Two months sober
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Two months sober
Well, it's been an amazing two months. I've been going to the gym 6 days a week, I am getting back in shape, I feel so much happier, and life is better in every single way.
I do occassionally miss getting drunk, or at least the idea of it. The reality is of course very different. I realise that what I miss, and usually think of when drinking, is the first two drinks or so. I could get triggered by a nice situation I'm in, and I'll say to myself, wouldn't a glass of red wine be nice right now? You could sit here and watch the world go by. Haha, what an illusion that is!! I won't deny those first few drinks would be fun, but of course...after that it is all downhill, as I have experienced all too often. Anxiety, depression, addiction back full whack, cravings, withdrawals, weight gain, junk food, shameful and regretful actions, driving under the influence, it's all there waiting for me AFTER those first few drinks, but it's the first drink that sets it all off. So, how on earth with that knowledge could someone knowingly say those first couple of drinks are worth it? They aren't. When I get these drinking thoughts, I just laugh to myself and say, I can't do that unfortunately, I no longer drink. I then cast my mind forward to the next morning, and think to myself, how amazing I will feel at the gym, and getting a coffee after, then having my protein shake...and not waking up hungover and downing a bottle of wine to make myself feel better.
I've had some big tests these first two months, some work events with lots of booze involved, I think I handled it well and there was nothing but maybe a fleeting thought of oh wouldn't it be nice, but again I quickly shut it down. I feel strong in my sobriety but I will stay vigilant.
Thanks everyone!
I do occassionally miss getting drunk, or at least the idea of it. The reality is of course very different. I realise that what I miss, and usually think of when drinking, is the first two drinks or so. I could get triggered by a nice situation I'm in, and I'll say to myself, wouldn't a glass of red wine be nice right now? You could sit here and watch the world go by. Haha, what an illusion that is!! I won't deny those first few drinks would be fun, but of course...after that it is all downhill, as I have experienced all too often. Anxiety, depression, addiction back full whack, cravings, withdrawals, weight gain, junk food, shameful and regretful actions, driving under the influence, it's all there waiting for me AFTER those first few drinks, but it's the first drink that sets it all off. So, how on earth with that knowledge could someone knowingly say those first couple of drinks are worth it? They aren't. When I get these drinking thoughts, I just laugh to myself and say, I can't do that unfortunately, I no longer drink. I then cast my mind forward to the next morning, and think to myself, how amazing I will feel at the gym, and getting a coffee after, then having my protein shake...and not waking up hungover and downing a bottle of wine to make myself feel better.
I've had some big tests these first two months, some work events with lots of booze involved, I think I handled it well and there was nothing but maybe a fleeting thought of oh wouldn't it be nice, but again I quickly shut it down. I feel strong in my sobriety but I will stay vigilant.
Thanks everyone!
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This will sound really odd (from someone 30 months sober) but I envy that buzz you’re getting right now. It gets even better, but you get accustomed to living the good life (sober) and getting/being back in shape.
Sounds like you’re doing brilliantly. Be careful not to overdo the training. It sounds like you’re pretty fit, though, so why not join a sports club? I tried a few before stumbling (literally) on triathlons (the short sprint variety). To go from an obese drunk in 2018 to this means I constantly have to pinch myself. Made some great new friends too, which didn’t happen much as a drinker.
Great post, Prima. Thanks 🙂
Sounds like you’re doing brilliantly. Be careful not to overdo the training. It sounds like you’re pretty fit, though, so why not join a sports club? I tried a few before stumbling (literally) on triathlons (the short sprint variety). To go from an obese drunk in 2018 to this means I constantly have to pinch myself. Made some great new friends too, which didn’t happen much as a drinker.
Great post, Prima. Thanks 🙂
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Originally Posted by Hodd 
This will sound really odd (from someone 30 months sober) but I envy that buzz you’re getting right now. It gets even better, but you get accustomed to living the good life (sober) and getting/being back in shape.
