Class of December 2010 Part 8
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Good morning class of Decembers.
It is a grey, rainy morning. I have awoken with a bit of a heavy heart; I feel far away from my family and good friends. And just kind of blah, really.
Recovery-wise I am in the midst of working the 4th step which brings all past fears, resentments, grudges and the like, into the open so that I can assign my part to all of it, and then ask my Higher Power to remove those defects of character in me.
Working this deeply on intimate stuff is not easy and sometimes it tests you emotionally. But I daresay that is why, once working through it and getting through the other steps, they say you feel so free and relieved. Why your desire to drink is lifted.
Anyway I am not gong to judge my feelings today; I am simply going to feel them and notice them and I already know, at 7:43 am, that I will NOT drink over them.
Hope each and every one of the Decembers has a healthy day with lots of juice and good food and water and rest. :-)
It is a grey, rainy morning. I have awoken with a bit of a heavy heart; I feel far away from my family and good friends. And just kind of blah, really.
Recovery-wise I am in the midst of working the 4th step which brings all past fears, resentments, grudges and the like, into the open so that I can assign my part to all of it, and then ask my Higher Power to remove those defects of character in me.
Working this deeply on intimate stuff is not easy and sometimes it tests you emotionally. But I daresay that is why, once working through it and getting through the other steps, they say you feel so free and relieved. Why your desire to drink is lifted.
Anyway I am not gong to judge my feelings today; I am simply going to feel them and notice them and I already know, at 7:43 am, that I will NOT drink over them.
Hope each and every one of the Decembers has a healthy day with lots of juice and good food and water and rest. :-)
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Hope everyone is having a great day!
All the therapy in the world, the meetings, the steps, the gum, the vitimins, the nutrition, the mental changes and challenges, the chocolate bars, the ice cream, the goals, the lists, every tool in the tool box.....
It all still just boils down to the one most basic thing for me....
Don't have that first drink.
Day 3
All the therapy in the world, the meetings, the steps, the gum, the vitimins, the nutrition, the mental changes and challenges, the chocolate bars, the ice cream, the goals, the lists, every tool in the tool box.....
It all still just boils down to the one most basic thing for me....
Don't have that first drink.
Day 3
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Hooped, way to go. That's what it's all about. Sometimes it helps me to remember that's the only drink I have to avoid. Makes it seem more manageable. Anyway, congrats on getting through the weekend. Keep it up, one day at a time!
Soph, I'm sorry you had a rough morning. Most of my day was like that. Got to admit, I heard the call a few times. It was so tempting to escape from my emotions. I went to an AA meeting instead. Actually hit one Saturday too. No big revelations, but it was good to be around folks sharing the same stuff we do here.
I feel better about things tonight. Hopeful. And grateful to be dealing with both the highs and lows sober.
Soph, I'm sorry you had a rough morning. Most of my day was like that. Got to admit, I heard the call a few times. It was so tempting to escape from my emotions. I went to an AA meeting instead. Actually hit one Saturday too. No big revelations, but it was good to be around folks sharing the same stuff we do here.
I feel better about things tonight. Hopeful. And grateful to be dealing with both the highs and lows sober.
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Hi all my brave friends. Soph, step 4 was a killer. Get through it fast, and on to 5. Actually, 5 is hard, too...OK on to 6! You can do it. Be kind to yourself. You are amazing.
Hooped, nice work!
R&a, hang in there.
Dee, MG, VC, gang, hope you are well.
I am home after a long day of travel with kids. The good news: I'm not going to crack
that beer in the fridge. The bad news: I'm boiling water for a big, midnight, bowl of pasta.
Hooped, nice work!
R&a, hang in there.
Dee, MG, VC, gang, hope you are well.
I am home after a long day of travel with kids. The good news: I'm not going to crack
that beer in the fridge. The bad news: I'm boiling water for a big, midnight, bowl of pasta.
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Hi everyone, have a good week and stay strong together.
I meant to check in last night, had a good Sunday. I too get those days of feeling way down and thinking a nice drink would be the solution. It never was the answer and it never will be.
I meant to check in last night, had a good Sunday. I too get those days of feeling way down and thinking a nice drink would be the solution. It never was the answer and it never will be.
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Just checking in... had a peaceful and productive weekend with NO DRAMA. Big sigh of relief for that. Yesterday a friend came over with a picnic lunch, and brought a few beers. I was able to say "no thanks," and that felt really nice. Also, I finally gave the bunnies haircuts yesterday and they look pretty funny. They seem more comfortable though - it's been super hot here.
Hi to everyone
Hi to everyone
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Hi guys. Glad you all had a nice sober weekend.
I on the other hand was on a drunken downward spiral that ended by my sis telling me at 4 this morning or yelling at me about what a piece of sh*t I am and how I need to stop drinking feeling sorry for myself. That last part has really stuck with me all day today and very true. Going to start reading the BB and make some serious changes. I'm tired of relapse and waving the huge white flag.
MJ good choice sticking with the pasta!
I on the other hand was on a drunken downward spiral that ended by my sis telling me at 4 this morning or yelling at me about what a piece of sh*t I am and how I need to stop drinking feeling sorry for myself. That last part has really stuck with me all day today and very true. Going to start reading the BB and make some serious changes. I'm tired of relapse and waving the huge white flag.
MJ good choice sticking with the pasta!
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