sarah1414

Hi Purple Cat, thanks for the roll call...I love you organized types!

Best wishes to all in the New Year!

BF, I also slept about 12 hours last night. Can't believe it but I know the body is healing once again.


Have a great day!

Paddyb

Hi Guys

Pissed off yet again, i so wanted to quit, but seems i have just carried on, drinking the 12 tins of larger every day, starting early in the morning has not sleeping well, i have not eaten for days and my poo is just water(sorry for that) i dont even get drunk or get a buzz from it, just using it to stop the bad feeling and the shaking in side, the panic attack are nearly there all the time and pulse rate over 100. will call the docs has think he needs to come for a home visit, as i dont go out, only in a taxi to buy more beer. this is 1 bad bad illness that i so want to beat.

I have chlordiazepoxide. This is a benzodiazepine medicine 5mg and so scared to take them, i know Dee you have heard this before, sorry. any support you guys and dolls can give and i know it cant me medical would help, has any 1 used chlordiazepoxide.???

Thank you

PADDYB

H2only

Count me in. I can't bear another moment of regret, fear and shame. I am aiming on having a year a can be proud of.

whitehorses

Hi PURPLECAT! i remember you from 2009, sound like you have been on the same ride as me since then, the road to moderation, only to realize the road was closed, nice to meet you again!

watsonc

Yet again here I am hoping that practice will make a person one inch closer to getting it right. Like yoga, maybe..a constant practice. I turn 50 this spring and don't want to continue with the self loathing of daily large doses of wine. Not a pretty image! Thanks for being here SR, my previous successes, while not permanent yet, were not possible without these forums and everyone's support. So here is day 2 for me. My last true success was in 2009 and then a gradual slide into moderation for a year...and then whammo back to where I was only with some experience now knowing I can do this, so am not as thrown or shaken by it.

whitehorses

Oh PADDY, i feel for you, you really must seek help, you know it is bad if you are not getting even a buzz.. if you havent eaten for days, you are putting yourself at more risk, there is nothing in your tummy to absorb any of the alcohol, you need help to start your detox please call the doctor, you can get a home visit, hugs and prayers coming to you, and your lovely staffie.

lifewithout

Add me to the list. I'm ready for a massive change in my life.

Paddyb

thank you WH, the weening off i thought i could do didnt work, i think the doc will say just take the meds, and that s what is the problem, it would prob do the trick but pancking about taking them, this is madness

PurpleCat

Yeah whitehorses - I guess some of just have to be stubborn about it. lol I see watsonc is here too - great that you had some success watsonc! Let's do this right this time! I still go into the August 09 thread. Only a few people left in there, but they are an inspiration as they were the successful ones from back then.

(((Paddy))) Sounds like you really could use that doctor's advice. I can't help you on the medicines as I haven't taken any. As far as the "indelicate" part of your post, alcohol sure can mess up a person's digestive system!

Here's the list again with our new additions - welcome!

ACT10Npack
Balerie
BlueEyedBoy
Bombshell
BoozeFree
Emma18
Fdm
Fubarcdn
H2only
lifewithout
Jallen83
James1983
lifeanew
iceteaplease
mah
newleaves2012
PaddyB
PurpleCat
Rugby8
Sarah1414
Shackles
stevie88
SoCalDude
TheOldMe
timetochange
timetotry
trevesty
tthornyone
watsonc
whitehorses

(PS - sarah, I am not really all that organized. I just remember someone named Breakfree doing that for us in the August 09 thread and it was a really nice way to make sure people were recognized. )

slackie

I would also like to be added to the class of January 2012...and I'm grateful to do it. Happy new year, everyone!

mah

Hi there paddyb .. first of all goodluck!
and 2nd maybe u should get a doctor and tell him ur problem, then go to meetings and stuff, u need to be around ppl who feel the same way, and can u help you through this! plz keep us updated, we are all here one class, and i really care for each and everyone of u! goodluck and stay strong, so the rest of us can be strong too!

stevie88

Having very strong urges to drink at the moment,the kids are playing up,the inlaws are staying with us till the wife has the baby and they are driving me nuts...I took the dog out for his walk and i still havent got over the urge.....Just gotta stay strong for another 2 hours then im going to bed and get away from them all.......

mah

Stevie88 ! i think it is way too early to go back! stay strong my friend, you can beat this... and just flash forward to the end of the year and just see urself thinking "i am proud of myself, i have been sober for exactly one year"
you dont want to ruin it, look at how special the date 1/1/2012 looks
goodluck!

PurpleCat

Welcome slackie!

ACT10Npack
Balerie
BlueEyedBoy
Bombshell
BoozeFree
Emma18
Fdm
Fubarcdn
H2only
lifewithout
Jallen83
James1983
lifeanew
iceteaplease
mah
newleaves2012
PaddyB
PurpleCat
Rugby8
Sarah1414
Shackles
slackie
stevie88
SoCalDude
TheOldMe
timetochange
timetotry
trevesty
tthornyone
watsonc
whitehorses

Stay strong stevie88!

Oh, and one more, very important thing to add.......GO MICHIGAN STATE!!!! BEAT GEORGIA!!!! There. I feel better now. (For those of you not in the US, I am talking about a college football bowl game going on right now.)

slackie

Thanks for having me!!!!

too.tall

I'm in. It will be rough but I am determined. Do we keep posting updates here or on seperate threads?

Dee74

you can post here and post personal updates in your own personal threads too.tall
welcome to everyone - new and old faces alike

Paddy - do speak to the Dr - be honest and tell them you're scared to take the meds...they may have some suggestions/reassuring advice?

D

timetotry1

Hi all,

I was going to do this on a seperate thread but maybe useful for all of us.

Does anyone have any recommendations for literature on alcoholism, be it the psychology or science of the illness. I know that I am going to have to obsess on this topic , and gain logic weapons to fight my 'inner demon/voice'.

Any pointers very much appreciated

Dee74

I believe Under The Influence by Milam and Ketcham is a good read along those lines
there's some excerpts in the sticky posts on top of the Alcoholism forum

D

timetotry1

Thanks Dee.

Book ordered and off to read the stickies.