Why can't I think the same after drinking almost 2 fifths (1.15 L) of Caliber Vodka in a 24 hours
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Originally Posted by HigherDrunk 
Only way I can see myself drinking again is if it's been a year from now and I'm still having cognitive issues and forming my sentences. If that's the case after a year of sobriety then l'd know for sure I ****** something up and probably fall into a deep depression I'd probably never be able to recover from...
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90 DAY UPDATE
Hi all, it's been a while since I (or really anyone for that matter....) has posted in this thread. Since then, I've maintained sobriety and am continuing to better myself. As for my brain... it's been a battle to say the least. Some cognitive abilities have been restored, but not all unfortunately. Not to where to where it was before the blackout anyways... I'm going to have some tests done, MRI, EGG, Bloodwork and another nuerovaluation done in the next couple months to see if it a tumor or nerve disease or something on that level. I have a feeling it isn't but who knows at this point... I'm happy with my cognitive improvements so far, but not at all satisfied. I feel like 90 days without drinking and 100 days without blacking out should have been plenty of time for my brain to return back to normal. It's scary that it hasn't yet.....
Hi all, it's been a while since I (or really anyone for that matter....) has posted in this thread. Since then, I've maintained sobriety and am continuing to better myself. As for my brain... it's been a battle to say the least. Some cognitive abilities have been restored, but not all unfortunately. Not to where to where it was before the blackout anyways... I'm going to have some tests done, MRI, EGG, Bloodwork and another nuerovaluation done in the next couple months to see if it a tumor or nerve disease or something on that level. I have a feeling it isn't but who knows at this point... I'm happy with my cognitive improvements so far, but not at all satisfied. I feel like 90 days without drinking and 100 days without blacking out should have been plenty of time for my brain to return back to normal. It's scary that it hasn't yet.....
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Like I said above, it takes what it takes HD
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/newcomers-recovery/452068-why-cant-i-think-same-after-drinking-almost-2-fifths-1-15-l-caliber-vodka-24-hours-3.html#post7584534 (Why can't I think the same after drinking almost 2 fifths (1.15 L) of Caliber Vodka in a 24 hours)
I drank for years- 90 days was nowhere near long enough for me to feel like I'd rectified the damage.
You've drank at least for 3 years, right? 90 days is obviously not enough time for you either.
its a great sign you see improvement tho., Try and be patient
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https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/newcomers-recovery/452068-why-cant-i-think-same-after-drinking-almost-2-fifths-1-15-l-caliber-vodka-24-hours-3.html#post7584534 (Why can't I think the same after drinking almost 2 fifths (1.15 L) of Caliber Vodka in a 24 hours)
I drank for years- 90 days was nowhere near long enough for me to feel like I'd rectified the damage.
You've drank at least for 3 years, right? 90 days is obviously not enough time for you either.
its a great sign you see improvement tho., Try and be patient
D
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Originally Posted by Dee74
Like I said above, it takes what it takes HD
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/newcomers-recovery/452068-why-cant-i-think-same-after-drinking-almost-2-fifths-1-15-l-caliber-vodka-24-hours-3.html#post7584534 (Why can't I think the same after drinking almost 2 fifths (1.15 L) of Caliber Vodka in a 24 hours)
I drank for years- 90 days was nowhere near long enough for me to feel like I'd rectified the damage.
You've drank at least for 3 years, right? 90 days is obviously not enough time for you either.
its a great sign you see improvement tho., Try and be patient
D
https://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/newcomers-recovery/452068-why-cant-i-think-same-after-drinking-almost-2-fifths-1-15-l-caliber-vodka-24-hours-3.html#post7584534 (Why can't I think the same after drinking almost 2 fifths (1.15 L) of Caliber Vodka in a 24 hours)
I drank for years- 90 days was nowhere near long enough for me to feel like I'd rectified the damage.
