Class of December 2010 pt 5
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I agree you need to do something Hooped.
Even if it's calling someone from AA or going to a meeting.
It is scary - I remember it like it was yesterday. You feel damned if you do continue and damned if you don't.
Stop the madness now - break the cycle - lift some of the weight off you...get some help Hooped.
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Even if it's calling someone from AA or going to a meeting.
It is scary - I remember it like it was yesterday. You feel damned if you do continue and damned if you don't.
Stop the madness now - break the cycle - lift some of the weight off you...get some help Hooped.
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You don't sound crazy, Hooped. Just stuck on that treadmill. Keep posting no matter what—in fact I think it's especially important at times like this.
If you have the tools, I hop you use them right away. If that's not enough, then get some help man. You've come too far to let yourself slide all the way back down that mountain.
Soph, they can erase your posts, but they can't erase you from my heart!
If you have the tools, I hop you use them right away. If that's not enough, then get some help man. You've come too far to let yourself slide all the way back down that mountain.
Soph, they can erase your posts, but they can't erase you from my heart!
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Hooped/BF I will join the chorus, you know where this path leads. Seek help now, we can only do so much from cyberland (but keep posting here as well).
Soph I think I missed something but I hope you are ok and will rejoin us soon.
I'm feeling like that big race is catching up with me! Feel tired but pushing forward.
Soph I think I missed something but I hope you are ok and will rejoin us soon.
I'm feeling like that big race is catching up with me! Feel tired but pushing forward.
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I know very well where that path leads and I'm not ready for that yet.
Even after a stretch of sobriety it hits me like its making up for lost time.
Last night I was filling my cats bowl in 'his' room and my bowels just gave out....crap all over the floor, running down my legs...I didnt even realize it...never happened before..kitty sure noticed though.
Kitty just looked up at me with a stunned look and then bolted to hide under the bed for 3 hours. Forgot all about his dinner. Dont blame him.
I just had a good chat with a close friend on msn...that helped enormously....so thank you,... you know who...
No more beers today for Hooped....I have a picture of a 3 year old Hooped on the fridge...smiling away... on a tricycle in a cowboy outfit....he deserves better.
Kitty is over his upsetting incident last night and is sleeping peacefully beside me..
Big sigh here...I hope I'm done. Im sure kitty hopes that too.
It's insanity.
Where ever you are in this addiction.. dont drink. No matter what...just don't.
I wouldn't wish this on anyone. Im still thinking about more.
Even after a stretch of sobriety it hits me like its making up for lost time.
Last night I was filling my cats bowl in 'his' room and my bowels just gave out....crap all over the floor, running down my legs...I didnt even realize it...never happened before..kitty sure noticed though.
Kitty just looked up at me with a stunned look and then bolted to hide under the bed for 3 hours. Forgot all about his dinner. Dont blame him.
I just had a good chat with a close friend on msn...that helped enormously....so thank you,... you know who...
No more beers today for Hooped....I have a picture of a 3 year old Hooped on the fridge...smiling away... on a tricycle in a cowboy outfit....he deserves better.
Kitty is over his upsetting incident last night and is sleeping peacefully beside me..
Big sigh here...I hope I'm done. Im sure kitty hopes that too.
It's insanity.
Where ever you are in this addiction.. dont drink. No matter what...just don't.
I wouldn't wish this on anyone. Im still thinking about more.
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I'm glad to read that Hooped
but please do think about what you need to do to shore things up..and do it.
You have a lot of people who care here...
you too BF...and Soph
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Big sigh here...I hope I'm done. Im sure kitty hopes that too.
You have a lot of people who care here...
you too BF...and Soph
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Dee you are a wonderful inspiration and such a role model for us all.
Im literally sitting here with tears in my eyes wondering just how to ramp things up a bit....meetings...check...counsellor...check..tool box is open...check...
It's scary man....I saw last night where I am headed...an incontinent invalid with a wet brain....my struggle has been going on for so long I really dont know if I can beat it... but I'm never gonna give up trying to claw my way out of this personal hell going on inside my brain.
Even now there are little demons banging away with hammers in my head telling me to just give in that resistance is futile. I'll put on some coffee instead.
A meeting tonight is just not in the cards. But I can phone some people..
Im literally sitting here with tears in my eyes wondering just how to ramp things up a bit....meetings...check...counsellor...check..tool box is open...check...
It's scary man....I saw last night where I am headed...an incontinent invalid with a wet brain....my struggle has been going on for so long I really dont know if I can beat it... but I'm never gonna give up trying to claw my way out of this personal hell going on inside my brain.
Even now there are little demons banging away with hammers in my head telling me to just give in that resistance is futile. I'll put on some coffee instead.
