diggitydog

I poured out the bottle this morning.

dafunbra

I'm so glad you did, dog. I've been where you were. It's not a pleasant place to be. Lots of good advice in this thread.

Kid50

Thats great. Hope your day gets better,

thomas11

Good job man.

CupofJoe

Well done on throwing it out! Glad you posted here first.

WhoDeyPI

Honestly, either pour it out, or drink it. You're going to do 1 or the other.

Just read your last reply...you poured it out. Good work!

SoberCAH

Congrats on your 15 months and on getting through your personal pain.

The right answer is never in the bottle.

I would hate to be having a bad day staring at a bottle.

I would go to a meeting, read our literature, call my sponsor, etc.

August252015

Great job! What are you doing the rest of today, tonight and tomorrow to stay sober?

Delilah1

You have a godd amount of sober time, what have you done for recovery during that time? Is there something you've recently stopped doing, or something you think would be helpful to add to your plan?

I would definitely get rid of that bottle, there is nothing good that can come of having it in the house.

D122y

dig,

I don't want you to feel bad if you had a relapse.

That is the nature of this brain damage we all have.

The regret gets to people. When I was your age it was impossible for me to quit.

My hangovers were nothing. I felt bad, but it was almost like a badge of honor for me.

I didn't have any of the education the internet offers us today.

So, I had no education and no real guilt.

Being aware is half the battle won. Then it is about suffering.

But, the suffering has gotten easier and easier.

Today, I have been up and down emotionally. Nearly in tear because of this and that.

Through it all I know that drinking will ruin it all. If I don't drink, I know I am doing my best.

Thanks.

Dee74

Really glad you poured it out DD

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diggitydog

Well I went to a couple meetings, and shared with people in the group what the situation was exactly. I was honest about what was going on with me.

I presented a bunch of people what was going on with me, and listened to their advice/stories.

All the advice was great, but the one thing I needed to hear was to hit my knees and pray. Somebody said that to me, just get on your knees and pray with everything you got. I did, and it relieved the obsession.

Today I went to another meeting and fellowshipped (went on hike). at 4 or 430 my mind started to get loud and thinking about a drink again. I called people and was honest and one of my new aa friends said what i needed to hear which is that i needed to take care of myself and make sure i had enough to eat, sleep, and rest. He shared that he often feels the way that I do, and taking care of myself properly is a very important thing.

The main thing I have been doing is employing honesty in my conversations with others, and accepting that I am still a person in recovery who needs to be open to hearing solutions to my problems.


Thank you all for your kind words of support!!

diggitydog

This is how I feel

soupcon

I am so impressed by everything you have done! You came on here to say you have a bottle, listened to advice here and then went to a meeting and shared and listened and prayed and stayed sober. Wonderful!!