Members with less than 2 weeks -Part 9
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Members with less than 2 weeks -Part 9
Last edited by CarolD; 08-10-2009 at 07:06 PM. Reason: Corrected Title
Forward we go...side by side-Rest In Peace
Join Date: Jun 2002
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Thank you Anna.....
How about a check in to begin our fresh start?
I so appreciate y'all who are joinging in on our
Daily Support thread......
It took me many tries to find my recovery from alcoholism
and so this is a special place for me...
it helps me keep in balance.
Yes.....we can and do recover
there is no wrong way to find your path.
Forward we go side by side.........
How about a check in to begin our fresh start?
I so appreciate y'all who are joinging in on our
Daily Support thread......
It took me many tries to find my recovery from alcoholism
and so this is a special place for me...
it helps me keep in balance.
Yes.....we can and do recover
there is no wrong way to find your path.
Forward we go side by side.........
We Do Recover
Join Date: Jun 2006
Location: Texas
Posts: 2,619
Hi everyone! 
Just got back from a meeting. I have been having general anxiety today from mid-afternoon to now. It isn't overwhelming, but I have had feelings of fear and for some reason cannot seem to remember even the simplest things.....things I know, but just "blank out" temporarily for some reason and it's like I can't remember what I did minutes ago, almost like a blackout......like my body is functioning as it should but my mind is off somewhere else--if that makes any sense.
Anyway--finishing up day 8 here. Hope I will feel more "normal" tomorrow.....well, as normal as I can be--anyway. I also have some fears concerning work---the workload will be increasing (which is good for business) but it will mean I will have less time for recovery. I still am looking for a sponsor--I did talk to a girl today...she gave me a few names of people she would recommend. Anyway--hope everyone else is doing well.
Just got back from a meeting. I have been having general anxiety today from mid-afternoon to now. It isn't overwhelming, but I have had feelings of fear and for some reason cannot seem to remember even the simplest things.....things I know, but just "blank out" temporarily for some reason and it's like I can't remember what I did minutes ago, almost like a blackout......like my body is functioning as it should but my mind is off somewhere else--if that makes any sense.Anyway--finishing up day 8 here. Hope I will feel more "normal" tomorrow.....well, as normal as I can be--anyway. I also have some fears concerning work---the workload will be increasing (which is good for business) but it will mean I will have less time for recovery. I still am looking for a sponsor--I did talk to a girl today...she gave me a few names of people she would recommend. Anyway--hope everyone else is doing well.
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Join Date: Nov 2008
Location: Upstate New York
Posts: 1,401
Day six and still counting, still not sleeping either (though I'm going to give it another shot in a few minutes). I stayed up a little later than usual (midnight), hoping to sleep. I slept for almost an hour 
and then laid in bed for what seemed like another two hours (during which time only fifteen minutes had passed). That was about 2.5 hours ago. I'm so tired that I'm walking around dizzy during the day. And now I'm whining. Sorry.
This evening, my husband and I were walking and he told me that he's proud of me because I haven't used. Of course, this past week hasn't been like it was the past couple of months. It's easier on the Sub. I would probably be in relapse again (especially considering the sleep situation) if not for the Sub. My counselor asked me if I feel like I'm cheating (being on the Suboxone) when I'm sitting in the rooms. Of course I do! After all, I know how impossible it was for me to resist relieving the obsession just a couple of weeks ago but, now, voila! I'm not using.
I know that it would help if I could find a way to start accepting this as a worthy means of getting clean instead of being ashamed that I haven't been able to get past the obsession without chemical assistance.
and then laid in bed for what seemed like another two hours (during which time only fifteen minutes had passed). That was about 2.5 hours ago. I'm so tired that I'm walking around dizzy during the day. And now I'm whining. Sorry.This evening, my husband and I were walking and he told me that he's proud of me because I haven't used. Of course, this past week hasn't been like it was the past couple of months. It's easier on the Sub. I would probably be in relapse again (especially considering the sleep situation) if not for the Sub. My counselor asked me if I feel like I'm cheating (being on the Suboxone) when I'm sitting in the rooms. Of course I do! After all, I know how impossible it was for me to resist relieving the obsession just a couple of weeks ago but, now, voila! I'm not using.
I know that it would help if I could find a way to start accepting this as a worthy means of getting clean instead of being ashamed that I haven't been able to get past the obsession without chemical assistance.
Forward we go...side by side-Rest In Peace
Join Date: Jun 2002
Location: Serene In Dixie
Posts: 36,740
Not been a great day for me either ...*sigh*
I've been dealing with some serious breathing problems
saw a specialist today who will do a procedure
tomorrow afternoon for answers. I won't know anything
until next Thursday ..please keep me in your thoughts
and or prayers for a good result from the test.
