Possibly discharged from the hospital Thesday
 

That's what my key worker said yesterday. He didn't know I had drank gallons of water already that day when I'm supposed to be on 2L. Today I've drank like 10L so less than I did yesterday. I dunno if I'll drink more. I don't want to kill myself, today anyway. But it's just the thrill of doing something I shouldn't or I like the dizziness or something or if I just like consuming fluid? I should probably tell someone what I'm doing but I don't want a nurse on me 24/7 and not being able to smoke and vape whenever I want. I dunno. I don't think I'm ready for discharge but I don't know how long I'll be in here if I'm honest. Not overly concerned about drinking alcohol right now. I think I wouldn't immediately do it if I got out. I dunno. I'm a bit confused.

I am sending love, dear FF. :hug: s

It sounds like the stress of court and being near an off-license is causing you a lot of stress—maybe that is why you are binging the water?
I think that it is a good idea to talk to the staff and tell them how you are feeling, even if you can't speak to your case worker until tomorrow.

Huge hugs. ❤️

There's still a nurse assigned to me today, but I bare faced lied to her a few minutes ago about how much I drank today. :/

Maybe you could try again, tell her you are feeling a lot of stress. :hug: s xx

FF drinking water in that amount is extremely dangerous. Please tell your nurses.

I know. I'll just try and stop for today and see if my bloods rat me out Monday. :/ I really don't want to tell them. Or maybe I could have a seizure or they'll notice the weight gain or something. It's just kind of built into me to always lie in psych wards to get out earlier. Hard to break that habit. :/

I know the next right thing is probably to tell on myself.

Hey FF - I just want to say I admire you. I know you are trying so hard to get better. I'd tell the Nurse. Right now it's water, if you get out it's going to be whatever you can get your hands on. Maybe you just need a little extra time?

🧡 Yes. :hug: s

Please tell them ff. 20l yesterday and 10l today. You really could have a seizure and or die. We care about you. I think you care about you too deep down.

Yes, you SHOULD "tell on yourself", Freedom. Today.

My daughter had same. Polydipsia is seen in schizophrenia.

She still drinks a lot of water compared to most, but not at dangerous levels.

You are consuming dangerous amounts. You know this Freedom. "Telling on yourself" would be a really SR thing to do. :)

A Freedom thing to do.

Thanks everyone. I've stopped at least and ate two sandwiches. Took an ativan. I just want to sleep now and tomorrow I'll restrict fluids.

Sleep well, and have a think about talking all of this out with your caseworker, dear FF. :) :hug: 🧡

Hope you sleep well ff

FreedomFries, you're a good human, my man. You take care of yourself please.

This thread makes me cry. :(

It's hard to see someone we all care about struggle, but I am proud of FF for how hard he is trying. Always. Never give up. ❤️

People on this thread are good humans.
You guys taking care of FreedomFries is whats good about the world.

Don't ever change, guys. People in recovery are the ****. The bringers of happiness just because.

TWTOM, we care a lot about each other because most of us have been through so much. We are a family here.

FF, you know what the next right thing is and I believe you'll do it. Talk to your nurse tonight or tomorrow and be truthful. If you're concerned they might discharge you before you're ready, tell them. I'm so proud of you and how hard you're trying.

I agree with doing the next right thing FF...don't keep self destructive secrets.
You matter, and that means taking care of yourself - even when that voice inside tells you to do the opposite.

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