SoberLeigh

Mizz, we are always here for you - no matter what.

Dropsie

We are here.

For you.

Always.

Obladi

Miss you, Ms Mizz

SoberLeigh

It has been too long, Mizzuno. Please check in.

Tynesider22

Hey Mizz. First time I've stopped by this thread so I don't really know your story, however, it is obvious that you are cared about on here.

Hope all is okay my friend and please check in to let us know how you are.

Obladi

I too am looking forward to seeing you again, Mizz

Fusion

Me too, Mizzuno, please post again, so we know you’re OK.

Dropsie

And me too.

FreeFall

I'm back checking in as I hit the 6 year mark and am looking up people that I remember and helped me. You were one of them-thank you! I hope things are well with you!

Dropsie

Come on Mizz.

Come back to say hi to Free Fall.

We miss you.

lessgravity

Mizz, I'll just echo this, for me too.

Mizzuno

I havent been here in a bit. Ive been thinking about it. Coming here. This community was my lifeline. I relapsed. I dont have any intentions of getting sober at this point in time so no need to talk to me about it.

I am doing well. Nothing is bad. In fact all is good, except for the nagging of the fact that I relapsed and have been in that relapse for 5 months. So am i doing well? LOL. This life is dynamic, isnt it?

Im sorry. I wish I could do the sober **** 100 percent. I do want my life to be that way. Truly.

I miss you all.

If i am honest, I felt over exposed. My fault for sure. I mean, Ya'll dont even know who I am....... That is not why I relapsed. I saw it coming. In fact, I am sure a lot of you did.

I do miss you all.

Dee74

I think when we relapse and it goes on a while we get to thinking
that we can live with it, or even worse that we deserve it, and worst of all that we need to live this way.

The fact is nothing ever stays the same Miz. Things didn't stay the same before and they won't stay the same now.

Things get worse.

If you read through even a smattering of your old threads here you'd see that recovery is the best way for you to live your life.

And you're not over exposed in your drinking life?

I don't believe that.

Even when I drank alone, at home, windows closed, I was over exposed.

Noone lives that way by choice. People wonder, connect the dots.

The common factor for all of us is loss of control.

If you can control things, thats the very definition of over exposed.

I hope you stop poisoning your mind and your heart and get yourself back here Miz

D

Mizzuno

I hear you. I understand this. I know my posts and my history. I know. I truly know. Im not sure how long this will go on for? I know I am not doing the right thing and I know i am an alcoholic through and through.

Mizzuno

and I know it will get worse.

Mizzuno

and the over exposed thing was not about drinking. It was about how much I was sharing and felt like I needed to not share...... but that is not who I am. I give it all.

I just dropped off planet.

Obladi

(((Mizz!!!)))

Oh my it's good to see you!
Let me go read you now...

Obladi

Ok, caught up.

Hello Mizz,

I'm glad to hear that things are going well for you. Do tell, if you will.

You're quite correct that it should be ok because this is an anonymous forum, but I get the feeling of being overexposed. For myself, I admire and aspire to your openness. It's all gotta come out somewhere and this seems like a safe place for that.

One thing I know is that it need not get worse, Mizz. You've been to worse and back already. You can look at the postcards.

Please stick around?

xo
O

Mizzuno

What has happened?
Well, After the move, I was asked back to my former place of employment after I was fired from that place we shall not name ( while I was building my own business and work) I was able to solidify my position with a hefty raise, vacation and all perks in place as if I had never left. I figured that a steady paycheck would really pay off, as the building my own business was not paying as quickly as I would like. My bills and paying them are of the highest priority. Things were looking mighty bleak! The former controller is no longer there and so far everything is smoooooth sailing!

I finally took ownership of the home that I bought and started to make it ours. We recently got new carpet. DIY the walls with apple crates and pictures. Lots of good stuffs.

Still running many miles a day. 5 days a week. I have taken the weekends off from running due to my over obsessive nature and the fact that I want to be strong on the days I run.

I am going to a tropical Island in a few weeks. First time real vacation.

And, Yes I have been drinking.

I think I will stick around! How have you been, Obladi?

Stayingsassy

Hi mizzuno, you don't know me well. some of your friends here have heard me blather on for awhile for a year so I'll chime in.

Obladi was saying in another thread "how do I get to never again" and people disagreed with me but I kept saying "when it gets bad enough or when you are ready.".

I was where you are so many times in life, drinking and keeping things together, you know Steve winwood style "drink and dance with one hand free" and there wasn't a guru in the world who could have got me to quit.

I quit when Steve winwood left the building.

If you're doing ok we can believe on the other side of our screen that you're not, but it's really your life and your decisions, which is the beauty of it all, really. I'm thrilled to be on this side of sobriety I will say....and I suppose we will see you if things take a turn for the worse.

Above all stay safe.