brian810

Thank you BS whoops not a good abbreviation BadS that's better lol eight o clock will be 72hrs doing better than I thought thank you for your support

OpioPhobe

Good job man. The infamous 72 hour mark was always key for me. I hope you are getting a little sleep.

brian810

Thanks opi yes five hrs last night actually more than I got while I was abusing thank God so far wds just minimal the little green men method was a life saver I don't crave a vic,oxy either

EyesOfAStranger

You're doing great Brian! Keep on posting, I found it helped me a ton, just to pour out whatever was on my mind. One warning, and not saying it will happen to you - I hope it doesn't - but from my experience my first week went great. Too good it seemed. I felt better than I expected, my mood was amazing, it was almost as though the ability to quit gave me a "rush" of sorts. Then I crashed a week later. Again, just my own personal experience....I hope you can keep that positive attitude alive and well! But if you do suddenly feel yourself coming down, it's normal. I'm really impressed with you - keep it up! One day at a time - that's all we've got, right? Sending good vibes your way

brian810

I've had time to think about that going to give it my all treating this like my last chance in life getting to old for this merry go around hey thanx a bunch

EyesOfAStranger

Good for you! With me, it honestly got so bad that I thought about using again so I could quit again and get that "rush". Not exactly the right word, but I think you get where I'm going. I have read a bit about the theory of the "pink cloud". Not sure if maybe that's what I was experiencing or not - but I was shocked at how quickly it disappeared.

And I have to agree....I may be a kid at heard (or head actually) but indeed too old for the old merry-go-round too!

brian810

It just seems like I've spent my whole life working to get straighten out I've got a lot to live for I'm treating this round like my last chance drugs alcohol have kept me from being happy secure just tired of the merry go round got to do this and not go back

brian810

Well day three in the books never thought I would make it take care a good night bless all of you

Mamahawk

Hey Brian, if you need to release some tension I've got two sledgehammers here...(inside joke) lol

cleaninLI

You do realize the little green men are ONLY getting you thru withdrawal so you don't feel crappy...right? But all this other stuff....the positive attitude...the self-confidence that's coming from YOU! A....clean and sober YOU!

That's the BRIAN that was inside you all along! The BRIAN you were burying with the painters.

I really like this BRIAN!!!!

Goodnight!

brian810

That was a good tuck me in cleanin night and thanx

brian810

Starting day four at what day did you guys feel like you had it whipped ?

brian810

I know recovery is an everyday thing what I mean at what day did you say to yourself I can do this I'm feeling like this right now the thought of using hasn't crossed my mind and the last three days I've had several opportunities to buy and use and I've said no I'm not going back there

cleaninLI

Good morning Brian. I don't think I've ever felt I had it "whipped" per se, but I think you mean feeling very strongly that enough is enough.....and you are ready to close with the using chapter of your life.....and begin the recovery chapter? So if that is what you meant.....then I can say I felt that way the day I confessed to my family. But each day that I remained clean and sober gave me more momentum.

I guess it's a little like when I learned to waterski. Each day I was able to get up on the skis and out of the water....gave me more confidence that I could remain up on those skis without falling.

You are doing great Brian....you have accomplished 4 days of remaining clean....you have faced the challenges of telling your dealers No! Each time you are faced with a challenge and are successful in dealing with that challenge you add one more level to your recovery and overall self-confidence!

brian810

I know what you mean cleanin want to go forward now

TiredEnough

Just keep on doing what you are doing, Brian. The longer you go, the easier it gets.

I agree with Clean. The imodium is helping but you are the one doing this. Keep that great attitude and you cant fail.

brian810

Thanks TE

OpioPhobe

Brian - hope you are doing well. I feel like I am late to the party, but what are the 'little green men'?

TiredEnough

Imodium, Opio.

OpioPhobe

Gotcha - I was scratching my head because the only little green men I remembered were the 15mg roxis.