I relapsed and I'm so ashamed.
Trudgin
Join Date: Jul 2014
Posts: 6,348
Choosing to drink was never a good option for me but I certainly did it many times after I had sworn off liquor for good. Of course, like many I thought this time will be different. I've learned my lesson(s).
I went from liquor to only wine, only beer, only Saturday, only weekends, only holidays.......it always ended up the same. Only days that end in y........
At some point I lost the ability to drink normally and once the switch is flipped - well, we know what's next.
Today I understand under no circumstances can I take that first drink - it's not he caboose that kills me, it's the engine. I simply can't get on the tracks.
Win or lose, good day or bad, holiday or not I had to remove the option.
Today is day 997 - nothing special with me. Just hit my head hard enough and long enough to be sick and tired of being sick and tired.
I went from liquor to only wine, only beer, only Saturday, only weekends, only holidays.......it always ended up the same. Only days that end in y........
At some point I lost the ability to drink normally and once the switch is flipped - well, we know what's next.
Today I understand under no circumstances can I take that first drink - it's not he caboose that kills me, it's the engine. I simply can't get on the tracks.
Win or lose, good day or bad, holiday or not I had to remove the option.
Today is day 997 - nothing special with me. Just hit my head hard enough and long enough to be sick and tired of being sick and tired.
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Join Date: Feb 2017
Posts: 143
Originally Posted by Fly N Buy 
Choosing to drink was never a good option for me but I certainly did it many times after I had sworn off liquor for good. Of course, like many I thought this time will be different. I've learned my lesson(s).
I went from liquor to only wine, only beer, only Saturday, only weekends, only holidays.......it always ended up the same. Only days that end in y........
At some point I lost the ability to drink normally and once the switch is flipped - well, we know what's next.
Today I understand under no circumstances can I take that first drink - it's not he caboose that kills me, it's the engine. I simply can't get on the tracks.
Win or lose, good day or bad, holiday or not I had to remove the option.
Today is day 997 - nothing special with me. Just hit my head hard enough and long enough to be sick and tired of being sick and tired.
I went from liquor to only wine, only beer, only Saturday, only weekends, only holidays.......it always ended up the same. Only days that end in y........
At some point I lost the ability to drink normally and once the switch is flipped - well, we know what's next.
Today I understand under no circumstances can I take that first drink - it's not he caboose that kills me, it's the engine. I simply can't get on the tracks.
Win or lose, good day or bad, holiday or not I had to remove the option.
Today is day 997 - nothing special with me. Just hit my head hard enough and long enough to be sick and tired of being sick and tired.
Day 997!!! My goodness, I can't even fathom getting as far as you. Absolutely incredible. I guess I shouldn't think about the bigger picture - just take it one day at a time.
Your story gives me inspiration. Thank you so much.
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