Delilah1

How are you doing tonight James?

JamesfrmEngland

My birthday drink turned into a week long drink but now it's over. I'm not saying it was an unmitigated disaster, it wasn't. But I liked it less then I thought I would but it's amazing how quickly the addiction was reignited going from two bottles of 7.5% wine first day then 2 bottles of 14% wine next day, then vodka, rum, baileys, amaretto, champagne. Stuff I don't usually drink. However I realised I like being sober better than I like drinking (more energy, being able to sleep better, being more mentally sound etc) and my body had started to go again I started eating anything like ice creams, gaining weight, not attending gym. Anxiety increased to a. If degree. It's just not worth it it's a literal poison. I'm sweating alcohol out of me now so I hopefully won't drink again. I shouldn't have in the first place it was a huge mistake but not a disaster. I'm back connecting with my values e.g. Health, responsibility, discipline. And I am not one who doesn't think of consequences I do, I'm rational quite often. If I continue drinking my health will decline again, I'll do bad behaviour and if I am going back to finishing my medical degree I won't finish it like happened last time. So I have out an end to it.

JamesfrmEngland

And thanks for all your concern, I appreciate it. I read them when I was drinking but didn't reply in case I said something inappropriate or my anger came out.

nova84

Glad you're back James 💜

thomas11

Good to hear from you James.

JamesfrmEngland

Thanks, I made some spelling mistakes bu it won't let rectify them. The main problem I guess I have come across is boredom which partly led to my relapse, I live alone in a hostel, have no relationship or kids, no job at the minute so I get really bored and I cannot think of anything interesting (or cheap) to do. I slept away my sobriety as much as I could but I'd love to be out there but I need a +1 mate but cannot find one.

ScottFromWI

Reach out to your local recovery community James. You will find a lot of helpful and friendly people there as well as lots of things "to do". Boredom is a state of mind that can be changed, addiction is not.

S13

Hi JAMES hope your ok, your story is very similar to mine, thought id got drinking under control, thought one bottle tuesday is ok, then 2 saturday, then so scared of the come down 3 last night!!! I hate myself right now had to ring in sick to work, no i Need to stop but today i feel like i can't im scared my head is a total mess, i know ive lost it!!! im like you not got any friends so so lonely

August252015

Good morning- how are you today James? What's your plan for just this day?

You can do this.

Zebra1275

My birthday drink turned into a week long drink

Yep, that's what happens to us.

The fact that it "only" lasted a week is a good thing. What are you going to do to prevent another relapse?