Better late than never?? Or is it??
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Better late than never?? Or is it??
Well, as I have mentioned before, very-stbXAH is in a rehab program. While his checking in threw me for a loop, I know that the relationship is over. Period.
My question, though, is how on earth should I act while he's in treatment? He has called non-stop, leaving me those lengthy, I love you, baby, I'm sorry I didn't do this sooner voicemails. While I truly hope this program works out for him, those words make my skin crawl. I just can't begin to believe that. Blech. Anyway, I feel like I should tell him, via phone or even better a letter, that there is no opportunity for reconciliation and that I would like him to cease contacting me. When I supposedly went "no contact" back when I first moved out, I didn't straight up tell him I was doing that. I know...chicken. I just ignored him and hoped he would go away. Long story longer, he didn't. I think I need to finally be up front with him (and that is sooooo out of character for this make-everyone-happy chickie), but is it reeeeeeally wrong to do that while he's in treatment? I know I should have done it a long time ago so that this wouldn't be an issue, but I didn't. If I wait though, I'd have to tell him after treatment, right? And while I really do get that I'm not responsible if he drinks afterwards (logic), I don't want to be the thing that sets off a relapse (emotion).
Any insight on when to set my boundaries that should have been set loooooong ago?
My question, though, is how on earth should I act while he's in treatment? He has called non-stop, leaving me those lengthy, I love you, baby, I'm sorry I didn't do this sooner voicemails. While I truly hope this program works out for him, those words make my skin crawl. I just can't begin to believe that. Blech. Anyway, I feel like I should tell him, via phone or even better a letter, that there is no opportunity for reconciliation and that I would like him to cease contacting me. When I supposedly went "no contact" back when I first moved out, I didn't straight up tell him I was doing that. I know...chicken. I just ignored him and hoped he would go away. Long story longer, he didn't. I think I need to finally be up front with him (and that is sooooo out of character for this make-everyone-happy chickie), but is it reeeeeeally wrong to do that while he's in treatment? I know I should have done it a long time ago so that this wouldn't be an issue, but I didn't. If I wait though, I'd have to tell him after treatment, right? And while I really do get that I'm not responsible if he drinks afterwards (logic), I don't want to be the thing that sets off a relapse (emotion).
Any insight on when to set my boundaries that should have been set loooooong ago?
I would say better done whilst he was in treatment, with access to counsellors and the like, than later.
You wouldn't set off a relapse, hon. He is the one that would do that. Heck, if he can't get the message given that you have moved away and got a new life, then that is his problem, no? That kind of begging behaviour seems a tad non-recovery to me. A bit "look at me, I'm in rehab, I did what you wanted" kind of thing.
You can set your boundaries whenever you want. This is about your life, not his. If things are going so peachy in rehab, he will have the tools to deal with it. If things aren't going that way in rehab, then he's just going through the motions anyway, so timing doesn't matter.
You wouldn't set off a relapse, hon. He is the one that would do that. Heck, if he can't get the message given that you have moved away and got a new life, then that is his problem, no? That kind of begging behaviour seems a tad non-recovery to me. A bit "look at me, I'm in rehab, I did what you wanted" kind of thing.
You can set your boundaries whenever you want. This is about your life, not his. If things are going so peachy in rehab, he will have the tools to deal with it. If things aren't going that way in rehab, then he's just going through the motions anyway, so timing doesn't matter.
I agree. I would tell him while he's in rehab. And I would probably write a letter rather than a phone call to him. If it were me I'd tell him how proud I am that he is trying to make a better life for himself but that the damage has been done and I have made my peace that it is over. (ok, actually if it were me RIGHT NOW I would probably take him back cuz I'm a wuss right now But its NOT me. Its YOU )
TG - I agree - do it while he is in treatment with other resources available to him. For me, a letter was the way to go (see my post from yesterday). That way, I know that is says exactly what I want it to say - I can't get sidetracked or manipulated by him during a conversation. Good luck with your decision.
Tell him now!!! Less chance of him talking you into staying if you wait. I told my AH I was done for the "final" time in January. He said "I will do whatever it takes." I felt if I left he wouldnt get/stay sober. He "couldnt do it without me". Here I am 5 months later, he is still sober, but I still want out....
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When my b/f was in rehab - that is when I told him a couple of things he wouldn't
like to hear. He had a good support system there.
But...He was a tad doped up from the meds. they were giving him. I would do the
letter so he can read it at different "mental" times. Just my opinion.
like to hear. He had a good support system there.
But...He was a tad doped up from the meds. they were giving him. I would do the
letter so he can read it at different "mental" times. Just my opinion.
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I'm with Minnie. Tell him the hard truth when he's in a safe place. Hopefully the docs there will help him deal with it. And he'll have other patients who will sympathize with him, because no doubt they've lost loved ones the same way.
Take care of yourself!!!! Good luck.
Take care of yourself!!!! Good luck.
Yep, right now is the best time. That way he will be trying to recover for himself, not you.
I am not good a point blank either. I tell my A in a nice way alot. Sometimes when he is crappy I tell him in a bad way. I hope he gets the picture but just when I think he does, he crawls back to his Mr. Nice guy - I want something from you self.
The thing is with me, my A knows it is over. He is just looking for a morsel of hope here and there that it might not be. I try to be very precise when I tell him I like being alone, I am happy he is doing well for himself, I tell him I pray for him to learn to be comfortable with himself. I leave "us" out of the equation.
Last conversation I had with him he claimed it was over and blamed it on me. I agreed and said that was fine, I would take the blame.
