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09-30-2013
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09-30-2013
Originally Posted by Gravel 
Regretting things said while drunk
is the most painful thing for me.
Hi All,
I have been managing my drinks but the binges are back with me again. My sweet girlfriend has been so patient for almost a year with me on this drinking but I am pretty sure we're done now.
So now I am facing trying to get sober without a women I love. It's not going to be an easy task. I'm sure I will be really lonely for a year or more until it goes away.
But what's scary also is the only person who helped me try to stop drinking has given up and I don't blame her.
Alcohol sucks and just wrecked me again. I was 2 years sober coming from a 9 year binge, then for the last year I have been drinking again.
Looking back on those 2 years I had a lot going on for me. I had a healthy body and I was able to have a loving relationship. I'm not an alcoholic who can be with a girl. The alcohol clashes with my mind and voids out the feeling of love somehow. Then when I wake up I am able to feel love again and have to face the broken glass everywhere so to speak. I'm an arrogant ***** drunk.
I'm so cause up in booze I wanted this relationship to work and keep the booze. Yea I am jealous of men who can somehow do it. But for me that option is off the table. I guess it's a matter of what I wanted more - the beer or the girl. And sadly I'm disgusted with myself for my decision I made with my actions. And I'm also sickened how I keep trying to make myself believe I can be a successful drunk.
is the most painful thing for me.
Hi All,
I have been managing my drinks but the binges are back with me again. My sweet girlfriend has been so patient for almost a year with me on this drinking but I am pretty sure we're done now.
So now I am facing trying to get sober without a women I love. It's not going to be an easy task. I'm sure I will be really lonely for a year or more until it goes away.
But what's scary also is the only person who helped me try to stop drinking has given up and I don't blame her.
Alcohol sucks and just wrecked me again. I was 2 years sober coming from a 9 year binge, then for the last year I have been drinking again.
Looking back on those 2 years I had a lot going on for me. I had a healthy body and I was able to have a loving relationship. I'm not an alcoholic who can be with a girl. The alcohol clashes with my mind and voids out the feeling of love somehow. Then when I wake up I am able to feel love again and have to face the broken glass everywhere so to speak. I'm an arrogant ***** drunk.
I'm so cause up in booze I wanted this relationship to work and keep the booze. Yea I am jealous of men who can somehow do it. But for me that option is off the table. I guess it's a matter of what I wanted more - the beer or the girl. And sadly I'm disgusted with myself for my decision I made with my actions. And I'm also sickened how I keep trying to make myself believe I can be a successful drunk.
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Originally Posted by Gravel
gets me all funny feeling.
I dont like to be sober and I have no desire to be.
Thanks
I dont like to be sober and I have no desire to be.
Thanks
Is it REALLY what worth it? x
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Ummm... OK? Good luck with that.
^^^ Sounds like a terribly funny feeling, I can't imagine ever wanting to be rid of it. (Not).
We'll be here whenever you realize what an abysmal waste of time and health this decision may turn out to be. Might want to bookmark this site... you know... just in case.
Alcohol sucks and just wrecked me again. I was 2 years sober coming from a 9 year binge, then for the last year I have been drinking again.
We'll be here whenever you realize what an abysmal waste of time and health this decision may turn out to be. Might want to bookmark this site... you know... just in case.
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This post is the classic next day traumatizing feeling you get when you start checking all your social media to see what you left there.
Keep coming back Gravel, we are good company to be around. Keep writing here, we are listening...
Keep coming back Gravel, we are good company to be around. Keep writing here, we are listening...
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Sounds to me like you are simply not ready to quit. I agree with Jeni26 - why are you part of a recovery website dealing with those who are looking to quit drinking?
I don't know if you are going to recieve any messages that encourage you to continue on your path of alcohol distruction, but when you are ready to quit - you will defenitly receive a great deal of help here.
I don't know if you are going to recieve any messages that encourage you to continue on your path of alcohol distruction, but when you are ready to quit - you will defenitly receive a great deal of help here.
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Originally Posted by Gravel
gets me all funny feeling.
I dont like to be sober and I have no desire to be.
Thanks
I dont like to be sober and I have no desire to be.
Thanks
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Originally Posted by longbeachone
.... Hey, Gravel, tomorrow when you hopefully sober up, come back. Help is here.
yeah man, we *all* know what its like to make a complete t*t out of ourselves.. thats the beauty of hanging out with ex-drunks, weve all been there.
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Originally Posted by Gravel
gets me all funny feeling.
I dont like to be sober and I have no desire to be.
Thanks
I dont like to be sober and I have no desire to be.
Thanks
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I'm ready to try this again. I've had a pretty bad hangover. No vomiting but completely run down. This is the 3rd day of the hang too. Come Friday will be the time I have to hold back from drinking because my body will have healed by then and I'm get proud about it again. I have to find something else to do.
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Hi Gravel;
Dust yourself off and climb back on the horse. You can do it--what kinds of things can you plan to do on Friday to help keep you from thinking about drinking? I suggest a list of planned activites (reading, movies, walks, house cleaning, going to eat, etc) so you aren't left with time to think about it. Exercise was one of my favorites. Long hike or gym visit, hot bath later, then crash early with some hot herbal tea. Good luck!
Dust yourself off and climb back on the horse. You can do it--what kinds of things can you plan to do on Friday to help keep you from thinking about drinking? I suggest a list of planned activites (reading, movies, walks, house cleaning, going to eat, etc) so you aren't left with time to think about it. Exercise was one of my favorites. Long hike or gym visit, hot bath later, then crash early with some hot herbal tea. Good luck!
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What's the plan gravel? I was like this, Mondays I would be so hungover I would hold off drinking until Friday where I forgot what Monday was like and I did it all over again. You have to finally look at Friday and say, "I am going to do this instead." What is that thing going to be?
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