Thanks....
I've been dealing with some serious breathing problems
saw a specialist today who will do a procedure
tomorrow afternoon for answers. I won't know anything
until next Thursday ..please keep me in your thoughts
and or prayers for a good result from the test.
Thanks....
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Join Date: Nov 2008
Location: Upstate New York
Posts: 1,401
Originally Posted by CarolD 
Not been a great day for me either ...*sigh* I've been dealing with some serious breathing problems
Today is Day 7 for me. I finally slept last night. It was wonderful! After I'm done praying for Carol, I'm going to pray that I sleep as well tonight.
I hope that everyone on this thread has had a clean and sober Thursday!
grateful to be here
Join Date: Apr 2009
Posts: 426
i don't know what day it is for me and i'm not going to count for awhile. i would have to walk to get anything since i'm out of transportation right now due to the dui. i would be too embarassed to pick up a beer anyway so i don't know whether these days count or not. this whole dui experience has disheartened my soul. so i'm back here under 2wks again - i'm glad to be here in truth, but i just don't feel anything too much right now.
congrats to everyone else tho
congrats to everyone else tho
Seems to be what I'm good at these days. Anyone wan't to but a shovel?
We Do Recover
Join Date: Jun 2006
Location: Texas
Posts: 2,619
Hey CB--what does that mean exactly......? I am doing well--btw>well, as good as I can be--I guess>which definitely beats the alternative....you know--jails, institutions, death etc.
Good to see you posting again on the forums.
Good to see you posting again on the forums.
Forward we go...side by side-Rest In Peace
Join Date: Jun 2002
Location: Serene In Dixie
Posts: 36,740
Hi Everyone.....
Thanks for keeping me in your prayers and kind thoughts
I do appreciate y'all.....
Medical test all came back with no major new issues.
It's a grand day to be sober!
Thanks for keeping me in your prayers and kind thoughts
I do appreciate y'all.....
Medical test all came back with no major new issues.
It's a grand day to be sober!
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Join Date: Oct 2008
Posts: 5
Hi everyone
I posted here a few times before - hopefully I'll actually stick around this time. Day 1 for me and it has been .... interesting. I got into work today and my boss called me into her office and reprimanded me for not being on top of my work and gave me a written warning. She had done this once before and I was scared about losing my job. She knew something was up with me, and I broke down and confessed about my drinking, on the verge of tears and everything. Her son is a heroin addict who's been clean for a year, so she was very understanding. She told me I should go to my parents house this weekend and tell them about it. So I composed myself (took a while), made some calls and got an appointment to a substance abuse place on Monday. Called my mom told her I had to come home and talk to her.
So I hopped the train to my parent's house and told my mom what I told my boss (very difficult conversation) she took it better than I thought she would. It's a lot easier to not drink here then it is sitting in my apartment, but I'm still craving a drink. Starting to get anxious and a little depressed as well. Think I'll make some popcorn and throw on the Big Lebowski.
I posted here a few times before - hopefully I'll actually stick around this time. Day 1 for me and it has been .... interesting. I got into work today and my boss called me into her office and reprimanded me for not being on top of my work and gave me a written warning. She had done this once before and I was scared about losing my job. She knew something was up with me, and I broke down and confessed about my drinking, on the verge of tears and everything. Her son is a heroin addict who's been clean for a year, so she was very understanding. She told me I should go to my parents house this weekend and tell them about it. So I composed myself (took a while), made some calls and got an appointment to a substance abuse place on Monday. Called my mom told her I had to come home and talk to her.
So I hopped the train to my parent's house and told my mom what I told my boss (very difficult conversation) she took it better than I thought she would. It's a lot easier to not drink here then it is sitting in my apartment, but I'm still craving a drink. Starting to get anxious and a little depressed as well. Think I'll make some popcorn and throw on the Big Lebowski.
Forward we go...side by side-Rest In Peace
Join Date: Jun 2002
Location: Serene In Dixie
Posts: 36,740
Many of us had false starts on our way to solid recovery.
Good to know you are trying again....
I'm also glad you are not going to be alone as you de tox.
Withdrawing from alcohol is very uncomfortable to most
and dangerous to some drinkers.
Please check out this link for facts and some of our experiences
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...at-we-did.html
Do let us know how you are doing
Welcome back to our recovery community....
Good to know you are trying again....
I'm also glad you are not going to be alone as you de tox.
Withdrawing from alcohol is very uncomfortable to most
and dangerous to some drinkers.
Please check out this link for facts and some of our experiences
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...at-we-did.html
Do let us know how you are doing
Welcome back to our recovery community....
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