Originally Posted by
haennie 
(((Robby))) My dear friend.
I don't check in/post here on SR as often as I did earlier because I'm finally truly engaged in my 3D world the way I had wanted to be for a long time in my sobriety. To reiterate, I'm still so grateful for the conversations we had a few weeks ago: you really helped me to achieve this real world engagement. I'm amazed myself how effective that was... As I said back then, I am aware that I am receptive and respond very well to the right kind of interactions (and "therapy") with compatible others which promote personal growth, but that was still fast, my friend. And seems to last
Hey!! (((haennie))) You know, that is as well said as birdsong to my heart, Thank You. For me, you have been and continue to be an exceptionally quick and well focused participant in what we have managed to quickly bring to a finer understanding, from the depths of opaqueness of struggle, into the enlightenment of awareness and actions thereafter clearly indicated. Well, well done, good friend.
Originally Posted by haennie
I just want you to know that even if I don't check in or comment everyday or for a couple days, you are in my thoughts everyday. I'm very sorry about this recent heart problem on top of everything else... I don't tend to believe in such things, but I'm inclined to subjectively feel in this case that somehow the Universe puts all these things on the plate of someone who can carry it... and yes, I'm also angry at such a "divine joke" or "distribution of challenges" or whatever...
I'm so happy to hear of this as well. You nailed me! Yes, I do want eventual understanding and peer recognition, and friendship love and support, But like we all know, I'm not looking for pc handholding, or otherwise little adorable fairies dancing in my head spinning golden dreams that all is yet okay, and that reality is at best nothing but a cheap crap shoot, lol.
I'm so thrilled you also know in yourself too well attend to what is yours! How could I not be thrilled? YOU are walking YOUR talk with grace, power, and intuitive awareness.
You make me proud how I've learned a few things of importance worth sharing in my years of constantly attempting to finally graduate from the School of Hard Knocks, lol. Not sure why I'm yet again the student, but I do know I WILL NOT EVER AGAIN be irresponsible to who and what I am. Nonetheless, still better for me to stand up and grasp opportunities for new victories, rather then fall down playing dirty little games games with whatever circumstances are on my plate, or may soon be. (Now, those drinking years however, I loved such irresponsibilities with all passion, until I simply couldn't anymore, of course) I've never forgotten such harsh series of humiliating lessons. I'm well past such humiliations. Now I'm constantly and gratefully humbled. This nowness is very doable, and warmly appreciated. I'm still a lucky man, lol. I wouldn't say such if luck was not also up in my face, yeah? I see my lemons, yes, of course. And yet, I do so love a good lemonade from exactly such opportunistic experiences in reality!
Originally Posted by haennie
...Robby, another thing I wanted to express is that I find you one of the most inspiring and influental human beings I have met, for me. I am confident enough in my opinion in spite of its being a purely online connection. And I want you to know that this
is significant in my book, because I'm truly not one who is typically very generous with such feelings, or would say such things when there isn't solid meaning behind it. I'm not someone who often relies on or needs a lot of external inspiration, as a sober person... I am sure you see me well enough to know this to be true. Your posts though here on SR have influenced me strongly since I first got sober, and you helped me tremendously long before I expressed it. And it's not because you remind me of my father... that is interesting, but I know the difference well.
Just want you to know that I'm with you on this journey in mind, heart, and spirit, no matter where it leads. I am very happy that you have Melissa on your side. Hugs, thanks, and lots of reasonably pleasant spring moments to you both
Well. Here I'm simply having hot tears of deep gratefulness for feeling all-at-once-mountains of nova satisfactions, and oceans of tidal appreciations, in your amazing personal share. Thank You, My Good Friend.
((((haennie)))) 