A long road - Part 2
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But don't you think you are supposing yourself into paralysis? You seem to project things you *think*will happen, but they haven't actually occurred. 8 years ago there was very much less technology we all depended on, you may be dwelling on this because it is all you keep replaying. The outcome can be opposite.
Like I said, you know your situation best, but you might try to look outside the old thoughts. The future could be opposite of what he did 8 years ago.
God forbid you are not here suddenly, are your daughters going to support him?.
Like I said, you know your situation best, but you might try to look outside the old thoughts. The future could be opposite of what he did 8 years ago.
God forbid you are not here suddenly, are your daughters going to support him?.
Hi Chic, I'm glad your D is emailing him because you could use some backup. I hate to think of you handling this on your own.
I may be way off, but possibly the lack of internet is bringing him to a point of crisis, as intended, so you would expect him to ramp up his displays of anger (fear). This may be a time when he is receptive to outside advice, because you've demonstrated you will follow through.
Just a thought, but should YOU write him a letter? Something along the lines of you are getting older, your budget is at breaking point, you have provided him with a home but the time has come for him to support himself, starting with making certain contributions to the household (I think you mentioned food stamps at one stage) and with the goal of him moving out within a ---month period. Even as I type this, I think this is the sort of thing that should go through mental health providers.
Correct me if I'm wrong, but in the past if you have stopped focusing on him, and explained your predicament, he has been slightly calmer. Empathy only goes so far, so it would be put in terms of, 'I'm in this situation, this is my plan of action, this is where you fit in. It's not all about you, it's because I urgently need to sort out my finances and future.'
I may be way off, but possibly the lack of internet is bringing him to a point of crisis, as intended, so you would expect him to ramp up his displays of anger (fear). This may be a time when he is receptive to outside advice, because you've demonstrated you will follow through.
Just a thought, but should YOU write him a letter? Something along the lines of you are getting older, your budget is at breaking point, you have provided him with a home but the time has come for him to support himself, starting with making certain contributions to the household (I think you mentioned food stamps at one stage) and with the goal of him moving out within a ---month period. Even as I type this, I think this is the sort of thing that should go through mental health providers.
Correct me if I'm wrong, but in the past if you have stopped focusing on him, and explained your predicament, he has been slightly calmer. Empathy only goes so far, so it would be put in terms of, 'I'm in this situation, this is my plan of action, this is where you fit in. It's not all about you, it's because I urgently need to sort out my finances and future.'
Chic - I had some major episodes of violence in my home, not too many years ago. I didn't post here as I knew what I'd be told, that they were right, but I was not going to call the cops or Bratkin unless they laid one hand on me. Something that got through their anger and alcohol with Bratkin.
You are stronger than I, as you did post. I have told people "call the cops" and I knew I should, but no one else was walking in my shoes. It is frustrating for everyone, including you, as we all want to see you safe. You have come a long way, and you will continue taking baby steps.
Just stay safe and keep your phone with you at all times. As far as when he called you that horrible name, I would have said "you will not talk to me like that in my house. You need to leave until you calm down". It's not kicking him out, it's just setting another boundary. As for me, because I was in dad's house, I installed extra locks on my bedroom doors and, surprisingly, that was enough. I'd also true the TV up full blast until everyone shut up. There were times I did leave for a while.
Love, hugs and prayers,
Amy
You are stronger than I, as you did post. I have told people "call the cops" and I knew I should, but no one else was walking in my shoes. It is frustrating for everyone, including you, as we all want to see you safe. You have come a long way, and you will continue taking baby steps.
Just stay safe and keep your phone with you at all times. As far as when he called you that horrible name, I would have said "you will not talk to me like that in my house. You need to leave until you calm down". It's not kicking him out, it's just setting another boundary. As for me, because I was in dad's house, I installed extra locks on my bedroom doors and, surprisingly, that was enough. I'd also true the TV up full blast until everyone shut up. There were times I did leave for a while.
Love, hugs and prayers,
Amy
I am sorry Chicory that you are in such pain. However, IMO, most addicts/alcoholics have some kind of underlying mental illness and there many, many mothers and fathers here on SR who have had to make the painful decision of making their child leave their home and face homelessness.
Just keep doing what you think is best. None of this is easy Chic.
Just keep doing what you think is best. None of this is easy Chic.
Chic - I had some major episodes of violence in my home, not too many years ago. I didn't post here as I knew what I'd be told, that they were right, but I was not going to call the cops or Bratkin unless they laid one hand on me. Something that got through their anger and alcohol with Bratkin.
