wish me luck.
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Originally Posted by readerbaby71 
A clean break is what I need. I can't take the negativity and craziness anymore. My sanity is more important than money.
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I go back and forth between feeling elated and scared out of my wits. I know that's normal and it will be okay. A huge burden will be lifted off my shoulders and my psyche once I'm gone. I talked with my dad last night and he is adamant that I should stay. He doesn't understand what she's really like. She's a toxic, negative person, something he's always told me to run away from. However, he's a classic codependent/enabler so I have to take what he says with a grain of salt. She has been great to me and my family as far as dental care goes so I understand why he thinks so highly of her. She's not a bad person. Just unhappy and crazy.
I have to keep reminding myself that no amount of money or security is worth my sanity and well-being. Ugh. I'm just scared to death that I'm making the wrong decision and will find myself in a financial mess months from now. But as my BF said, I've made it through when I was severely depressed, had my own addiction problems, etc.....I will make it any way I know how. I always do. I also have a temp agency I used to work for that will find me jobs if I need them. I need to remember that I have resources and support, and that I am resourceful. I'll figure it out.
I have to keep reminding myself that no amount of money or security is worth my sanity and well-being. Ugh. I'm just scared to death that I'm making the wrong decision and will find myself in a financial mess months from now. But as my BF said, I've made it through when I was severely depressed, had my own addiction problems, etc.....I will make it any way I know how. I always do. I also have a temp agency I used to work for that will find me jobs if I need them. I need to remember that I have resources and support, and that I am resourceful. I'll figure it out.
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Someone once told me that if you aren't at least partially scared, you're not doing what you're supposed to do. All good things come with risk, and with that exhilarated, excited, terrified feeling.
LOVE this moment! Bask in it.
Worst case...it doesn't work and you go back to something like what you're leaving. Big deal. No loss. Best case...I can't even imagine because it's better than anything I could write.
I applaud you and hope someday I can do the same professionally. Congratulations on a very difficult decision!
LOVE this moment! Bask in it.
Worst case...it doesn't work and you go back to something like what you're leaving. Big deal. No loss. Best case...I can't even imagine because it's better than anything I could write.
I applaud you and hope someday I can do the same professionally. Congratulations on a very difficult decision!
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