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Old 10-02-2023, 10:48 PM
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I guess I just want to be a little self destructive. Alcohol is such a bad way to do it. This seems better. And it's kind of pleasant, the feelings you get.
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Old 10-02-2023, 10:54 PM
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I get thrggered too easily. A night nurse wouldn't let me have 125ml which set me off chugging in the bath room.
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Old 10-02-2023, 10:57 PM
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I'm sure most of us know how you feel - 'that I need a vice/ I need to feel good/ I need to control something' voice kept me doing stupid things for decades.

I was the oldest teenager ever.

In the end tho, it wasn't who I wanted to be - and I'm sure its not who you want to be either.

There's a lot to be said for leaving that reactive BS behind, and instead doing the next right thing, taking care of yourself and making plans for the future rather than just for the next 5 minutes.

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Old 10-02-2023, 11:50 PM
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FF- I didn't realise you were actually thirsty when drinking water -just read your comments in Oct thread. Have you ever been tested for diabetes? My father was type 1 and had excessive thirst to the point he had to drink from the toilet bowl. This was back in the 1940s when he was away at school and drinks were only available at break times. I mean I know your issue is psychological but if you are thirsty which starts it there could be an underlying medical issue too
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Old 10-03-2023, 04:05 AM
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I think I've been checked for everything. It's just psychogenic polydipsia.
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They're keeping me in. Probably for the best, because I would have drank a lot of coke/eater. Maybe I'll be in a better heads pace in a few days when I next see him.
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Old 10-03-2023, 04:06 AM
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I think they're taking bloods again today and I drank a lot this morning. But hopefully my Thursday bloods are OK.
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Old 10-03-2023, 04:11 AM
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I'm glad they are keeping you in ff. Maybe therapy or a counsellor or something is needed as you seem unable or unwilling to stop the water drinking by yourself. Nothing will change by thursdsy or next week if nothing changes
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Old 10-03-2023, 06:54 AM
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Yeah. We don't have therapy in here but maybe I should hash things with the samaritans. Be weird to ring them when I'm not drunk by a river.
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Old 10-03-2023, 07:40 AM
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I think is a good idea that you are remaining in the hospital Freedom. For the time being, that is.

You've been able to get the water under control in the past Freedom. There's no reason why you can't do it again.

When you have been able to get it under control in the past, is it a constant and deliberate effort on your part, or does the compulsion drop away naturally?

Does medication have any impact?

Wishing you the the best Freedom, you are doing the right thing in remaining. 🤓







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Old 10-04-2023, 04:23 AM
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The polydipsia was really bad when I was on antabuse and putting sober time together. I guess I got in under control because I switched back to alcohol. Now I'm 29 days sober and I guess I need someway to self destruct? It's depraved. I guess I just need to try and do the next right thing. Lots of salt at dinner, have dessert, nothing to drink.
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Old 10-04-2023, 04:24 AM
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My psychiatrist is on the ward. I hope he doesn't want to talk to me today.
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Old 10-04-2023, 05:15 AM
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Dinner was lovely. Dessert was a trifle which was delicious. But then I chugged 2L in the bathroom. :/ I can't seem to stop. I think it'll be easier to reel it in when I'm out.
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Old 10-04-2023, 05:27 AM
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Old 10-04-2023, 05:29 AM
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I wish I had better news for him.

I think he's gone over to the women's ward. Hopefully I'll have something positive to report Friday.
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Old 10-04-2023, 05:33 AM
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Hi FF

My self-abuse started with trauma symptoms compelled me to take all the medicine in the medicine cabinet at home when I was 13 years old. I was getting back at my mom whom hurt me bad. Hurting myself to avenge my anger for being abused became easier to do as time went on. 2 more suicide attempts with pills all the while wildy deep in my addiction. Hospitalize for 2 of the 3 offing myself tries.

Look to the root of the problem FF and connect it to your current behavior. Some insights might be gained.

Hang in there good man.
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Old 10-04-2023, 05:34 AM
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I don't get it either FF. Why wait for tomorrow. They are there to help you not to hide from. If you aren't honest with them now they can't help you properly
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Old 10-04-2023, 06:24 AM
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Did the doctor come in to see you today? If so what did you
guys talk about? What questions did he ask you and what
answers did you give him?

I guess we are trying to understand what is going on.

You said you hope to have good news come Friday.

That is 3 days away.

What good news can you give him if you are still drinking
all this water?

If he knows you are still drinking large quantities of water
and it's putting you in danger, why hasn't he taken action
to keep you from accessing water?

I know we need water to survive, but if a patient is hurting
themselves right there in front of the doctors and they know
it, shouldn't they do something to stop it?

For instance and example, there are those who use cutting
themselves as a release from something bothering them. If
this person is in treatment for cutting addiction then the
doctors would absolutely make sure they don't have any
thing available for them to get ahold of to cut themselves
with.

No glass, no utensils, no metal, sharp objects etc.

There are other ways people hurt themselves, but water is
a new one for me , but do understand how deadly it can be
if abused or used the wrong way.

You say there is group sessions. What are these sessions
about? Have you talked to other patients there? Is there anyone
else going thru the same thing as you?

How do you fill in the hours of your day?

Are patients allowed to have phones?

Do you have tv?

Magazines to read?

Games to play?

Exercise?

Or do folks sit around all day till they are released?
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Old 10-04-2023, 06:32 AM
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Everyone here is very worried about you; that is because we care.

Please take the worry, concern and care for you to heart, freedomfries.

Let the medical staff help you; begin by being honest with them.
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Old 10-04-2023, 08:26 AM
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Another worried person here, FF. Hope that you are able to do good things for yourself.
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Old 10-04-2023, 08:57 AM
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I'd like to be honest Ave them weigh me throughout the day because I can't pee out water as fast as I drink it, but I think they'd put me on Special which would severely restrict my freedom. We'll see how my sodium levels are. I didn't drink nearly as much today as yesterday and I had a lot of salt to try and compensate. I feel like they kind of want me to drink myself to death because they're kind of letting me do it for now. ::/.

Ill try not to drink any more except for meds time. My stomach feels terrible from binge eating and drinking.
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