Maty

Ive done it again i went out for the football got blackout drunk cant remember a thing and now im sat here racked with panic and guilt.i do it every weekend and its making my life an absoloute hell my girlfriend and son dont deserve it im ashamed of myself.i suffered a massive brain injury so i shouldnt drink anyway theyve seen me nearly die once im making there lifes a misery and i cant stop.i feel like having a drink again now because i cant cope with this anxiety its driving me mad i need it to stop

Elle126

Oh maty am so sorry you are going through such hell. There are many here who will be able to advise you on how to overcome your addiction, I just wanted to send you a virtual hug. You have come to the right place, today you have made a step forward into a better brighter life. Elle😊

Gottalife

"I shouldn't drink"
"I cant' stop"
"I need to stop"

These phrases are common among alcoholics of my type. We know these things long before we stop.

The missing phrase is "I desperately WANT to stop, and am willing to do anything to accomplish this"
If you really want to stop, then we can help you find a way.

ScottFromWI

Welcome back Maty. The anxiety really stinks, and it usually gets worse every time we drink. You can stop if you truly want to, but you may need help: Have you considered trying meetings ( AA, smart, life ring, etc ) or even derox/rehab? Some of is needed that extra accountability; at least to get started.

Maty

Ive never thought of it as a serious enough problem to get proffesional help but im not doing a very good job of getting round this myself

ScottFromWI

Well, it's serious enough that you've come to a sobriety support forum to ask for help. Maybe it's time to really get serious about doing something about it? You've come here multiple times before asking the same thing...do you see pattern with these old threads?

This was about a year ago
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...l-anxiety.html

This one about 6 months ago
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...l-anxiety.html

This one about a month ago
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...l-anxiety.html

And now again today. I see some pretty serious issues in all of these....perhaps going back and reading them will help you realize the extent of the problem?

entropy1964

What are you doing for support? I am a lone wolf. No friends or family in the area. I realized in treatment, while surrounded by people, that I need friends. I need alcoholics in recovery around me. I cannot do this alone. I have attended AA on and off for years. But I think I always had, in the back of mind, I'm not one of them. But I am. Normal society does not work for me right now. But a group of drunks? Perfect.

Maty

Ive been going round in the same circle now for about 10 years i allways say im going to nip it in the bud but lately its as bad as ever

waynetheking

Maty just remember this disease only gets worse. You have only 2 options, stop drinking or destroy your life and possibly die from alcoholism.
Get help. We're here for you as well.

ScottFromWI

How's it going today Maty?