ScottFromWI

Another thing to keep in mind Jillian is that much of what you will learn and do in rehab is no different than what can and are doing right now - using meetings, support groups and networks, and dedicating your time to staying sober. Certainly in rehab someone else is providing the structure, and there is no alcohol on premise so it's different than being at home, but it's entirely possible for you to simulate much of it right now while you are waiting. And it's also important to remember that there isn't some magic pill or technique that they bestow upon you while you are there that somehow "cures" you - you do most of the heavy lifting.

You also own and run a business - and it sounds like you manage a lot of the operations side of things. Think for a minute if you approached your sobriety just like an important business plan - you seem to have a very strong dedication to do whatever it takes to keep the business running. Imagine if you placed just as much importance on your sobriety.

ThatWasTheOldMe

Continuous happy sobriety is worth millions.
However, worrying about money on top of trying to get sober is often not conducive to the ultimate goal.

While I don't want to steer you away from resources that will help you find sobriety, there are resources available that will not simultaneously cause you financial stress. One of those is AA. Another is SR. Another is knowing you're not alone. Another is understanding that addiction is not a moral failure - it's not you, it's alcohol.

Also, I know this doesn't work for everyone - but something that helped me was understanding that my only sane path forward was to never pick up a drink again. Because the problem doesn't start until I've ingested some amount of alcohol. Everything before that is the solution.

Polaroid

If I was Jeff Bezos, Bill Gates or whomever billionaire you'd choose, I'd truly like to help you out.

Now, some mistake this for 'hitting' on you, which would be entirely false.

I believe in Karma, that's all.

Anyways, I hope you find a solution, actually... I think you will soon enough.

Steely

I'm glad you went to a meeting and intend to go back Jillian. Great move. A beginning.

I can't add much to what others have said except given enough time you stop "feeling better." If not from the immediate physical effects of the drug but from the ongoing despair that will follow you eternally.

Feel better all of the time Jillian.

Jillian2563

Thats a great way to look at it! Thank you. I always love hearing from you 🙂

Jillian2563

This is one major factor as to why I’m not drinking anymore. I’m so tired of not feeling good. And last night fell and now have scrapes on my nose and head. How lovely.

aasharon90

Over the years I have heard about many who have
been in and out of rehab where some have achieved
continuous sobriety and others are still struggling.

Rehab is a stepping stone to helping achieve continuous
recovery and sobriety. For me, being in a controlled invironment,
allowed time for the toxins to leave the body and the fog to
clear the mind in order to receive some valuable and important
knowledge and information about addiction and how it affected
my own mind, body and soul.

28 days with no alcohol in reach when going thru those
early withdrawals and emotions are all over the place.

You learn some good healthy techniques to use to solve
everyday situations where we would normally reach for
alcohol or drugs to either cope with them, numb them,
deal with them or whatever.

When you leave rehab we are not immediately cured.
We take what we learned from there and expand on them.
I was one that didnt like to bother or disturb folks. So,
I went to many many meetings and sat close to those
I saw in them and heard what they shared and liked it.

I followed in their footsteps and whatever they did, like
going to step studies, i went too. To big book studies,
I went too. Speaker meeting, Did it. Conventions there
too.

The more i suited up and showed up folks saw me. My
sponsor introduced me to her posey as she called them.
My sponsor led me by example and by her actions which
spoke volumes to me.

Because i was married and a mom, I had to learn about
balance in family life and recovery life. Family was available
if needed so that I could make my meetings if i needed one,
but tried to make noon meetings with sometimes bringing my
children with me.

Yep, they came with me bringing their coloring books
to keep them occupied for an hour while i get some
important info to stay focus on what's important and
strengthen my resolve to remain sober no matter what.

Keep learning and never stop learning.

GottaBeKidding

Rehab costs a small fortune in Georgia, much like Florida, and I suspect, everywhere in the US. AA is free and I've heard that many people go to multiple meetings per day, so that they are immersed in a "sober culture?". Would that work? If, like some of us, you are prone to panic attacks and/or social anxiety and being in a group like that is out of the question, could some kind of one on one counseling/motivational interviewing be an option?

Jillian2563

Yep I’m in GA lol. I went to a meeting today and will be returning tomorrow!

Patcha

Well done Jillian! There are also AA meetings zoom meetings that run 24/7. You can jump on the meeting at any time. Some people are on the meeting all day while they go about their business because they need the comfort and support.