fini

geeeez...!

we're more than bodies.
as you know and show.

so very sorry to hear of this additional crap.

RobbyRobot

Spring this week in Ottawa is at best high 52F and worst low 38F with rain next three days. No snow to be seen, lol.

Soberwolf

Sounds lovely Robby

Jeni26

Robby my friend...working as I do with special needs kids and their families, many of whom have life limiting and complex medical conditions...I've long since moved past the 'it's not fair' train of thought. It does no good to anyone. But I must admit I had a WTF moment when I read of the heart failure. I understand your anger.

I know that you are made of strong stuff. You are surrounded by genuine love and affection from all over the world. Your struggles have touched so many of us.

We are all walking shoulder to shoulder with you.

As Alpha says...fight, friend. Fight xxx

Aellyce

(((Robby))) My dear friend.
I don't check in/post here on SR as often as I did earlier because I'm finally truly engaged in my 3D world the way I had wanted to be for a long time in my sobriety. To reiterate, I'm still so grateful for the conversations we had a few weeks ago: you really helped me to achieve this real world engagement. I'm amazed myself how effective that was... As I said back then, I am aware that I am receptive and respond very well to the right kind of interactions (and "therapy") with compatible others which promote personal growth, but that was still fast, my friend. And seems to last

I just want you to know that even if I don't check in or comment everyday or for a couple days, you are in my thoughts everyday. I'm very sorry about this recent heart problem on top of everything else... I don't tend to believe in such things, but I'm inclined to subjectively feel in this case that somehow the Universe puts all these things on the plate of someone who can carry it... and yes, I'm also angry at such a "divine joke" or "distribution of challenges" or whatever. I'm with Courage:

I could not have expressed it better.

Robby, another thing I wanted to express is that I find you one of the most inspiring and influental human beings I have met, for me. I am confident enough in my opinion in spite of its being a purely online connection. And I want you to know that this is significant in my book, because I'm truly not one who is typically very generous with such feelings, or would say such things when there isn't solid meaning behind it. I'm not someone who often relies on or needs a lot of external inspiration, as a sober person... I am sure you see me well enough to know this to be true. Your posts though here on SR have influenced me strongly since I first got sober, and you helped me tremendously long before I expressed it. And it's not because you remind me of my father... that is interesting, but I know the difference well.

Just want you to know that I'm with you on this journey in mind, heart, and spirit, no matter where it leads. I am very happy that you have Melissa on your side. Hugs, thanks, and lots of reasonably pleasant spring moments to you both

Gilmer

Robby

Ajax

And on top of ALL this,
The damn squirrels are biting
the hooks off my bird feeders!

Can't we catch a break???

Ajax

Seriously though,
Thank you all for your
wonderful words of support and love.
It has made all the difference for both of us!!!!

If you've ever seen a raccoon trying to get in a garbage pail,
you know we NEVER give up!

Jeni26

Hey Ajax...we don't eat fish pie with the head sticking out or eel pie...
But we DO eat toad in the hole (delicious) and jellied eels (yuk)...

We are renowned for our sophisticated cuisine in England x

Dee74

Ajax I know I usually post directly to Rob but please know you're in my thoughts and prayers too

Rob, I wish you didn't have this complication either my friend, but it is what it is, as Vonnegut would say

More power to you both. Kick ass

D

RobbyRobot

Hey!! (((haennie))) You know, that is as well said as birdsong to my heart, Thank You. For me, you have been and continue to be an exceptionally quick and well focused participant in what we have managed to quickly bring to a finer understanding, from the depths of opaqueness of struggle, into the enlightenment of awareness and actions thereafter clearly indicated. Well, well done, good friend.

I'm so happy to hear of this as well. You nailed me! Yes, I do want eventual understanding and peer recognition, and friendship love and support, But like we all know, I'm not looking for pc handholding, or otherwise little adorable fairies dancing in my head spinning golden dreams that all is yet okay, and that reality is at best nothing but a cheap crap shoot, lol.

I'm so thrilled you also know in yourself too well attend to what is yours! How could I not be thrilled? YOU are walking YOUR talk with grace, power, and intuitive awareness.