You are stronger than I, as you did post. I have told people "call the cops" and I knew I should, but no one else was walking in my shoes. It is frustrating for everyone, including you, as we all want to see you safe. You have come a long way, and you will continue taking baby steps.
Just stay safe and keep your phone with you at all times.
Love, hugs and prayers,
Love, hugs and prayers,
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I am sorry Chicory that you are in such pain. However, IMO, most addicts/alcoholics have some kind of underlying mental illness and there many, many mothers and fathers here on SR who have had to make the painful decision of making their child leave their home and face homelessness.
Just keep doing what you think is best. None of this easy Chic.
Just keep doing what you think is best. None of this easy Chic.
thank you.
I have been Chic (though not with a child, just someone else who had problems). I was her for decades. I've lost friends who got tired of me not " getting it", luckily just regained one of those friendships after about 20 years.
Sometimes I forget the person I used to be. I can share MY ES&H, but I can't fix anyone. The one thing I can do is support babybsteps or I can step away from a thread when I have nothing else to offer.
Chic - you've been terrified of turning off the Internet and though you can still do your email and get on SR, your son is "cut off". That was a huge step and it was also an eye opener as to how he's handled it. Good for you!
I only pray that we each find a way to find serenity and peace, no matter what is going on with our loved ones.
Hugs and prayers,
Amy
Sometimes I forget the person I used to be. I can share MY ES&H, but I can't fix anyone. The one thing I can do is support babybsteps or I can step away from a thread when I have nothing else to offer.
Chic - you've been terrified of turning off the Internet and though you can still do your email and get on SR, your son is "cut off". That was a huge step and it was also an eye opener as to how he's handled it. Good for you!
I only pray that we each find a way to find serenity and peace, no matter what is going on with our loved ones.
Hugs and prayers,
Amy
(((Amy))) yep, I didn't think I could do it... I knew I had to , but was just so dreading it. He has been addicted to it since he was about 10 years old! isolating, and not doing more to become independent. I wish I could escape into cyberspace sometimes.....
Went to counseling today. She offered to see son free of charge, a few times. He seems to be willing to do so.
He went job application hunting today... came home and filled them out and we took them in. I guess sitting around bored isn't as much fun .
Therapist seems to think that things could have turned out worse. I sure hope he will go and that she will give me her opinion of what may be going on.
of course, confidentiality will be honored. she is a good person, and I am grateful that I am going to her.
I am ignoring any fussing about the internet. He will have to pay for it, if he wants it.
thanks for reading.
long day. news in the world is depressing.
He went job application hunting today... came home and filled them out and we took them in. I guess sitting around bored isn't as much fun .
Therapist seems to think that things could have turned out worse. I sure hope he will go and that she will give me her opinion of what may be going on.
of course, confidentiality will be honored. she is a good person, and I am grateful that I am going to her.
I am ignoring any fussing about the internet. He will have to pay for it, if he wants it.
thanks for reading.
long day. news in the world is depressing.
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Your therapist sounds great, I am glad you found her, I'm hoping she can steer through the insurance snafus.
You might want to contact your cable provider and find out why you still have some Internet access when you specifically cancelled, only because they won't stop charging you if you can still use it?
You might want to contact your cable provider and find out why you still have some Internet access when you specifically cancelled, only because they won't stop charging you if you can still use it?
Went to counseling today. She offered to see son free of charge, a few times. He seems to be willing to do so.
He went job application hunting today... came home and filled them out and we took them in. I guess sitting around bored isn't as much fun .
Therapist seems to think that things could have turned out worse. I sure hope he will go and that she will give me her opinion of what may be going on.
He went job application hunting today... came home and filled them out and we took them in. I guess sitting around bored isn't as much fun .
Therapist seems to think that things could have turned out worse. I sure hope he will go and that she will give me her opinion of what may be going on.
Cutting him off the computer was a good thing, I think. Now that he has to find things to do, it seems he is more cooperative.
Keeping you both in my prayers.
chicory.....to my eyes...I see improvement that didn't look possible to you even 2 months ago!!
What a wonderfully generous offer on the part of your counselor! That deserves mention on the gratitude list, in my book.....
There are some good people in this world.
dandylion
**any mention of a support group...?
What a wonderfully generous offer on the part of your counselor! That deserves mention on the gratitude list, in my book.....
There are some good people in this world.
dandylion
**any mention of a support group...?
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