I will never drink again - SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information
Go Back   SoberRecovery : Alcoholism Drug Addiction Help and Information >
Register Blogs FAQ Members List Calendar Arcade Mark Forums Read





Reply
LinkBack Thread Tools
Old 02-13-2019, 03:55 PM   #1 (permalink)
Member
 

Join Date: Sep 2014
Location: UK
Posts: 45

I will never drink again


I lied. I hadn't drunk in the last 44 days until today. The thing is ...I read Allan Carr's easyway, and I was convinced I had given up forever, no question, I was disgusted with the posion I used to drink. And it's happened 1 or 2 times before, I had no desire at all to drink, I told all my mates I would never drink, I saw other drinkers as deluded.

And then in the space of 2 hours, I suddenly snapped, all the last 3 months of telling my mates I was never drinking again faded away. I may drink again and forget this brief 3 month period of sobriety, until I overdo it again and then I will never drink again.
andy1 is offline   Reply With Quote
The Following 8 Users Say Thank You to andy1 For This Useful Post:
AAPJ (02-14-2019), Anna (02-13-2019), MLD51 (02-14-2019), Natom (02-14-2019), suki44883 (02-13-2019), Tetrax (02-14-2019), Tonymblue (02-13-2019), vick54 (02-14-2019)
Old 02-13-2019, 04:05 PM   #2 (permalink)
Just livin' the dream
 
suki44883's Avatar
 

Join Date: Apr 2008
Location: Somewhere Out There
Posts: 24,820
What kind of support do you have, other than posting here? Are you using AA, seeing a therapist, etc., or are you just white knuckling it?
__________________
"So often times it happens that we live our lives in chains and we never even know we have the key."
- The Eagles

"We call them dumb animals, and so they are, for they cannot tell us how they feel, but they do not suffer less because they have no words."
- Anna Sewell
suki44883 is offline   Reply With Quote
The Following 4 Users Say Thank You to suki44883 For This Useful Post:
Dee74 (02-13-2019), least (02-13-2019), MLD51 (02-14-2019), vick54 (02-14-2019)
Old 02-13-2019, 04:06 PM   #3 (permalink)
Administrator
 
Anna's Avatar
 

Join Date: Aug 2003
Location: Dancing in the Light
Posts: 51,063
Andy, I'm sorry that you decided to drink today. What did your recovery program look like? What were you doing daily in order to stay sober? Maybe there is something you could add to your plan to help you stay sober forever.
__________________
And I dont know what the future is holding in store
I dont know where Im going, Im not sure where I've been
There's a spirit that guides me, a light that shines for me
My life is worth the living, I dont need to see the end.


John Denver
Anna is online now   Reply With Quote
The Following 4 Users Say Thank You to Anna For This Useful Post:
Dee74 (02-13-2019), least (02-13-2019), MLD51 (02-14-2019), vick54 (02-14-2019)
Old 02-13-2019, 04:06 PM   #4 (permalink)
Moderator
 
Dee74's Avatar
 

Join Date: Apr 2007
Location: Australia
Posts: 173,033
Blog Entries: 1
Hi Andy - I'm sorry you drank.

I dunno about you but it wasn't enough to just say it for me. That alone never kept me sober.

I had to work hard to keep that statement true.

Those moments when I suddenly decided to drink I had to fight tooth and nail against the inevitability of that.

I had to remember I was fighting for my life.

If you haven't got an emergency protocol - numbers to call, posts to make, techniques to use - when the autopilot comes upon you, you need one.

Nothing is a fait accompli - unless we let it be.
__________________
Dee74 is offline   Reply With Quote
The Following 7 Users Say Thank You to Dee74 For This Useful Post:
August252015 (02-13-2019), bexxed (02-13-2019), least (02-13-2019), MantaLady (02-14-2019), MLD51 (02-14-2019), tekink (02-14-2019), vick54 (02-14-2019)
Old 02-13-2019, 05:16 PM   #5 (permalink)
Canine Welfare Advocate
 
doggonecarl's Avatar
 

Join Date: Sep 2010
Location: Norfolk, VA
Posts: 9,958
Blog Entries: 22
Less pronouncements, more commitment.
doggonecarl is offline   Reply With Quote
The Following 9 Users Say Thank You to doggonecarl For This Useful Post:
Dee74 (02-13-2019), Evoo (02-14-2019), least (02-13-2019), MantaLady (02-14-2019), MLD51 (02-14-2019), tekink (02-14-2019), tomsteve (02-15-2019), vick54 (02-14-2019), WhoDeyPI (02-14-2019)
Old 02-14-2019, 05:56 AM   #6 (permalink)
Member
 
Evoo's Avatar
 

Join Date: Feb 2019
Location: The Midwest
Posts: 259
Thanks for posting andy1.

You can still choose to be proud of those three months. That’s three months of healing your body, three months of choosing not to drink.

Use that to remind yourself that you can do it. But a lot like me, you’re gonna need more tools to get you through — a plan for what I call — those “f**k it” moments, where in an instant you convince yourself “it will be fine.” I’m learning more and more that’s the addiction talking... egging you on.

We’ve got a good chain here for February 2018 class — I hope you’ll join in and pick up your journey to sobriety right where you left off!
Evoo is offline   Reply With Quote
The Following 2 Users Say Thank You to Evoo For This Useful Post:
MLD51 (02-14-2019), vick54 (02-14-2019)
Old 02-14-2019, 06:08 AM   #7 (permalink)
Member
 

Join Date: Oct 2017
Location: Texas
Posts: 754
That’s why I take it one day at a time and work a strong program of recovery. Thanks for sharing this.
Sunflower79 is offline   Reply With Quote
The Following 4 Users Say Thank You to Sunflower79 For This Useful Post:
AAPJ (02-14-2019), MLD51 (02-14-2019), tomsteve (02-15-2019), vick54 (02-14-2019)
Reply


Currently Active Users Viewing this Thread: 1 (0 members and 1 guests)
 
Thread Tools


Posting Rules
You may not post new threads
You may not post replies
You may not post attachments
You may not edit your posts

BB code is On
Smilies are On
[IMG] code is On
HTML code is Off
Trackbacks are On
Pingbacks are On
Refbacks are Off




All times are GMT -7. The time now is 09:52 AM.