You've drank at least for 3 years, right? 90 days is obviously not enough time for you either.
its a great sign you see improvement tho., Try and be patient
D
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I really hesitate to tell this part of my story. I have withheld it because I don’t want to encourage anyone to try this. But last year when I was putting together some good sobriety...around 4-5 months I kept feeling “not right”. I was lethargic, had headaches, anxiety. I just was not improving after doing a number to myself over the years. Towards the end of that stint up to 20 shots in about 8 hours was pretty common. Anyway, I ended up relapsing. And I went really off the deep end. I can’t really say how much I drank over a 5 day period all I can say is that it was A LOT. Well, I finally got ahold of myself (with the help of AA and the forum) and started putting together more sober days. And while I still feel “off”, I am improved. No matter what anyone ever says to me, medical or not, I will always believe that that binge “reset” me. I have no explanation for it. I DO NOT RECOMMEND IT. Because I don’t think anyone could ever know if another drunk would push you towards normal or make things much worse - a betting person would have to say the odds favor a decline.
My point in all of this is that I believe we fiddle with our brain and body chemistries when we binge. Each time we push hard on all of our systems the body and brain are literally fighting for their lives. I think that the body/brain try hard to first survive and then to recover. I also think the body/brain decide when to stop “recovering” and when to start existing. I feel like if I started at a 7, when I would binge I would go to a 2 or 3 and then the body/brain would fight like hell to recover. Sometimes I would return to a 6 or 7. Sometimes only to a 5...and I mean over months only back to a 5. My second to last drunk finally put me back to a 7 and I don’t really want to test it again. Today I exist at a 7. I will also mention that I have cirrhosis from all of my drinking, also my ability to
formulate and express thoughts is seriously diminished. I have absolutely no doubt it is a result of the drugs and alcohol and all of the neuropathways that they damaged and modified. Our brains are truly miracles, so they find a way to make due, but I have little doubt that you farted something
up in there. I would recommend some serious sobriety. Vigorous exercise and a lot of liquids and vitamins. We have to build back what we damaged. I really wish you the best. I can truly relate to your situation.
My point in all of this is that I believe we fiddle with our brain and body chemistries when we binge. Each time we push hard on all of our systems the body and brain are literally fighting for their lives. I think that the body/brain try hard to first survive and then to recover. I also think the body/brain decide when to stop “recovering” and when to start existing. I feel like if I started at a 7, when I would binge I would go to a 2 or 3 and then the body/brain would fight like hell to recover. Sometimes I would return to a 6 or 7. Sometimes only to a 5...and I mean over months only back to a 5. My second to last drunk finally put me back to a 7 and I don’t really want to test it again. Today I exist at a 7. I will also mention that I have cirrhosis from all of my drinking, also my ability to
formulate and express thoughts is seriously diminished. I have absolutely no doubt it is a result of the drugs and alcohol and all of the neuropathways that they damaged and modified. Our brains are truly miracles, so they find a way to make due, but I have little doubt that you farted something
up in there. I would recommend some serious sobriety. Vigorous exercise and a lot of liquids and vitamins. We have to build back what we damaged. I really wish you the best. I can truly relate to your situation.
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Originally Posted by BeABetterMan
I really hesitate to tell this part of my story. I have withheld it because I don’t want to encourage anyone to try this. But last year when I was putting together some good sobriety...around 4-5 months I kept feeling “not right”. I was lethargic, had headaches, anxiety. I just was not improving after doing a number to myself over the years. Towards the end of that stint up to 20 shots in about 8 hours was pretty common. Anyway, I ended up relapsing. And I went really off the deep end. I can’t really say how much I drank over a 5 day period all I can say is that it was A LOT. Well, I finally got ahold of myself (with the help of AA and the forum) and started putting together more sober days. And while I still feel “off”, I am improved. No matter what anyone ever says to me, medical or not, I will always believe that that binge “reset” me. I have no explanation for it. I DO NOT RECOMMEND IT. Because I don’t think anyone could ever know if another drunk would push you towards normal or make things much worse - a betting person would have to say the odds favor a decline.
