A fifth a day, recently became bad
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A fifth a day, recently became bad
I've always had an off and on battle with alcohol for years now... Over the last few months it's gotten very bad.. I drink pretty much from the moment I wake up, until I fall asleep. It's easily a fifth a day, and I find that if I don't have alcohol, I grow very irritable and feel very anxious.
I want to quit, I need to quit.. I need help but idk where to turn. :'(
I want to quit, I need to quit.. I need help but idk where to turn. :'(
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Welcome Crandar. You'll find a lot of support here, and I would also echo the recommendation that you may want to consider a professional/supervised detox. Withdrawals from drinking such an extreme amount of alcohol daily can be quite dangerous.
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Originally Posted by ScottFromWI 
Welcome Crandar. You'll find a lot of support here, and I would also echo the recommendation that you may want to consider a professional/supervised detox. Withdrawals from drinking such an extreme amount of alcohol daily can be quite dangerous.
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Hey Crandar,
Lots of us hid our drinking.
Have you looked into AA? It's super intimidating to go to your first meeting, but if you go, you'll likely find people who will enthusiastically offer to help you. Everyone there, has been in your shoes. There are meetings everywhere. (Google it?) Keep your common sense about you but they're (generally) sincere.
It helped me, and it's helped many before you. It's free. Yeah, it can sound religious but you don't have to do or worry about that right now, nor do you have to participate in that stuff if it's not for you.
If you just can't do it, try listening to some quit drinking podcasts or googling Rational Recovery? (SMART)
All free and anonymous.
CJ
Lots of us hid our drinking.
Have you looked into AA? It's super intimidating to go to your first meeting, but if you go, you'll likely find people who will enthusiastically offer to help you. Everyone there, has been in your shoes. There are meetings everywhere. (Google it?) Keep your common sense about you but they're (generally) sincere.
It helped me, and it's helped many before you. It's free. Yeah, it can sound religious but you don't have to do or worry about that right now, nor do you have to participate in that stuff if it's not for you.
If you just can't do it, try listening to some quit drinking podcasts or googling Rational Recovery? (SMART)
All free and anonymous.
CJ
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Hello and welcome.
I was about in the same situation as you. For ten years. To say my life was a nightmare is an understatement.
I remember the anxiety, grief and remorse over how could I do it again?
Truth was, I could not control my drinking. It's like my willpower had been taken out of my hands and I was at the mercy of alcohol.
For me it took help. I called AA. After many failed attempts, I finally went to a meeting.
I met people not very similar to me, in the broad sense, but that we all were alcoholics. I can't explain the bond I felt with these strangers. Here we were, all there because of our common problem with drink. It moved me in a way I can't describe.
I found this place and more people like me in that way.
I wasn't alone any more.
I found no matter how low we had sank or how much we drank there is a way out.
I grabbed onto what I could relate to among these folks and ran with it.
Oh, it took me awhile to get sober, and believe me, I was a bad drunk.
But I never gave up.
It's now been over six years since I felt the need to drink.
I still come here and read posts like yours because it reminds of what it's still like 'out there'.
You can do it, too. You've admitted you may have a problem and that's a great start.
It may take action on your part. This place, and many people find a program, or face to face help like meetings, helpful. I do.
My best to you my friend. Remember, you never have to drink again.
I look forward to hearing more from you.
I was about in the same situation as you. For ten years. To say my life was a nightmare is an understatement.
I remember the anxiety, grief and remorse over how could I do it again?
Truth was, I could not control my drinking. It's like my willpower had been taken out of my hands and I was at the mercy of alcohol.
For me it took help. I called AA. After many failed attempts, I finally went to a meeting.
I met people not very similar to me, in the broad sense, but that we all were alcoholics. I can't explain the bond I felt with these strangers. Here we were, all there because of our common problem with drink. It moved me in a way I can't describe.
I found this place and more people like me in that way.
I wasn't alone any more.
I found no matter how low we had sank or how much we drank there is a way out.
I grabbed onto what I could relate to among these folks and ran with it.
Oh, it took me awhile to get sober, and believe me, I was a bad drunk.
But I never gave up.
It's now been over six years since I felt the need to drink.
I still come here and read posts like yours because it reminds of what it's still like 'out there'.
You can do it, too. You've admitted you may have a problem and that's a great start.
It may take action on your part. This place, and many people find a program, or face to face help like meetings, helpful. I do.
My best to you my friend. Remember, you never have to drink again.
I look forward to hearing more from you.
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Hi Crandar 
There are a few of us here who drank like that.
I agree about the doctor - detox can be troublesome.
are there free or low cost clinics near you?
There are a lot of free or low cost clinics around - if there's one in your local area you might get some medical advice there?
http://www.needymeds.org/free_clinics.taf
http://www.211.org/
There are a few of us here who drank like that.
I agree about the doctor - detox can be troublesome.
are there free or low cost clinics near you?
There are a lot of free or low cost clinics around - if there's one in your local area you might get some medical advice there?
http://www.needymeds.org/free_clinics.taf
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HOw do u afford it ? Cutting off the money would jump start quitting, or cutting way back. Then it becomes easier to control yourself and choose not to drink when the money's there.
I'm part way there, I just wish I could hold onto todays money I plan to drink/smoke. I could try and hold out til after supper, then try for Friday.....but I know I'll be thinking about it the whole time its there.
Likewise, I'm on a diet. Someone gave me 4 chocolate/chocolatechip muffins. I should feed them to the birds on my walk.
I throw out some butter I had today, after using too much. At least I only ate maintenance calories today, and didn't eat a surplus.
I'm part way there, I just wish I could hold onto todays money I plan to drink/smoke. I could try and hold out til after supper, then try for Friday.....but I know I'll be thinking about it the whole time its there.
Likewise, I'm on a diet. Someone gave me 4 chocolate/chocolatechip muffins. I should feed them to the birds on my walk.
I throw out some butter I had today, after using too much. At least I only ate maintenance calories today, and didn't eat a surplus.
Now what?
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Originally Posted by Crandar
I made the first step and I'm sitting in the ER. My body tremors were getting really bad, and my heart is fluttering pretty badly.
You never have to go through this again.
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Nope, you're not alone. We're all with you.
I went to the county detox in a large city. I was amazed how no one judged me.
And you won't be judged here.
As Micro said, you never have to go through this again.
Be well my friend.
I went to the county detox in a large city. I was amazed how no one judged me.
And you won't be judged here.
As Micro said, you never have to go through this again.
Be well my friend.
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Hang in there Crandar.
I have been where you are. For years I knew I had to quit drinking but didn't know how - and I feared the change of doing so because alcohol was the main purpose of my existence.
Just keep moving forward; their will be many ups and downs the first several months of sobriety but it all evens out and gets better everyday.
I have been where you are. For years I knew I had to quit drinking but didn't know how - and I feared the change of doing so because alcohol was the main purpose of my existence.
Just keep moving forward; their will be many ups and downs the first several months of sobriety but it all evens out and gets better everyday.
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