Meltdown in the heat
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Meltdown in the heat
I hit a situation I hadn't planned for. I was going dog walking with someone I had bad blood with when my husband died. I thought I'd put that in the past.
Anyhoo, I'd suggested we meet in this local pub and walk from there without thinking it's too hot to go walking. I was driving there and realised I'd been stupid because all I was thinking about was drinking a pint of wine to cope and relax.
I just screamed like a wild animal with frustration.
I've worked hard for 44 days to not go there.
Sponsor is out and the only meeting I can get to today is CA.
I feel really vulnerable.
Anyhoo, I'd suggested we meet in this local pub and walk from there without thinking it's too hot to go walking. I was driving there and realised I'd been stupid because all I was thinking about was drinking a pint of wine to cope and relax.
I just screamed like a wild animal with frustration.
I've worked hard for 44 days to not go there.
Sponsor is out and the only meeting I can get to today is CA.
I feel really vulnerable.
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Weev you've come straight here which is exactly the right thing to do. This is my safe place.... let it be yours today. Whatever it takes please find a way to get to a safe place in your head. If you need to cancel meeting this "friend" then so be it. You can do it!!!!! Keep posting there are many people here who care about you ❤❤❤
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I'm here, sober, and just a bit jangly in my nerves. Boy, I appreciate all of you from the bottom of my heart.
Typical, that I thought about having a pint of wine. No glass for me. More like a bucket. Ugh!!!
Back from meeting complete with a 30 day keyring in a lovely white and electric blue. I am very very proud of it: it's on my keyring.
I needed reminding where I'd come from and tonight I got it. I've come a long, long way in 44 days and so have you lot. I just don't see it as the days go by. It's good to be alive and free.
Typical, that I thought about having a pint of wine. No glass for me. More like a bucket. Ugh!!!
Back from meeting complete with a 30 day keyring in a lovely white and electric blue. I am very very proud of it: it's on my keyring.
I needed reminding where I'd come from and tonight I got it. I've come a long, long way in 44 days and so have you lot. I just don't see it as the days go by. It's good to be alive and free.
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good on ya,weev! so, if/when this happens again a d your sponors isnt available, howz about using them other phone numbers ya have?
you just dont see it.....YET.
i see it- you posted before drinking,went to a meeting, and didnt drink.
you just dont see it.....YET.
i see it- you posted before drinking,went to a meeting, and didnt drink.
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Originally Posted by Weev1l 
I'm here, sober, and just a bit jangly in my nerves. Boy, I appreciate all of you from the bottom of my heart.
Typical, that I thought about having a pint of wine. No glass for me. More like a bucket. Ugh!!!
Back from meeting complete with a 30 day keyring in a lovely white and electric blue. I am very very proud of it: it's on my keyring.
I needed reminding where I'd come from and tonight I got it. I've come a long, long way in 44 days and so have you lot. I just don't see it as the days go by. It's good to be alive and free.
Typical, that I thought about having a pint of wine. No glass for me. More like a bucket. Ugh!!!
Back from meeting complete with a 30 day keyring in a lovely white and electric blue. I am very very proud of it: it's on my keyring.
I needed reminding where I'd come from and tonight I got it. I've come a long, long way in 44 days and so have you lot. I just don't see it as the days go by. It's good to be alive and free.
, Weev; so very happy for you!!!!!
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Originally Posted by Tankersfull
Great to hear you made it thru!!
By the way, you, Endoftheday and I are in a row, with you at 44,43 and 42 days sober I believe.
Let's keep the chain going. WE ARE RIGHT BEHIND YOU!!
By the way, you, Endoftheday and I are in a row, with you at 44,43 and 42 days sober I believe.
Let's keep the chain going. WE ARE RIGHT BEHIND YOU!!
It's really nice we're in a row like that. I'm glad you're doing ok and I hope Endoftheday is too.
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Originally Posted by tomsteve
good on ya,weev! so, if/when this happens again a d your sponors isnt available, howz about using them other phone numbers ya have?
you just dont see it.....YET.
i see it- you posted before drinking,went to a meeting, and didnt drink.
you just dont see it.....YET.
i see it- you posted before drinking,went to a meeting, and didnt drink.
I do have lots of numbers of people from meetings. But I just am not sure about calling when I'm in the bonkers like this afternoon. Perhaps I'll call a couple when I'm feeling a bit more normal?
Hope you and yours are ok? You've been a tower of strength to me.
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