Second Round Giving Alcohol Up...
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Hi Airplayne and welcome to SR! Good job on 7 days! I always found the first 8 days the hardest. Then hitting the 14 days... then 30 days... those are great milestones to hit too.
Do you have any kind of plan or program you are working or intend to follow?
in the past 2.5- 3 years I have quit multiple times. I thought getting sober just meant not drinking. It took a long time for it to click in my head I had to change not just the way I was living but also how I was thinking before I could get it to stick.
I went through multiple detoxes in the past 2 years. Some of them were medically assisted, some were home tapers. Some of them were cold turkey- straight through the gates of hell escorted by the grim reaper himself and surrounded by glowing rotting zombies and dead children. Gongs, Music coming out of walls and vents that only I could hear. Jerking body muscles so hard that I was actually paralyzed at times.
I suffered through that to sober up, more than once! Only to be round the clock drinking within a month's time again and again.
It only gets worse unless we get really and truly prepared for a rest of our lives plan.
Few of us can do it alone, and few of us can go it without a plan of some sort. Glad you are here, stick around and keep on keeping on. There are lots of good tips and a link for recovery plans too.
Do you have any kind of plan or program you are working or intend to follow?
in the past 2.5- 3 years I have quit multiple times. I thought getting sober just meant not drinking. It took a long time for it to click in my head I had to change not just the way I was living but also how I was thinking before I could get it to stick.
I went through multiple detoxes in the past 2 years. Some of them were medically assisted, some were home tapers. Some of them were cold turkey- straight through the gates of hell escorted by the grim reaper himself and surrounded by glowing rotting zombies and dead children. Gongs, Music coming out of walls and vents that only I could hear. Jerking body muscles so hard that I was actually paralyzed at times.
I suffered through that to sober up, more than once! Only to be round the clock drinking within a month's time again and again.
It only gets worse unless we get really and truly prepared for a rest of our lives plan.
Few of us can do it alone, and few of us can go it without a plan of some sort. Glad you are here, stick around and keep on keeping on. There are lots of good tips and a link for recovery plans too.
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Thanks for all the tips. @Delizadee - I'm doing this one day at a time. My plan is to not be dependent on alcohol. It may be naive but I have no "professional" program or plan to follow. I have been in touch with a Dr. and spilled the drinking beans. I had liver tests, and ultrasound and was diagnosed with fatty liver. Maybe that's when I started paying more and more attention to the fact that I'm an alcoholic. But I wasn't ready to put it down because of the love of beer. It's hard to leave something you love. But I have to. I'm not drinking today, and that's what matters. This site is (IMHO) the most useful tool for me. Thank you to everyone for the involvement and honesty.
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Congrats on your week airplayne
This is a pretty good link about making a recovery plan to help you stay sober - you might get something out of it
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ery-plans.html
This is a pretty good link about making a recovery plan to help you stay sober - you might get something out of it
http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ery-plans.html
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Still alive. :-)
Feeling better everyday. Anxiety has almost completely gone. I had a thought about counting days. I don't really want to count days. I feel like it gives me something to think about and in a weird way like it's a hindrance. Is that normal or not? I'd rather just go with the fact that I just don't drink anymore. And stick with it. If I want to remember why just read this forum and my journal and thoughts on why it was important to quit. Thoughts?
Feeling better everyday. Anxiety has almost completely gone. I had a thought about counting days. I don't really want to count days. I feel like it gives me something to think about and in a weird way like it's a hindrance. Is that normal or not? I'd rather just go with the fact that I just don't drink anymore. And stick with it. If I want to remember why just read this forum and my journal and thoughts on why it was important to quit. Thoughts?
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Originally Posted by Airplayne 
I feel like it gives me something to think about...
But it's not a rule. Don't count if you don't want to count. The only thing that counts is you don't drink.
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Originally Posted by doggonecarl
That's probably why I counted. I needed to think about my recovery, about the decision to quit drinking on a daily basis. I didn't view it as a hindrance. In the beginning, every day I was sober was a milestone, an accomplishment. And I was proud of them, each tick of the sober clock.
But it's not a rule. Don't count if you don't want to count. The only thing that counts is you don't drink.
But it's not a rule. Don't count if you don't want to count. The only thing that counts is you don't drink.
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I have gone back and forth on the counting of days. In the beginning I knew it was important for my accountability. Now I celebrate the first of each month, and on January 1st I will celebrate one year. Do what works best for you.
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Still on the wagon...
Day 15 is over. Still no booze for me. It feels good. Another victory. Started losing some weight and walking a lot. Anxiety has been a bear. It is subsiding but still not fun. This forum is the best thing I have found. You are all wonderful people and great support.
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Originally Posted by jryan19982
Like you I was beginning to see where this was going. My hangovers were getting really bad and were probably border line withdrawals. I knew where I would end up if I continued. It took a few tries but I'm good now. I'm more productive and a lot happier for the most part. I was a B itch to be around for a while but I've made made some progress in that area.
Consider yourself lucky you are trying this now versus being older and quitting would be harder and more dangerous. Im in my early 30s and once you get over that hump you will feel like new... Well almost like new.
My life is better and I know that for sure.
Consider yourself lucky you are trying this now versus being older and quitting would be harder and more dangerous. Im in my early 30s and once you get over that hump you will feel like new... Well almost like new.
My life is better and I know that for sure.
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Originally Posted by Airplayne
Day 15 is over. Still no booze for me. It feels good. Another victory. Started losing some weight and walking a lot. Anxiety has been a bear. It is subsiding but still not fun. This forum is the best thing I have found. You are all wonderful people and great support.
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Curious
Out of curiosity, how many of you have dealt with anxiety that dissipates after eating properly? It seems to help for me. Thank you to all of you for the encouragement and support!
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