A meeting tonight is just not in the cards. But I can phone some people..
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Called one of my numbers....
Apparently I'm not alone and the incontinent thing is quite common.
It helped to talk to somebody.
He strongly suggested going to a meeting and just opening up and talking to somone there..
Someone I recognize from past meetings....simply talk to them...thats the best advice that he could suggest.
He said to call him back if I wanted to..to call him anytime... but it would be better just to just go to a meeting.
Nice guy. A felow drunk. I simply cant make a meeting tonight though...dont want to loose my licence plus my brain is too fried. I will hit one in the morning though.
I wont be drinking any more tonight. I know that or I would simply just take a cab to the meeting. It was kinda reassuring to know that what we are all going though is more common than we realize.
Dude actually told me that Tuesdays meetings are some of the best, with lots of people in attendence.
Apparently there are quite a lot of people that drink their faces off all weekend, recover somewhat on Mondays and then hit a meeting on Tuesday.
Well now ...who'd a thunk that!??
I feel like I'm coming back from the dead. Thanks for listening to my BS over the last few days folks, I love you all.. you help more than you will ever know. God bless yah!
And Soph? Please come back.
Apparently I'm not alone and the incontinent thing is quite common.
It helped to talk to somebody.
He strongly suggested going to a meeting and just opening up and talking to somone there..
Someone I recognize from past meetings....simply talk to them...thats the best advice that he could suggest.
He said to call him back if I wanted to..to call him anytime... but it would be better just to just go to a meeting.
Nice guy. A felow drunk. I simply cant make a meeting tonight though...dont want to loose my licence plus my brain is too fried. I will hit one in the morning though.
I wont be drinking any more tonight. I know that or I would simply just take a cab to the meeting. It was kinda reassuring to know that what we are all going though is more common than we realize.
Dude actually told me that Tuesdays meetings are some of the best, with lots of people in attendence.
Apparently there are quite a lot of people that drink their faces off all weekend, recover somewhat on Mondays and then hit a meeting on Tuesday.
Well now ...who'd a thunk that!??
I feel like I'm coming back from the dead. Thanks for listening to my BS over the last few days folks, I love you all.. you help more than you will ever know. God bless yah!
And Soph? Please come back.
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Hooped, I read your last couple posts and I feel a lot of HOPE for you. You are totally seeing this for what it is right now, and you know where it leads. Resistance is not futile; there's proof of that on every page of these boards. Do not listen to that voice. You can defeat this. The voice knows that, and it's scared. It should be. Because you sound like someone who knows what has to be done, and knows exactly what's at stake. You can do this. Please—believe in yourself.
Soph, get your butt back here. You should be stoked—the kids who get in trouble are always the coolest kids in class! (For the rest of you folks, it was so totally not a big deal. PM Soph and she can tell you about it herself—I would post what happened here, but then I'd get "sanitized" by Dee too, lol.. )
Soph, get your butt back here. You should be stoked—the kids who get in trouble are always the coolest kids in class! (For the rest of you folks, it was so totally not a big deal. PM Soph and she can tell you about it herself—I would post what happened here, but then I'd get "sanitized" by Dee too, lol.. )
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Hang in there hooped!
MJ I love tea and am jealous I'm stuck in class and can't have some too!
I'm on my break right now at school so thought I would hop on here for a bit. My stomach still feels all messed up. Hopefully tomorrow I'll feel a little better.
MJ I love tea and am jealous I'm stuck in class and can't have some too!
I'm on my break right now at school so thought I would hop on here for a bit. My stomach still feels all messed up. Hopefully tomorrow I'll feel a little better.
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BF ..good for you for going to your class!
You hang in there yourself, and I agree that tomorrow's gotta be better.
Every cell in my body hurts right now...my kidneys are sore... I have liver pain and my head...well my head is just not working correctly.
End stage alcoholism and it is scaring the daylights out of me.
A brand new day coming up though!
A sober one too...YAY
You hang in there yourself, and I agree that tomorrow's gotta be better.
Every cell in my body hurts right now...my kidneys are sore... I have liver pain and my head...well my head is just not working correctly.
End stage alcoholism and it is scaring the daylights out of me.
A brand new day coming up though!
A sober one too...YAY
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MJ, posting to SR on the self-correcting iPain-in-the-ass drove me nuts! It challenged me on every other word. A month later and I'm still annoyed at that thing, lol.
BF, way to go, getting your hung-over butt into class!
I'm going to bed feeling hopeful for us all tonight.
BF, way to go, getting your hung-over butt into class!
I'm going to bed feeling hopeful for us all tonight.
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