Do your best. It really is hard but remind yourself it is the best for him as well (for his recovery) and you will feel better about it. Hope I made a little sense here. B
I am not good a point blank either. I tell my A in a nice way alot. Sometimes when he is crappy I tell him in a bad way. I hope he gets the picture but just when I think he does, he crawls back to his Mr. Nice guy - I want something from you self.
The thing is with me, my A knows it is over. He is just looking for a morsel of hope here and there that it might not be. I try to be very precise when I tell him I like being alone, I am happy he is doing well for himself, I tell him I pray for him to learn to be comfortable with himself. I leave "us" out of the equation.
Last conversation I had with him he claimed it was over and blamed it on me. I agreed and said that was fine, I would take the blame.
Do your best. It really is hard but remind yourself it is the best for him as well (for his recovery) and you will feel better about it. Hope I made a little sense here. B
I've been thinking about this TG, and I'm not sure - if I were to write a letter, it would just say please don't contact me. If he is calling you non-stop how seriously, really, is he taking recovery, if at all? Do you think a letter will convince him any more than staying no contact? Maybe so; if not, what will you do if he continues to contact you after you ask that he not?
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I can't remember if you have any access to the people at the rehab. If so,perhaps they can offer you advice or help. I'm guessing you are not the first one who has felt like this when their SO finally got into treatment.
Good luck to you (and him)
Good luck to you (and him)
part of recovery is learning to live with the wreckage of their past. Just a thought; MAYBE it would be good for your own recovery to learn to communicate openly and honestly. Ending this relationship in such a manner might be good for both of you. The more you learn to commun. effectively, the healthier your next relationship can be.
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I vote now as well.
He has a support system in there and it becomes his and Their responsibility not yours! First do what you feel you need to do in order to follow through with this i.e. phone or letter.(emotions yours) Which will make you more comfortable because it is not about him it is about YOU!
Then try not answering the phone when he calls because I’am sure with today technology you do know when it is him. (hard I know but if you are sure you want no contact it is a way to start)
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He has a support system in there and it becomes his and Their responsibility not yours! First do what you feel you need to do in order to follow through with this i.e. phone or letter.(emotions yours) Which will make you more comfortable because it is not about him it is about YOU!
Then try not answering the phone when he calls because I’am sure with today technology you do know when it is him. (hard I know but if you are sure you want no contact it is a way to start)
((((TG)))))
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Originally Posted by SpiritualSeeker
Just a thought; MAYBE it would be good for your own recovery to learn to communicate openly and honestly. Ending this relationship in such a manner might be good for both of you. The more you learn to commun. effectively, the healthier your next relationship can be.
Dont beat youself up for not spelling it out for him.
You did file for divorce and are moving forward with that agenda, so I dont think you mislead him. I think its in my nature to feel that if another party doesnt agree with or 100% understand my position on a matter, Ive failed to communicate properly. Not true. I remind myself, my actions speak just as anyones elses do. Filing for divorce is an action, no?
I personally (ideally of course) would not even respond to the pleading, but if I felt so compelled, I would do so only in the form of, please do not contact me any longer, Ive made the decision to move forward with my life and am being proactive about said decisions. ..and I would do it when he was in treatment, with access to therspists etc..this reminds me..when D was in treatment he wasnt allowed to call anyone a million times a day, they had a structured schedule..seems like his focus is a little out of balance.
You are doing great
You did file for divorce and are moving forward with that agenda, so I dont think you mislead him. I think its in my nature to feel that if another party doesnt agree with or 100% understand my position on a matter, Ive failed to communicate properly. Not true. I remind myself, my actions speak just as anyones elses do. Filing for divorce is an action, no?
I personally (ideally of course) would not even respond to the pleading, but if I felt so compelled, I would do so only in the form of, please do not contact me any longer, Ive made the decision to move forward with my life and am being proactive about said decisions. ..and I would do it when he was in treatment, with access to therspists etc..this reminds me..when D was in treatment he wasnt allowed to call anyone a million times a day, they had a structured schedule..seems like his focus is a little out of balance.
You are doing great
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Originally Posted by elizabeth1979
Not true. I remind myself, my actions speak just as anyones elses do. Filing for divorce is an action, no?
Sorry.....I feel like now I'm going in circles with this.....
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his mom went and hired a PI on me!!!),
For me, that was/is the hardest thing to let go,,,,
So, I use the "excuse" that I don't want to be the bad guy.
In my case, my A, berates me. Its a major DRAMA button pusher. I don't want to be the BAD GUY. So, I break my "no contact" rule and email him how wrong he is? Do I get any satisfaction? NOT What I get is a barrage of mail back, reinforcing his BAD GUY image of me. And the continuim continues.
Is it over or not?
Thats what I ask myelf
Peace
PS, oh an yes some TOTAL getting honest with myself. If I don't have that drama fix, I find myself LOOKING for it. Almost like the A trying to get past a craving,,,
Excellent for looking at youself, as usual TG.
So, which speaks louder..actions or words?
For me actions do.
I am the queen of doing one thing and feeling a little badly about it, so I gloss it up with some words. Usually, when I do this, my words are not necessary, bc I have been more than clear with my actions, but I do this as an attempt to make my actions easier to stomach for others.
Good topic for me today, I did this very thing this morning.
A good reminder for me to say what I mean, mean what I say, or say nothing at all
So, which speaks louder..actions or words?
For me actions do.
I am the queen of doing one thing and feeling a little badly about it, so I gloss it up with some words. Usually, when I do this, my words are not necessary, bc I have been more than clear with my actions, but I do this as an attempt to make my actions easier to stomach for others.
Good topic for me today, I did this very thing this morning.
A good reminder for me to say what I mean, mean what I say, or say nothing at all
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