My point in all of this is that I believe we fiddle with our brain and body chemistries when we binge. Each time we push hard on all of our systems the body and brain are literally fighting for their lives. I think that the body/brain try hard to first survive and then to recover. I also think the body/brain decide when to stop “recovering” and when to start existing. I feel like if I started at a 7, when I would binge I would go to a 2 or 3 and then the body/brain would fight like hell to recover. Sometimes I would return to a 6 or 7. Sometimes only to a 5...and I mean over months only back to a 5. My second to last drunk finally put me back to a 7 and I don’t really want to test it again. Today I exist at a 7. I will also mention that I have cirrhosis from all of my drinking, also my ability to
formulate and express thoughts is seriously diminished. I have absolutely no doubt it is a result of the drugs and alcohol and all of the neuropathways that they damaged and modified. Our brains are truly miracles, so they find a way to make due, but I have little doubt that you farted something
up in there. I would recommend some serious sobriety. Vigorous exercise and a lot of liquids and vitamins. We have to build back what we damaged. I really wish you the best. I can truly relate to your situation.
My point in all of this is that I believe we fiddle with our brain and body chemistries when we binge. Each time we push hard on all of our systems the body and brain are literally fighting for their lives. I think that the body/brain try hard to first survive and then to recover. I also think the body/brain decide when to stop “recovering” and when to start existing. I feel like if I started at a 7, when I would binge I would go to a 2 or 3 and then the body/brain would fight like hell to recover. Sometimes I would return to a 6 or 7. Sometimes only to a 5...and I mean over months only back to a 5. My second to last drunk finally put me back to a 7 and I don’t really want to test it again. Today I exist at a 7. I will also mention that I have cirrhosis from all of my drinking, also my ability to
formulate and express thoughts is seriously diminished. I have absolutely no doubt it is a result of the drugs and alcohol and all of the neuropathways that they damaged and modified. Our brains are truly miracles, so they find a way to make due, but I have little doubt that you farted something
up in there. I would recommend some serious sobriety. Vigorous exercise and a lot of liquids and vitamins. We have to build back what we damaged. I really wish you the best. I can truly relate to your situation.
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Originally Posted by HigherDrunk
It's funny how in your story you said that you were able to regain some of your cognitive abilities by binge drinking. I actually thought of doing the same thing. Like... maybe if I drank a lot in a short period of time I might be able to "reverse" the effect in some weird way. It's something I won't try unless I'm 2 years into sobriety and still have yet to notice any significant changed. I mean... at that point what's there to lose, right?
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Originally Posted by HigherDrunk
I remember reading a reply of yours in another thread that your brain fog lifted after 3 months.?
The two responses don't contradict each other - you've seen some improvement in 3 months - that improvement, I expect, will continue
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. Thats scary if you still believe that. The AV dies hard I guess.
Maybe you drank yourself to the point of accepting you had to choose option B - recovery - or die?
Recovery was a lot better/easier for me once I stopped try to find ways to keep drinking in my life.
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No matter what anyone ever says to me, medical or not, I will always believe that that binge “reset” me.
Maybe you drank yourself to the point of accepting you had to choose option B - recovery - or die?
Recovery was a lot better/easier for me once I stopped try to find ways to keep drinking in my life.
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Yeah, sorry guys (Higher Drunk and BeABetterMan). Binge drinking, even a one-off session, is not part of the solution to the problems caused by repeated sessions of binge drinking. I think that's your disease telling you lies. The solution is abstinence.
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Permanent brain damage from a single (albeit extremely heavy) bender.
I don't think that's very likely.
However, I know a lot of alcoholics including myself and what you describe is more or less how we all drink. Alcohol is a terrible drug to abuse. Even more terrible when you have little control over how much you consume once you start.
It will kill you if you continue like that.
If you don't end up in jail first.
I don't think that's very likely.
However, I know a lot of alcoholics including myself and what you describe is more or less how we all drink. Alcohol is a terrible drug to abuse. Even more terrible when you have little control over how much you consume once you start.
It will kill you if you continue like that.
If you don't end up in jail first.
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My brain made many changes in sobriety. Every month things were different. Today, I am almost 10 years sober and in pretty good shape. I also just turned 60.
Sobriety is action. It's aso a series of processes and changes. Keep moving forward, stay stopped and see what happens next!
Sobriety is action. It's aso a series of processes and changes. Keep moving forward, stay stopped and see what happens next!
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Originally Posted by Dee74
How’s it going HD?
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I'd like to know how you're doing too, HD.
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