Why after all this time
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Good question Patrick! I'm glad mik is here. What he writes reminds me that alcoholism is cunning, baffling, and powerful enough to get someone to not only write this stuff, but apparently believe what he's writing. Keep it coming mikimc. You're good for me.
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Originally Posted by Music
Good question Patrick! I'm glad mik is here. What he writes reminds me that alcoholism is cunning, baffling, and powerful enough to get someone to not only write this stuff, but apparently believe what he's writing. Keep it coming mikimc. You're good for me.
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Good on ya mikimc. If we're counting days I'm now on day 11 of my first attempt since getting counseling and really feeling confident about doing this. If I make this weekend (14 days) it will be the first 2 weeks sober I can remember. I feel so damn good as well, just fearful that Mr Hyde is lurking somewhere... but is nowhere to be seen at the moment.
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Originally Posted by mikimc
I never felt the urge. it was like an out of body experience, i just grabbed a drink and slugged it down. after i did it i didnt even feel bad. I was just so mad at the people around me who dont help me or give me credit. My husband gets drunk and say mean things all the time, I pushed it back, But just so many things happened at once, it was like HERE, ARE YOU HAPPY NOW YOU SOB. THIS IS WHAT YOU WANTED FOR TWO YEARS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ARE YOU HAPPY??????????????????
AND NOBODY KNOWS I HAD THIS SLIP EXCEPT FOR YOU GREAT PEOPLE THAT I HAVE BEEN TALKING TO.
AND NOBODY KNOWS I HAD THIS SLIP EXCEPT FOR YOU GREAT PEOPLE THAT I HAVE BEEN TALKING TO.
Treat yourself once in awhile - do something special for YOU! Celebrate your sobriety. Validation from others is nice, but remember that you're doing this for you before anyone else in the world, and that you are very special and deserving.
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Hey there today also starts day 4 for me, but all I have under my belt is about 9 weeks 18 month ago. I also have a husband that can really pound some beers. I sometimes think some what made me start again last time was always beihg the center of of the jokes from his friends how he has a personal desinagted driver, then he would drink more.
I am glad to see your sober again!
I am glad to see your sober again!
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Hang in there with me this weekend, weekdays are never tough for me it Friday on my way home from work I stop for my little single shot bottles and I am on my way to a drunken weekend. I am going to take a different way home this weekend!
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Keep Mr. Hyde in Hiding
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I don't live there anymore but i visit alot ended up in a small shore partying town (bad idea) but have a great family and job husbands work keeps him here.
The museum of Natural history is great so is south stree sea port!
The museum of Natural history is great so is south stree sea port!
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Originally Posted by Balls
Good on ya mikimc. If we're counting days I'm now on day 11 of my first attempt since getting counseling and really feeling confident about doing this. If I make this weekend (14 days) it will be the first 2 weeks sober I can remember. I feel so damn good as well, just fearful that Mr Hyde is lurking somewhere... but is nowhere to be seen at the moment.
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Originally Posted by Autumn
Mikimc..... thank you for sharing this. I hope that you will come back to these words you wrote from time to time and really consider what caused your slip so it doesn't happen again. It sounds like there was some frustration building up that led to this event, though I may be wrong. At the very least, a thought had to precede the action, however impulsive it may have seemed. Know what I mean? I still do impulsive, spontaneous things which are born of frustration, but I know a thought had to lead to my action. I think you really nailed it though, when you said "I was just so mad at the people around me who dont help me or don't give me credit." I understand your pain. I feel that my sobriety is very much taken for granted at home too, and I have had feelings not much different than yours at times. Thank you - I learned something from you today!
Treat yourself once in awhile - do something special for YOU! Celebrate your sobriety. Validation from others is nice, but remember that you're doing this for you before anyone else in the world, and that you are very special and deserving.
Treat yourself once in awhile - do something special for YOU! Celebrate your sobriety. Validation from others is nice, but remember that you're doing this for you before anyone else in the world, and that you are very special and deserving.
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Originally Posted by NYCGirl
Hang in there with me this weekend, weekdays are never tough for me it Friday on my way home from work I stop for my little single shot bottles and I am on my way to a drunken weekend. I am going to take a different way home this weekend!
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Keep Mr. Hyde in Hiding
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Hi everybody. I hope everybody is doing well. I made it through another day. I think i am really back on tract now. tomorrow is friday!!!!!!!! thank God. fathers day too. I bought my husband a fishing rod. I'm hoping he will get back to his good hobbies. As far as i can remember there is not a fishing hole in the bar. talk to everybody later. 
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Hey Bliss, I am leaving work little early today with a differnet mind set. No stops a the liquor just WaWa for a Red Bull the off to lay out alone for 45 or so, nails at 2:45 than time to pick up the kids, where gonna go finish working in the garden it's been areal mess lately.
It's been a real mess lately.
What are your plans?
Talk to you soon.
It's been a real mess lately.
What are your plans?
Talk to you soon.
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