Hi dont...I played that same crazy game for years, always trying to find a way to find time to drink, never keeping the promise to myself to stop. I was able to taper off to around a case of beer a week, ok more than a case.
This SR site and all the great folks that respond has been a blessing and I am around 16 days without drinking. My troubles and problems have not disappeared, but I am dealing with them better.
It is a lot easier to look on the sunny side, when I don't have a headache, stomack ache, etc.
Thanks for letting me shair.