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Old 01-29-2019, 12:24 PM
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Whatever it is. Let it go.
Acceptance is key.
Do the time.
The more sober time you do the better things get, it just snowballs after time.
It just happens that way, subtle changes.
Darlin if i could let go, don't you think I would of done by now.
Shaun Mendes- in my blood
Is the answer to that bro 😨
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Old 01-29-2019, 12:30 PM
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Zombie - cranberries , I'm a Fooking zombie right now 😱
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Old 01-29-2019, 12:33 PM
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Stone roses-fool's gold������ think I'm loseing it ��������
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Old 01-29-2019, 12:37 PM
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Right over an out man 🙏
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Old 01-29-2019, 01:03 PM
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Man, I'm just holding on now, Ffs sake, help me please. I can't do this. Pushing all feeling down , man I feel raw, I feel fragmented, I feel lost ,I feel helpless. Man!!!!!!!!!
I'm a mess.......... I'm so ashamed... please let this end.
I wanna be better, I wanna live, I wanna be happy.
I want to live .
It's all getting too much man. I'm messed up 😱😱😱😨😨😨. This ain't living, this is existing. For what ?????
I wanna disappear now, I'm done man, I fight an I fight daily, for the best part of 30yrs. We are all messed up man
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Old 01-29-2019, 02:14 PM
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Keep fighting till the fight is won.
Then you will have peace.
It’s all consuming at the moment but you are getting through it.
Give it time. Give yourself to your new life and watch it grow in to something worth keeping.
You lived the messed up life now you’re closing the book and start to a new worthwhile one full of opportunity.

You can have it all OR you can drink
Can’t have both.

It’s hard to think when you’re brain doesn’t want to do what it’s supposed to.
Goes against the grain to ignore our emotions/feelings.
But if you want to succeed keep it simple for now and don’t drink.
Cravings last around 9mins
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Old 01-29-2019, 02:18 PM
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Too me it's a huge sacrifice man 😱
I thought dying was a greater sacrifice. I was just chiming in because it took me some time. And I was resentful. I LOVE my tunes. But it just triggers me and I'm off to the races. So I had to leave that behind.
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Old 01-29-2019, 02:24 PM
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Originally Posted by Snowydelrico View Post
Keep fighting till the fight is won.
Then you will have peace.
It’s all consuming at the moment but you are getting through it.
Give it time. Give yourself to your new life and watch it grow in to something worth keeping.
You lived the messed up life now you’re closing the book and start to a new worthwhile one full of opportunity.

You can have it all OR you can drink
Can’t have both.

It’s hard to think when you’re brain doesn’t want to do what it’s supposed to.
Goes against the grain to ignore our emotions/feelings.
But if you want to succeed keep it simple for now and don’t drink.
Cravings last around 9mins
You've made me cry 😢😢
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Old 01-29-2019, 02:28 PM
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Sorry Doris, it wasn’t my intention.

A dyslexic man walks into a bra

Crap joke I know
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Old 01-29-2019, 02:34 PM
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Sorry Doris, it wasn’t my intention.

A dyslexic man walks into a bra

Crap joke I know
Oh man to laugh 😀💪
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Old 01-29-2019, 02:36 PM
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Going to get some sleep now.
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Old 01-29-2019, 04:07 PM
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Hey Doris - breathe...it's gonna be ok.

When things got too much for me I'd breathe and remember that all I had to do today was not drink booze. Not easy maybe but simple.

If I didn't buy it and I had none in the house and I was home for the evening...I had won for that day and I knew I'd be a little stronger the next day.

If music is stirring up memories and feelings right now it's ok to put ti to once side - just for a little while. Things will not always be this hard or even this way,

If like me you need music...use your imagination. Try new artists new genres.

I didn't have a trigger problem with music but a lot of it was too much for my brain at that point.

I actually got into classical music when I quit - it soothed me and it didn't trigger me.

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Old 01-29-2019, 04:51 PM
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Portishead.. ...give me a reason
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Old 01-29-2019, 04:55 PM
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Old 01-29-2019, 05:05 PM
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Here is a track if anyone is interested that sums up what I'm trying to tell you all, again music is my life..........
Put it in you tube an listen full blast an that's me.

The verve.......
Velvet morning

Xx
Wow. This is like my SONG at the moment. I recently got back into the Verve. I learned to play it on guitar a couple of weeks ago too, but can't quite do it justice. It is a PERFECT song. I mean 'Urban Hymns' is basically a perfect album but this is just the cream of the crop. And to see it mentioned on these forums too, just wow. I especially like blasting out the 'Live from the Haigh Hall Concert Hall' version on the deluxe album/Spotify...

And yeah, I too worry about letting go of music getting sober, but I sincerely believe that music will find a new, better way into our lives, if we just let it...
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Wow. This is like my SONG at the moment. I recently got back into the Verve. I learned to play it on guitar a couple of weeks ago too, but can't quite do it justice. It is a PERFECT song. I mean 'Urban Hymns' is basically a perfect album but this is just the cream of the crop. And to see it mentioned on these forums too, just wow. I especially like blasting out the 'Live from the Haigh Hall Concert Hall' version on the deluxe album/Spotify...

And yeah, I too worry about letting go of music getting sober, but I sincerely believe that music will find a new, better way into our lives, if we just let it...
Check out..... hooverphonic-mad about you.
Man!!!!!!! Music in my soul xx
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Old 01-29-2019, 05:19 PM
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When my mum died, spare the details, I drove to a beach an this track came on ������ carries with me man x SONNET, THE VERVE ������������ here we go, again , my head is gone f##k
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Old 01-29-2019, 05:30 PM
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To open Pandora box is coning, an it scares me to death. But I have to go there. ......Man!!!!!!!!Ffs can I do this ???? I've hid under the covers for so long. 😢 God give Mr strength. 😭😭 I have to man,
Water boys.........whole of the moon
Deep breath Doris.......let's do this 😭😭😭😭😭
Too far, too soon 😭😫😫😫😥😫
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Old 01-29-2019, 05:40 PM
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For too l ong I've kept stuff in.......now it's coming out.
At 47yrs old..... Man I'm done with it all, it's time to get rid, an stop torturing myself,with self doubt,with hatred, with it all....
I wasn't to blame and it's done, time to heal, man."
Get your head in order man.
Give it a wobble
Stand up and fight again girl
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