Sounds like you’re doing brilliantly. Be careful not to overdo the training. It sounds like you’re pretty fit, though, so why not join a sports club? I tried a few before stumbling (literally) on triathlons (the short sprint variety). To go from an obese drunk in 2018 to this means I constantly have to pinch myself. Made some great new friends too, which didn’t happen much as a drinker.
Great post, Prima. Thanks 🙂
Sounds like you’re doing brilliantly. Be careful not to overdo the training. It sounds like you’re pretty fit, though, so why not join a sports club? I tried a few before stumbling (literally) on triathlons (the short sprint variety). To go from an obese drunk in 2018 to this means I constantly have to pinch myself. Made some great new friends too, which didn’t happen much as a drinker.
Great post, Prima. Thanks 🙂
Yeah I need to incorporate more cardio into my gym routine, I'm very much a weights guy. It's working though, slowly getting into shape again.There is such a better way to live, not looking at the bottom of a bottle trapped in addiction. There is real freedom available, you just have to want a better life more than you want to be drunk.
Grea to hear you have 30 months, that is incredible!
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That's awesome, well done! 
And thank you for the post - that is pretty much me in a nut shell and it was really helpful to have that reflected back at me! I am planning on following in your footsteps x
And thank you for the post - that is pretty much me in a nut shell and it was really helpful to have that reflected back at me! I am planning on following in your footsteps x
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Originally Posted by Primativo
Yeah I need to incorporate more cardio into my gym routine, I'm very much a weights guy. It's working though, slowly getting into shape again.There is such a better way to live, not looking at the bottom of a bottle trapped in addiction. There is real freedom available, you just have to want a better life more than you want to be drunk.
Grea to hear you have 30 months, that is incredible!
Grea to hear you have 30 months, that is incredible!
It sounds like you’re doing great already. I paid to see a heart consultant once (for preventative reasons) and his advice was priceless. For heart health, only cardio will do. Weights, yoga snd even walking are OK for general health, but to clear the arteries nice and clear, the heart rate has to go right up. I’ve actually lost a lot of cardio fitness in lockdowns, but it was awesome to get there and to run 5 or even 10k which would’ve been an impossibility as a drinker.
Keep at it. Sounds brilliant.
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Originally Posted by Hodd
Thanks. It was treadmill running - which I no longer do, I take it outside - which really drove home how pointless drinking was. I found running painful at first, corrective insoles cured that, and I hated every minute. To then see I’d burned the equivalent of one beer in a 30-minute treadmill session is ridiculous.
It sounds like you’re doing great already. I paid to see a heart consultant once (for preventative reasons) and his advice was priceless. For heart health, only cardio will do. Weights, yoga snd even walking are OK for general health, but to clear the arteries nice and clear, the heart rate has to go right up. I’ve actually lost a lot of cardio fitness in lockdowns, but it was awesome to get there and to run 5 or even 10k which would’ve been an impossibility as a drinker.
Keep at it. Sounds brilliant.
It sounds like you’re doing great already. I paid to see a heart consultant once (for preventative reasons) and his advice was priceless. For heart health, only cardio will do. Weights, yoga snd even walking are OK for general health, but to clear the arteries nice and clear, the heart rate has to go right up. I’ve actually lost a lot of cardio fitness in lockdowns, but it was awesome to get there and to run 5 or even 10k which would’ve been an impossibility as a drinker.
Keep at it. Sounds brilliant.
I am a bit of a wimp with cardio. I have always had anxiety related to health and more specifically my heart and sometimes get palpitations and stuff like that. Wasn't helped by the fact that one day during a squash game around 8 years ago I had really bad palpitations. Went to see a heart specialist who did scans and tests, absolutely nothing wrong but it still freaked me out and made my anxiety even worse. I kind of avoid anything that gets my heart racing...I know it's counter productive but really not sure how to overcome it.
I do steep walks on the treadmill sometimes and that's about my limit. I really need to overcome it somehow....
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