt well at all. But, she is a goal-oriented person and should do well with it.

I, on the other hand, have reverted back to my conglomerated diet plan, and have stuck to my no ice cream, which I gave up for Lent, but have cheated once. And, starting yesterday, I'm ridding my diet of inflammatories, such as coffee. I woke up feeling less bloated already this a.m. I stuck to tea alone.

Amazing thing is, that I'm making a lot of changes at once in my life, and they are coming almost effortlessly. Thank God. I wouldn't be able to do this if I were drinking.

I also noticed this weekend that all our kids hung out and watched tv during the day yesterday, together. We actually had a calm, cool, collective Sunday, and relaxed together and enjoyed each others company. No friends over, no taxicabbing the kids. I painted, we had the tv on for a while, stereo for a while, and we all got our stuff done. It was just like I had imagined every weekend should be. It was awesome.

I hope all are doing well, and getting back in the swing. March is here, but its just another month.

The prevailing message I felt and received this weekend was gratitude. I listened to what the Holy Spirit was saying to me in my life this weekend, and I heard and learned. I have so much to be thankful for. Not least among those is each of you.

Have a great week, my SR friends.

mirage

So now in my head I see like a cartoon of you in your underwear, (but not bloated), with a paintbrush in your hand, and the holy spirit over your head. This is why I shouldn't visualize (or summarize, for that matter).
Glad you had such a nice weekend and congrats on the office! yay!

LoftyIdeals

C'mon, Mirage. If you can see it in your head...you can create an avatar for me. Can't wait to see it!

mirage

Lol..you know if I knew how, I would!

lookinforward

Funny you mention what you sleep in lofty......I often start the evening off my grippies and end up in my birthday suit. It is crazy....I dont remember disrobing most nights....but then it happens...maybe it is when I turn into that dreaded werewolf.........

lookinforward

Becoming great to see you back!!!!!!! I am no help on the meds. I dont take any unless my back is in dire straits.....I dont even like them then....because they make me sleepy and mess up my normal routines if ya know what I mean
I agree with looking for a specialist. Doctors are not miracle working geniuses....they work off of results and facts.....If you go to a specialist..be honest and give as much information for them to work with as possible.
Dave

lookinforward

I miss you when you are not here PBC

You are not alone

doubt enters the mind
a dark corner
I want to hide behind
a bar set too high
by someone
I use to know

it follows me
to and fro
Im alone
In this battle
a place unknown
by others
and feared
by me

why must this battle
go on in the mind
it is degrading
and very unkind

a hill
a valley
we all travel through
The key to remember
Is to always
Love you


Dave

lookinforward

Dee, I truly appreciate your Perturbed thread. It needed to be said and I am with you 100%. You might even remember that I was put off by comments I made trying to help someone in newcomers last week that stirred my ire. I have noticed a few folks using stronger tones than usual, and I don't find that effective in the virtual world. Thanks, and I hope your day of music was fabulous.

STOP IT NOW! LOFTY! I have had enough of you tellin on me!
You meany.
Meany

Sorry I lost control for a second there.....
Come on

somebody can play for a minute.....

Dang PHone
Dave

lookinforward

I'm back! I know that you all missed me.

mirage

Lol you're losin it.

lookinforward

I have known that for a while my friend.

PeanutButterCup

Thanks for the poem, Dave. You're right ... I do feel alone. But, I am the only one to blame.

Anyway ...

I had a bunch of people over last night to worship around the keyboard with me. We prayed, talked about the meanings (Biblical and personal) behind the songs, and sang. It was amazing. I might start a small group based on this idea, but with a more structured lesson based on lyrics.

LoftyIdeals

You are never alone, PBC. Your small group idea sounds terrific. It kinda sounds like what my kids have going in their praise bands. I love going through the psalms and imagining what melody they may have been sung to by churches past.

Dave...you need to let us know when you are losing it, so we can keep an eye out and maybe find it!

lookinforward

My wife hid it years ago!

lookinforward

Day Trader put this up on the newcomers thread. I am not an AAer per say but this guy is great! It made me want to go to a meeting. XA-Speakers - The lights are on!
Dave

LoftyIdeals

I haven't had time for that one yet, but, generally those are awesome to listen to. I'm still hitting 2 mtgs a week, and enjoying it. I usually share an avg of one meeting a week. Last night, there was a newby, just out of prison, and got drunk and picked up two felonies and a misdemeanor in the 3 weeks she's been free. It's haunting when you can relate to other parts of their story. There but for the grace of God, go I.

I will say this to all of you, since I think I'm the only one who goes to meetings. There is nothing like an AA meeting in all the world. It is a uniquely dynamic place to work on yourself, and maybe help another sojourner along the way. You make friends with people you wouldn't give a second look to anywhere else in life. And, you all share the common bond of addiction, which makes meetings extremely conducive to healing. I will attend meetings as long as I remain sober. Don't get me wrong; they are not all like that. Some are outstanding, some are okay, and some really suck. But, in all of them, time stands still in your world. OK. Off my podium, and I won't say it again. If anyone EVER has questions about meetings, please feel free to ask, either here, or as a PM. I will say, the Holy Spirit is alive in AA meetings more than any other place I've ever been. (And He's not in his underwear toting a paintbrush, Mirage )