Class of November Part 8
OMG everything's real
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Last night I kept thinking I had over-reacted thinking I was an alcoholic - I just need to drink every day, preferably all day. I'm unique and just need alcohol to function.
How could I forget how I had to feel to walk into an AA meeting? I'm so shy, it was the hardest thing I've ever done. Even after I realised what I was, I still spent another year battling alcohol on my own. Why would I want to go back to those days?
It is a cunning disease, putting thoughts like that into my head. I WILL lose my job if I go back to what I was doing, regardless of what I put my kids through. By the time I stopped drinking, my older daughter was basically being a mother to her little sister, because the position was vacant!
How could I forget how I had to feel to walk into an AA meeting? I'm so shy, it was the hardest thing I've ever done. Even after I realised what I was, I still spent another year battling alcohol on my own. Why would I want to go back to those days?
It is a cunning disease, putting thoughts like that into my head. I WILL lose my job if I go back to what I was doing, regardless of what I put my kids through. By the time I stopped drinking, my older daughter was basically being a mother to her little sister, because the position was vacant!
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Oh Lost never forget where alcohol took you but don't be so hard on yourself now, you are doing what you can to make up for the past and that is all you can ask of yourself. x
We all get those days and most of the battle is to get past them.
We all get those days and most of the battle is to get past them.
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just need to drink every day, preferably all day. I'm unique and just need alcohol to function.
You know LB, I find it so hard to believe you are shy...but then you know i think most of us sober up thinking we are one way when it isn't really how we are....believe me it is ony through your eyes (not LB's lol everyone here) that I actually began to see myself as I really am.....as someone told me a while back...I am lovely, witty, charming (grin) you know maybe I am
I went to get dressed a minite ago (no Alley i'm still not dressed lol) and due to my still being in boxes...i have beige pants and top and only black shoes...yuck....
Now was a time when that would have required 2 or 3 more shots and a long think to decide how to proceed...today i just come post this and get on with it...they just get me in black shoes today
my friend connie always says...its the broken shoe strings that get us.....
(course i don't really think thats true, but it is the broken shoestrings that put us over the top....)
ok...i just gotta get dressed and wash up now..runnign out of time
Where is Pixy and jiggy
why aren't you posting young man!
OMG everything's real
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In our meeting last night, someone shared (11 years sober) how it's not the big things that get him, because he makes sure he works his program. It's the little things adding up, like the washing machine breaking down! (I've been drunk in the laundromat many times, bemoaning my fate - complete identification there!)
Do I dare post this ... tempting fate, I know, but I feel great this morning. Not ridiculously tired, still eating junk, but pretty happy! Now I've jinxed it by writing it here. Next time I come on I'll be crying about something!!
I hope we see Jig posting soon - I understand you not wanting to post while you are drinking - I have an endless list of things I regret saying while drunk (and actually, I now have a list of things I regret saying sober, lol!). May the force be with Wonkey!
See you girls later. LBxxx
Do I dare post this ... tempting fate, I know, but I feel great this morning. Not ridiculously tired, still eating junk, but pretty happy! Now I've jinxed it by writing it here. Next time I come on I'll be crying about something!!
I hope we see Jig posting soon - I understand you not wanting to post while you are drinking - I have an endless list of things I regret saying while drunk (and actually, I now have a list of things I regret saying sober, lol!). May the force be with Wonkey!
See you girls later. LBxxx
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You need to be careful Dee the men on this thread have a habit of dissappearing!
Not Fizzy obviously but I think we may have to make him an honourary woman to keep him safe.
He can still go to the football but he will have to start using smilies!
Not Fizzy obviously but I think we may have to make him an honourary woman to keep him safe.
He can still go to the football but he will have to start using smilies!
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Morning all :ghug I'm so happy I could burst! I don't even know why!
Working on a late shift tonight so got loads to do this morning. Clearing out the room my daughters been using as a bedroom so I can put the kitchen in it thats arriving today. The work starts Monday
Wonky is sober and doing really well LB
Off to the bank, catch you all later x
Working on a late shift tonight so got loads to do this morning. Clearing out the room my daughters been using as a bedroom so I can put the kitchen in it thats arriving today. The work starts Monday
Wonky is sober and doing really well LB
Off to the bank, catch you all later x
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