Glancing in the Rear View Mirror - Weekenders 07-10 May 2021
Magsie
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Glancing in the Rear View Mirror - Weekenders 07-10 May 2021
My past drinking days caused me to sometimes have recurring bad memories pop up out of the blue every now and then.
Cringingly awful memories or part memories of my behavior when drunk.
Memories of me being not my true self but a ‘Hyde’ version sometimes.
Alcohol caused me to act this way. It took away my conscience, my honesty and integrity, covered my very soul with a horrible version of me.
So when the rear view mirror shows my warts and ‘all, I now glance and move forward.
It has happened, I cannot change what happened, it is the past.
Being sober is my best defence and attack. Knowing that on my forward journey I will never be drunk again.
And understanding the rear view is just for glancing not for living helped me move on.
My Past got me to my Present. So, I don't wring Hands over the Past. It had to happen that way... (MesaMan’s words)
Moving on with sure baby steps, developing into steady footsteps ensuring a sober future.
If this is your first weekend sober, or many, come join us for support and chat...as we know the weekends can be a struggle sometimes. (We’re here all week too!)
Cringingly awful memories or part memories of my behavior when drunk.
Memories of me being not my true self but a ‘Hyde’ version sometimes.
Alcohol caused me to act this way. It took away my conscience, my honesty and integrity, covered my very soul with a horrible version of me.
So when the rear view mirror shows my warts and ‘all, I now glance and move forward.
It has happened, I cannot change what happened, it is the past.
Being sober is my best defence and attack. Knowing that on my forward journey I will never be drunk again.
And understanding the rear view is just for glancing not for living helped me move on.
My Past got me to my Present. So, I don't wring Hands over the Past. It had to happen that way... (MesaMan’s words)
Moving on with sure baby steps, developing into steady footsteps ensuring a sober future.
If this is your first weekend sober, or many, come join us for support and chat...as we know the weekends can be a struggle sometimes. (We’re here all week too!)
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Hi Mags! Thanks so much for this! This is what I really struggle with! The Hyde that I was and boy was I a Hyde! A totally different person drunk to sober. It’s so awful to think about! It just makes me so upset.
This is my third weekend sober coming up. I’m full of restless legs, aches and anxieties but I’m pushing through as I do not want to go back to that Hyde that I was!
Heres to a wonderful joyful sober weekend for us all xx
This is my third weekend sober coming up. I’m full of restless legs, aches and anxieties but I’m pushing through as I do not want to go back to that Hyde that I was!
Heres to a wonderful joyful sober weekend for us all xx
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Originally Posted by Mags1 
Hi Joe, it’s good to move away from our drinking days. There is life after drinking....once upon a time I didn’t think it would be possible.
Totally agree we can definitely move on from it just takes time and perseverance xx
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I've been off work the week now, will be back on Monday (10th) and I'll be 2 years sober that day too. I've had a few personal obstacles put in front of me the last few weeks,
but I didn't have to drink over them thankfully.
but I didn't have to drink over them thankfully.
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The feet in the sand picture is soothing.
I get the idea that the past made me what I am. Many bad memories resulted from drinking, some did not. Guilt reinforced the pattern of drinking, which led to additional things to feel guilty about. I could do without it.
In the end, we need to look forwards not backwards.
I get the idea that the past made me what I am. Many bad memories resulted from drinking, some did not. Guilt reinforced the pattern of drinking, which led to additional things to feel guilty about. I could do without it.
In the end, we need to look forwards not backwards.
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