Weird trigger
Weird trigger
I am working half-days for the summer, so my mother is watching my daughter. I had a meeting so I was like an hour late to pick up my kid.
I go to her house and hang out a little bit while my daughter gets her stuff and my mother starts accusing me of being drunk. I swear to god, I have not had one single drink. I tell her I did not drink, and she tells me she knows me so well that she can tell I drank and that I am going to ruin my kid. I overheard her bitching to my dad as I walked out.
I. *******. swear. I. did. not. drink. But....now I want to. Like, **** you *****, I'll show you what drinking looks like...I am 100% sure when my husband gets home I am going to get a bottle just to spite her.
I go to her house and hang out a little bit while my daughter gets her stuff and my mother starts accusing me of being drunk. I swear to god, I have not had one single drink. I tell her I did not drink, and she tells me she knows me so well that she can tell I drank and that I am going to ruin my kid. I overheard her bitching to my dad as I walked out.
I. *******. swear. I. did. not. drink. But....now I want to. Like, **** you *****, I'll show you what drinking looks like...I am 100% sure when my husband gets home I am going to get a bottle just to spite her.
Last edited by Dee74; 06-12-2018 at 06:10 PM.
As I am starting to calm down, now I just feel guilty.
your best option in situations like this is to not engage. dont even answer the question next time.
if you havent been drinking, then why let it bother you? who cares what ANYONE thinks.
any chance this used to be your reaction when you were drinking? have a little confrontation and run to the bottle?
edit: i see ya calmed down- good!
you could talk to your mother and apologize for your behavior maybe?
I'm just so mad. I know I shouldnt run to alcohol when I am mad. But...I feel like I especially want it now that I was accused out of nowhere. I suppose because I was somewhat late.
drinking at her will only hurt you. it aint gonna do a dam thing to your mom.
your best option in situations like this is to not engage. dont even answer the question next time.
if you havent been drinking, then why let it bother you? who cares what ANYONE thinks.
any chance this used to be your reaction when you were drinking? have a little confrontation and run to the bottle?
edit: i see ya calmed down- good!
you could talk to your mother and apologize for your behavior maybe?
your best option in situations like this is to not engage. dont even answer the question next time.
if you havent been drinking, then why let it bother you? who cares what ANYONE thinks.
any chance this used to be your reaction when you were drinking? have a little confrontation and run to the bottle?
edit: i see ya calmed down- good!
you could talk to your mother and apologize for your behavior maybe?
I also feel like, well now I ruined my sobriety, might as well go all out since I have to start back at day 1 anyway.
I know its not a good way to think. But, I suppose its what my AV is telling me in all my frustration.
I know its not a good way to think. But, I suppose its what my AV is telling me in all my frustration.
Okay, disregard my previous post. I ended up calling her back and we talked and we both apologized. She apologized for accusing me and I apologized for getting so angry about it.
I started a whole thing with my husband though, who already isnt too fond of her....so now I have downplay the whole thing to him.
Stupid family drama is too much for alcoholics....
I started a whole thing with my husband though, who already isnt too fond of her....so now I have downplay the whole thing to him.
Stupid family drama is too much for alcoholics....
please don't drink. you are doing so good. you will be so upset with yourself if you do and it will do nothing to get back at your mom. I understand the trigger. My husband is a big trigger for me and so many times I have just wanted to run to the store and get a bottle of wine to help numb the anxiety but the feeling passes and I'm glad I didn't drink.
I know I have some in the house, but I havent had that yet. I texted my husband explaining what happened and I am almost waiting for his permission to let me get it.
I'm just so mad. I know I shouldn't run to alcohol when I am mad. But...I feel like I especially want it now that I was accused out of nowhere. I suppose because I was somewhat late.
I'm just so mad. I know I shouldn't run to alcohol when I am mad. But...I feel like I especially want it now that I was accused out of nowhere. I suppose because I was somewhat late.
Lady,
I have said the exact same thing...since I have to reset my clock...may as well do it up good. This guilt bearing rule is arguably a flaw in managing addiction.
This thought process, on top of other mental issues, may be why folks end up killing themselves when they slip. Food for thought.
I believe that such a small amount of booze equates to taking an aspirin or some cold medicine. There is no way that a little amount like that can do anything but...….cause a full blown relapse.
I won't let the "clock reset" rule or whatever cause me to do more damage to my mind, body, and life.
Stay clean.
Being a drunk is such a sad state.
Thanks.
I have said the exact same thing...since I have to reset my clock...may as well do it up good. This guilt bearing rule is arguably a flaw in managing addiction.
This thought process, on top of other mental issues, may be why folks end up killing themselves when they slip. Food for thought.
I believe that such a small amount of booze equates to taking an aspirin or some cold medicine. There is no way that a little amount like that can do anything but...….cause a full blown relapse.
I won't let the "clock reset" rule or whatever cause me to do more damage to my mind, body, and life.
Stay clean.
Being a drunk is such a sad state.
Thanks.
You are right. This is all new to me. I just feel so ****** right now. My first reaction was to get defensive because I feel like she doesnt understand how hard I am trying. But...she doesnt. Because she has never been an alcoholic. It's not her fault that she doesnt trust me.
Lady,
I have said the exact same thing...since I have to reset my clock...may as well do it up good. This guilt bearing rule is arguably a flaw in managing addiction.
I believe that such a small amount of booze equates to taking an aspirin or some cold medicine. There is no way that a little amount like that can do anything but...….cause a full blown relapse.
I won't let the "clock reset" rule or whatever cause me to do more damage to my mind, body, and life.
Stay clean.
Being a drunk is such a sad state.
Thanks.
I have said the exact same thing...since I have to reset my clock...may as well do it up good. This guilt bearing rule is arguably a flaw in managing addiction.
I believe that such a small amount of booze equates to taking an aspirin or some cold medicine. There is no way that a little amount like that can do anything but...….cause a full blown relapse.
I won't let the "clock reset" rule or whatever cause me to do more damage to my mind, body, and life.
Stay clean.
Being a drunk is such a sad state.
Thanks.
i had no reason for anyone to believe or trust me,too.
over time with the right actions to change me, that changed.
my niece goes so far as to trust me with her 4 year old son.
i dont trust him,though- hes constantly getting me in trouble!
i cant help it if he likes to play in mud- even if its a hole of mud made in the middle of the yard!
over time with the right actions to change me, that changed.
my niece goes so far as to trust me with her 4 year old son.
i dont trust him,though- hes constantly getting me in trouble!
i cant help it if he likes to play in mud- even if its a hole of mud made in the middle of the yard!
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Just put it down to a learning experience and move on. One little drink doesn't erase all the sober days you have had.
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