You make me proud how I've learned a few things of importance worth sharing in my years of constantly attempting to finally graduate from the School of Hard Knocks, lol. Not sure why I'm yet again the student, but I do know I WILL NOT EVER AGAIN be irresponsible to who and what I am. Nonetheless, still better for me to stand up and grasp opportunities for new victories, rather then fall down playing dirty little games games with whatever circumstances are on my plate, or may soon be. (Now, those drinking years however, I loved such irresponsibilities with all passion, until I simply couldn't anymore, of course) I've never forgotten such harsh series of humiliating lessons. I'm well past such humiliations. Now I'm constantly and gratefully humbled. This nowness is very doable, and warmly appreciated. I'm still a lucky man, lol. I wouldn't say such if luck was not also up in my face, yeah? I see my lemons, yes, of course. And yet, I do so love a good lemonade from exactly such opportunistic experiences in reality!

Well. Here I'm simply having hot tears of deep gratefulness for feeling all-at-once-mountains of nova satisfactions, and oceans of tidal appreciations, in your amazing personal share. Thank You, My Good Friend. ((((haennie))))

bemyself

No golden fairies from me, Robby and Melissa - being a grumpy ole bat (at my best times!), and a rather cynical Aussie, all I've been able to think this morning after reading about the congestive heart failure is:

That previous doctor is a bungling incompetent whose earlier dismissals of your heart trouble borders on criminal negligence, or at the very least, reason to be called before the relevant medical licensing board to show cause as to why he shouldn't be struck off.

The Universe has little if anything to do with that, alas. Sheer medical malpractice on the part of a human being.

RobbyRobot

YEAH!! Dark satire played out within excellent sci-fi.

Breakfast of Champions! Slaughterhouse-Five! Cat's Cradle!

“Everything was beautiful and nothing hurt.”
― Kurt Vonnegut, Slaughterhouse-Five

“I want to stand as close to the edge as I can without going over. Out on the edge you see all kinds of things you can't see from the center.”
― Kurt Vonnegut, Player Piano

“And so it goes...”
― Kurt Vonnegut, Slaughterhouse-Five

Well said, and thanks mate. We shall indeed keep on with routinely kicking some serious ass, lol.

bemyself

Yes, and include that doctor's ass while you're at it!

Soberwolf

Sending love & thoughts to you both

RobbyRobot

Yes, and I can afford top-tier lawyers to get the deed done that is so (apparently) deserving. I've already spoken with the emerge team, never mentioned lawyers. I did mention I'm no longer under his care. They nodded, and even said I could easily do better. Yup. And I will. If I should as yet ever mention that I'm targeting stupidity with smart lawyers, then indeed I will quickly be in a whole other world of hurt, as we can imagine nobody would come near me, lol. I'm intimidating enough, without threats, yeah?

Seeking revenge and beating up on others for what is obvious dumbness, is not my or Melissa's style. I'm grateful to be done, and move on. I'm much too busy for anything else. I do heartily (too soon?) agree with you my dearest ((((Victoria)))) You're heartfelt (surely this is not too soon?) share gave me (although not likely my beautiful Melissa) a sweet chuckle amongst a few of us? Thanks for that. And thanks of course for being genuine with us all.

Dee74

D

RobbyRobot

I did indeed hug her today, with tears flowing, my dear good friend

bemyself

No, of course, Robby I wasn't actually encouraging you to go through the lawyerly ranks, given all that you're both coping with now. I do apologise if what I said upset Melissa more than she already is. Not intended at all. Just me and my own inner frustrations at the veritable chook-raffle / lottery that choosing doctors has become.

What is noteworthy is that someone like yourself - having literally grown up having to deal with the medicos of all stripes - does have that ability to know when you were being sold a dud, and instantly fire them and go on to appoint better ones. I don't call that intimidating - though many doctors, particularly specialists, still, in the 21st century react as if the patient's right to choose their care and treatments represents the end of civilization. But the majority of people are still intimidated by their docs, and don't realise that it doesn't have to be that way.

xx Vic

bemyself

BTW, Robby - lovely little bits of punning on the heart. Your body may be erupting? imploding? fraying? in all manner of ways, but your mind, quick wit and writing sure as hell ain't.