I am so effing scared right now.
I am so effing scared right now.
I am 10 minutes (!) away from telling my AH that I am leaving him. And I am freaking out waiting for him to get home.
I am just thinking about my daughter and how this is necessary for her and for me to live normally.
Please send any good vibes, thoughts, prayers, my way if you're so inclined. I could use them.
I am just thinking about my daughter and how this is necessary for her and for me to live normally.
Please send any good vibes, thoughts, prayers, my way if you're so inclined. I could use them.
mucho mojo coming your way.
Some breathing exercises that have helped me:
Deep breaths in: (quietly chanting: " peacefulness in")
Long slow exhales out: (quietly chanting: "fears out")
Breathe.
This reminder:
Expect the best, but prepare for the worst.
Be prepared to exit quickly if he becomes aggressive.
Some breathing exercises that have helped me:
Deep breaths in: (quietly chanting: " peacefulness in")
Long slow exhales out: (quietly chanting: "fears out")
Breathe.
This reminder:
Expect the best, but prepare for the worst.
Be prepared to exit quickly if he becomes aggressive.
To thine own self be true.
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Do what I do, feel the fear and do it anyway. You are one strong woman remember? You are a MOM! Look at all you have accomplished in life! You can do this. We are standing right behind you. Take the best possible care of you that you possibly can.
I found an inner strength and calm I did not know I possessed when I told my AH I was leaving. Maybe L2L is right, mom power?!
I walked into the living room where my AH was watching TV. I calmly asked him if he would turn down the TV volume so I could speak to him a minute.
He did.
I told him that I was leaving him.
calmly.
A question from him
A calm reply from me
A smart arse remark from him
And I exited the room as the TV volume went back up.
(((Hugs)))
I walked into the living room where my AH was watching TV. I calmly asked him if he would turn down the TV volume so I could speak to him a minute.
He did.
I told him that I was leaving him.
calmly.
A question from him
A calm reply from me
A smart arse remark from him
And I exited the room as the TV volume went back up.
(((Hugs)))
Thanks everyone.
I had my phone on me in case he lost it. I told him that I loved him, but that our daughter and I would not be moving with him, because we could no longer live with his addiction. He tried to tell me that I didn't know what I was talking about, and I told him that I knew about his vodka water bottle in the hall closet, that I knew he had been drinking on Sunday, and that I couldn't put our daughter at risk (he tried to take her in the car with him to the store). That shut him up pretty quickly.
Overall though, he took it fairly calmly, which made it a little tougher. He told me that he loved me and that he knew he had to get some long-term sobriety behind him. He asked if he could still see our daughter (which I won't deprive him of, but it will be on my terms not his, and he will have to prove his sobriety, always be supervised, and there will be no driving whatsoever). He then left, and was crying in the other room.
I'm actually more worried about tomorrow now, as I bet that's when the anger sets in.
On top of that, tomorrow I get the joy of telling my parents. The fun just never ends around here.
I had my phone on me in case he lost it. I told him that I loved him, but that our daughter and I would not be moving with him, because we could no longer live with his addiction. He tried to tell me that I didn't know what I was talking about, and I told him that I knew about his vodka water bottle in the hall closet, that I knew he had been drinking on Sunday, and that I couldn't put our daughter at risk (he tried to take her in the car with him to the store). That shut him up pretty quickly.
Overall though, he took it fairly calmly, which made it a little tougher. He told me that he loved me and that he knew he had to get some long-term sobriety behind him. He asked if he could still see our daughter (which I won't deprive him of, but it will be on my terms not his, and he will have to prove his sobriety, always be supervised, and there will be no driving whatsoever). He then left, and was crying in the other room.
I'm actually more worried about tomorrow now, as I bet that's when the anger sets in.
On top of that, tomorrow I get the joy of telling my parents. The fun just never ends around here.
Good for you!! He tried to tell you a tall tale and that you didn't know what your own eyes were telling you and you shut it down. You said what you meant, but you didn't say it mean. In fact your focused on what was best for you and your daughter and NOT what he should do or what's best for him. Clearly, he knows that already, right?
Of course, things will start to sink in tomorrow. Stay strong!!
Alice
Of course, things will start to sink in tomorrow. Stay strong!!
Alice
Praying for you and gifts of strength, power and wisdom to head your way, for dealing with family and Ah, when he is over the initial shock.
Now he knows you have not been fooled by his little game of hidey, and that you mean business, especially where your child is concerned. Telling you it is your imagination, and it isn't happening has been blown out of the water, so now he needs to try something else. I do hope he doesn't turn unpleasant, but if he does, then call on family, friends or if you need them, the police for support......and stay firm in your defence of your child's future.
Now he knows you have not been fooled by his little game of hidey, and that you mean business, especially where your child is concerned. Telling you it is your imagination, and it isn't happening has been blown out of the water, so now he needs to try something else. I do hope he doesn't turn unpleasant, but if he does, then call on family, friends or if you need them, the police for support......and stay firm in your defence of your child's future.
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