OldSkool

Stu,
I had a similar experience. My parents were visiting, and I would never drink in front of my parents. My stepson was around 8 also at the time, and he knows how i drink when they were not around. Well, we were around the dinner table, and someone asked me what I wanted to drink, and before I could answer, my stepson says "I know what he wants, he wants a Bud Light !" They all had a laugh but I was really embarassed.

Keepnitreal

I'm sitting here reading SR, listening to relaxing music, and drinking tea. Much better then drinking that bottle of wine and waking up hungover and full of regret! One day at a time! That's the only way I can keep moving forward right now.

Soberwolf

Good stuff Keepnitreal

Solushun

1. Go find a sponsor at a face to face meeting. When AA began there was only one meeting a week where people had to travel 18 hours to get there. Today there's one around the corner everywhere bc of the program's success. Go for 90 days straight to reprogram the mind and go with this attitude. Honesty. Open minded to new ideas. (Including discarding old patterns). Willingness. (Ask self: am I done? And make a commitment to do anything uncomfortable to recover.. It's almost like taming a wild stubborn bull.) most importantly find a sponsor and few friends of the same sex that are stable in recovery and try to emulate them. The mainly healing is in the steps, the meetings are good too but u have to get to the core and have someone guide u thru life problems. We can't do this on our own. U need them and they need you. Because we are mirrors. Good luck!

Lautca

Kind of late, but maybe someone who can benefit by this will see it.

Yeah! I was there. When I finally did quit, I took it just one day at a time, and kept at it. My trick was staying sober one day at a time, sometimes minute by minute and hour by hour. Pretty soon it got easier and easier, and not too much later I didn't think about booze anymore. All those "one days at a time" add up to 19 years now, it was some time in mid-October 1997 that it all finally ended. It was tough at first, but how well I was feeling got me through those tough "one days at a time". Now, I no longer have tough days - but I will NEVER forget how I felt when I quit - it was a mixture of intense craving I "toughed" my way through with encouragement from trusted others, mixed with FINALLY feeling good after so many years. To find "trusted others" to encourage you, go to recovery meetings like Alcoholics Anonymous BEFORE you get bad cravings that lead to failure. You must have support before you get the cravings so it will already be there for you when things start to go the way you didn't intend.

Like the long-ago Robert Blake TV show "Baretta" theme song says: "Keep your eye on the sparrow when the going gets narrow".

Lautca

Willdoit

That's about same for me, some days easy to abstain .

Then I will have one and it's two.. then 10 , waste of money waste of next day eat rubbish , miss gym feel low.

I need to combat the triggers .