skipper123

well after almost 90 days and a wonderful sober beach vacation I gave in and had a glass of wine maybe two then I threw the rest of the bottle away. I was disappointed in myself but thought I just need to get back on track. Then the next day I bought another bottle and drank the whole thing in about an hour.
Now I am really disappointed in myself. It was so strange the urge was so strong I never even gave it a second thought . I made up my mind to drink and didn't try to talk myself out of it or use any of the tools that have helped me in the best. I was determined . I know it was stress that caused it. I have to get back on track and not buy wine today.
Thank you for listening . Any words of wisdom or encouragement would be appreciated

doggonecarl

I find daily reading and posting to SR keeps me on track. Emphasis on daily.

Why not join the newcomers class of August for daily support and accountability?

Darwinia

I know that urge. Had to fight it hard today. Stress is a b*tch.

Soberwolf

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...ery-plans.html

Ghostlight1

Oh how I've fell down that trap so many, many times.
Some how the alcoholic brain takes over and I had little defense against it.
It happened out of nowhere. Like, I could just drink again having forgotten all the misery and suffering it would bring.
I don't understand it either, but know you're not alone.
Best to you, and pick yourself up and know you're not a failure. Sometimes there are bumps in the road to sobriety.

Dee74

Hi Skipper - if you've not read it, do look at the link Soberwolf posted...

a good plan really is worth its weight in gold.


Welcome back
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Rupert

Right there with ya, skipper. I only made it a few weeks then I drank myself stupid at my friend's birthday right before my first day at a new job. I was anxious, fidgety, and all around just probably acting pretty weird around my training supervisor. Then, I decided to "Say goodbye" to drinking again by... drinking again. It was supposed to be one drink but I think I had about 10. It's very strange how quickly we forget, or want to forget about our issue with alcohol and start all over again. Hang in there, though. You got it right today and that's what counts.

Dee74

Yeah as long as you make that commitment everyday
I hope you'll look at the link too Rupert

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Mountainmanbob

I found that if I enterain the thought of drinking, I'm in very dangerous territory and if I don't be rid of those thoughts fast, I end up with a drink in my hand.

No reason to dwell on drinking because I don't drink.

M-Bob

Gottalife

If it was stress that caused it I think you have a real problem. How are you going to get a stress free life? I never managed it.

I experienced the same sort of thing. The real cause was that I had no effective defence for those momments. Half the time I wasn't even aware. My human defences like play the tape through, call someone etc were not operative.
The memories of the disaster of even a few hours ago did not come to mind with sufficient force to deter me.

My solution was to join AA (the program) and develop a relationship with the god of my understanding through the steps. I had what we call a spiritual experience which brought on a complete change in my reaction to life. Drinking was replaced with dealing in my reactions.

I was given a 24/7 defence wherever I go, meetings or no. It has lasted a long time.

Delilah1

Glad you came back again, I agree with Dee about the link, it is really a good one. Stress happens no matter what and we need to find new ways to deal with it. Exercise helps, and so does meditation. I have found mindfulness to be a very effective strategy to not allow myself to get too much into my head.

Glad you are back.

skipper123

Thanks everyone for your support. Soberwolf, I will look at that link tonight and I am considering an AA meeting. Still on the fence with that one I am private and don't like to open up to strangers. It took me a long time to post anything on here as well. Doggonecarl, I think I will join the August class if its not too late.

Anyway, thank you all so much for taking the time to respond. I had a much better day today no desire at all! Just need to keep on the sober path!!

Dee74

It's still August so it's not too late Skipper

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least

You can also post once a day in the 24 hour recovery connections thread in Daily Support forum. That's a good way to confirm your daily commitment to staying sober.

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...art-160-a.html

Once I got to the point where I wanted to be sober more than I wanted to drink, I was able to say no to the urge to drink.

skipper123

ok great thx I did not know that!

Optimini

I'm glad you came back right away. It seems like that 3 month mark is so tricky, and people often feel the problem has vanished at that point. Sorry you have to start over, I'm sure it will be a valuable lesson learned.