Steely

I think a bit ocd on the numbers. 90 in 90 9 in 9 3 in 3 …… aaargghhh!

Try 1 in 1.

RAL

How are you today ff? I think steel's suggestion is a great one. 1 in 1. Do a meeting today. Dint focus so much on the future and get inundated with it all

freedomfries

1 in 1 is a good idea. 90 in 90 just has me missing meetings and saying I'll catch up. Today at 1pm I'll be at a meeting.

freedomfries

Had a shower for today's meeting. I still smelled of alcohol after yesterday's shower, guess it didn't have enough time to leave my system completely.

Steely

Frankly Freedom I thought it ill advice for counsellor to recommend 90 in 90 given your anxiety. Too much, in my view.

Just don’t drink freedom it’ll bring you undone every time. Come here instead.

Glad you’re back.

freedomfries

Well I should probably get one today anyway.

Bekindalways

Yep go for that 1 in 1.

My depression makes looking ahead hard. I usually just try to get through days sober and with a bit of exercise and that is good enough.

freedomfries

Actually now you mention exercise, my knee hasn't been bothering me the last few days, so I think I might go for a run in the morning.

Bekindalways

Sounds good FF. Did you make the meeting? I'm in the US and get confused about the time differences.

freedomfries

No I fell asleep. I didn't sleep Wednesday night so I guess I was still catching up. Tomorrow is a new day with a new meeting.

Bekindalways

Keep after it FF.

freedomfries

I hope this guy can work with me. I'm going to stress that legal drugs are a big issue for me and are potentially causing problems even if these specific drugs don't cause problems with most people. I mean, water causes problems for me so certainly drugs of any kind can. I told the lady counselor about pseudo and poppers and I felt she didn't care much. Also she encouraged.me to break tradition 12 when I mentioned a member triggering my paranoia. But I feel like nobody cares about trad 12?
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freedomfries

I really wish I was going to college this year. I'm just too excited. I keep looking up the maths modules in the university I want to attend.

In first year I'll be doing 30 credits of Pure Maths, hopefully 15 credits of continuing French if they don't make me do 39 credits of beginner French, then 15 credits of a third subject. Assuming I get into this university. My Leaving Cert grades are more than good enough but that was 2008.

Sitting the A2 DELF french exam in June and then hopefully B1 next year. I have an A2 prep book and the questions are pretty easy. Practicing those and going through DuoLingo again. My maths self studying is going really well. I'm covering a lot of the stuff l be doing in first year.

Steely

Had to go look up Tradition 12 in old and battered copy of Twelve Steps.

“Anonymity is the spiritual foundation of all our traditions, ever reminding us to place principles before personalities.”

I don’t like the cult of the personality, so good Tradition, I believe.

Why did she recommend breaking it Freedom?

I haven’t been to AA in years. Maybe I’m missing something. Maybe I’m misunderstanding you, her. Maybe I’m clueless?

freedomfries

She didn't mention tradition twelve. But she goes to my towns meetings and she asked who was making me paranoid.

Steely

Oh, I see.

Mum’s the word. 🤐